https://youtu.be/beDR2wEt-jY?si=GCCPoVMCW_OQarW0

Personal disclosure; I LOVE #PaintingMiniatures, and #SciFi, and #Fantasy but I've always been ambivalent at best about #warhammer40000.

Maybe it was my #ChronicDepression, but I HATED the bleak #nihlism of the setting and wondered what fellow #gamers saw in #40K.

I used to worry some of them secretly LIKED the idea of a setting where everyone was #angry, and #ignorant, and hated each other.

Now I worry it's not just gamers, and they're not even secretive about it.

I know things are going rather well now.
I sorted my floors and it's all ordered.
I got some other things ready for the new place.
Arwen is slowly on the mend, doing better every day...
And still, I feel sad and exhausted.
Yeah, worries wear you out!
My ADHD took some spoons as well wanting me to be active.
But I don't understand why I feel so tired and sad.
The weather is improving, my pain is not that bad at the moment, I'm enjoying some good series on TV (re-watching several different ones at the moment), I have food, a place to live (ok that needs improvement hence me moving in 3 months), a car, family and friends and of course Arwen...
Why. Am. I. Sad?

#ChronicPain #ChronicIllness #ChronicDepression #ChronicallySickOfItAll

#PixysJourney

Sigh... Some days are meant to be skipped. To stay hidden from the world and resurface the next day to try again.
My brain is not in a good state. My body isn't either.
I hate complaining, I hate feeling like this.
So glad it's getting nearer to bedtime. Just wanna sleep and start over fresh tomorrow.

#ChronicPain #ChronicDepression

CW: Mention of suicidal ideation

Saw my therapist yesterday for the first time after she doubled my Effexor dose due to my reporting severe depression and suicidal ideation. Can’t say that the new dosage has helped but it’s early yet. This is, I think, my 5th or 6th different medication/dosage change since diagnosis twenty years ago. It’s incredibly defeating that medication /therapy has not helped for that long. #depression #depressed #anxiety #anxietydisorder #medication #chronicdepression

Yesterday I started a new novel which was absolutely not what I had planned. But almost 5,000 words later I'm deep into Chapter 1. Furthermore I've got the basic ideas outlines & the 2nd novel planned.

Did I mention I suffer from clinial depression? No.

This is to prove you can come out of it not only alive but MOTHERFUCKING SWINGING!!!

#depression #anxiety #chronicdepression #clinicaldepression

Howdy kind Mastonauts! 😁 Welcome to this new account.
I made (another) account to share things that are not health or entertainment-related. I have dedicated accounts for those things (links in bio).

I will boost those toots when I feel them "good enough" to share with you.

I'm #AuDHD (#ActuallyAutistic and #ADHD). I live with #Fibromyalgia and #Hypermobility. Got a fake hip. Love fitness. Have an eating disorder that I struggle with. I also have been fighting with #ChronicDepression for many years.

My big love is my 10-year-old Labrador lady Arwen. She's slowly showing her age, bless her, so I'm often worried about that.

I have a silly kind of humor and often am either too straightforward or too anxious to say anything.

Have a nice day everyone! 🌸

Heya! #introduction ! =)

#italian #australian transplant in #sweden .

Sleep deprived #dad of two small humans and trying to do the best possible job of it.

I suffer #chronicdepression and raging #socialanxiety which also means that I have very poor focus and memory and am bad at peopling in general.

Leaning heavily into #anarchism and #solarpunk .

Fascinated with #psychology , especially related to politics, society and #authoritarianism .

I spend most of my non-dad time developing Squarepants, a minimalist and #accessible programming language, otherwise I play #warframe and dream of #gamedev

I know I'm privileged in many ways and I try to be a decent ally.

I am thinking a lot about how to do something for the #climate emergency, but so far I'm just trying to learn to talk to people effectively.

Some things about me:

I am #aromantic, #asexual, #agender, and #intersex. Very #queer and #neuroqueer.

I have so many disabilities, I find it difficult to remember most of them. This includes the following: #ADHD, #Autism, #Insomnia, #Dysautonomia, #ChronicMigraines, #Type2Diabetes, #VisualSnowSyndrome, #Agoraphobia, #Dyspraxia, #ChronicDepression, #TopographicalDisorientation, etc. This list is nonexhaustive.