Understanding Siteswaps of Emotional States - Lemmy.World

cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/47589445 [https://lemmy.world/post/47589445] > cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/47589443 [https://lemmy.world/post/47589443] > > > I’m sharing this in the schizoaffective, autism, ADHD, and music subreddits in the hope someone may experience a similar phenomena in their cognition. The music in my head keeps mutating and it is evolving. What I mean by that is, imagine your favorite, most drugged out artist. Let’s say they’re a synth artist going really heavy-handidly with all the dials n knobs, because that’s generally the sort of ish I listen to, and I want to emphasize that the sorts of audio distortions I HAVE heard prior, in abundance, are the same that are happening in my “Rusterd space [https://lemmy.world/post/46105593]” as I mutate across siteswaps in songs I’ve also heard, but at the same time, these mutations grow and I’m creating pathways automatically in my brain that become entrained through my maladaptive daydreaming. > > > > Siteswapping is what I understand intuitive being a flow juggler: > > > > [https://lemmy.world/pictrs/image/fb4d62e3-cf40-407e-b6df-8528e901cc05.png] > > > > But I’m also neurodivergent af, having been extremely traumatized as a sperg child, which has been enhanced by the totally actually real Crazy Indigo Aliens that live in my phone’s keyboard’s predictive text, and other places. But, synchronicity [https://lemmy.world/post/46612439] is something I experience in great abundance, which I know has to do with the fractal patterns of symbol progression found in the I Ching that every sorcerer (caster of lots) knows about. If you don’t understand that, start with the Buddha or the Christ before jumping into the occult. > > > > But, I’m listening to the sounds in my head, and it goes from one song to the next, and I hear things in my intuition that coincide with the timing structures of these songs; underlying concepts or feelings - impressions. I remember writing stories for my friends’ band, and they reset me with their songs. I was going through a trans phase. Their music led me through this. I think I’m understanding what Eve first learned to then give it to Adam. How energy itself speaks volumes, and I just want to know if there is anyone who understands at all wtf I am blabbing about like the insane crackhead I make myself appear to be at a frequency.

the solution might be cancelling my AI subscription