#Journal of an aching Dutch AuDHD Pixy  (Friday, 17/04/2026).

I had a short night. I had trouble falling asleep, I had trouble staying asleep, so when I finally got up again, my watch told me I had only gotten about 5¼ hours of sleep. And, I had gone to bed with a pain in my left shoulder, which, unfortunately, had not gotten any better during my short sleep. Which was not a good thing, as I would need that shoulder to cooperate with me, when bestie, and I would be working on the back garden. So, I got up, gave the scale a nasty look, and I got dressed. I took my meds, packed my bag, and then I got to Skoosh, so we could skedaddle to the gym.

I checked up on the social bits, while I enjoyed my protein shake. My shoulder muscles were not happy with me, and they hurt with the silliest things, like trying to blow my nose properly! It was so weird… I got to the recumbent bike, rode it for a while, and then I got to the treadmill for a short walk. But, my leg and back were not overly enthusiastic, and I wanted to save some spoons, as I would walk to the store, and work in the garden, later today. So, after a nice massage, I switched my shoes, and Skoosh and I skedaddled back home again.

I washed up, got to the couch, and I wrote my journal toot. I worked a bit on my blog, and then I had some ideas to make an AI image. But, somehow, Gemini was not working properly, as I could not save any of the images in the 4mp quality that it usually gives me. I only got 1mp downloads, and that bummed me out after a bit. So, after trying to get the image I wanted, and struggling hard to have Gemini understand the simple prompts, and then not being able to save the images in a proper format, I just gave up. I put away the laptop, and I tried to relax for a while, while watching some telly.

I relaxed for a while, until it was time to get ready to head to the store to get some fresh buns. I got there a bit early, but they allowed me to go in earlier as well, so by the time it was 8, I was already coming out again, ready to walk home. When I got back, I tried to prepare some things, and then, I watched more telly, until bestie called me that she was just getting into town. Yay!

I waited for her at the parking. We got in, I fixed a cup of tea, and we chatted for a bit. Then, we got ready to start the hard work. And wow, that shoulder of mine was definitely not pleased with the bending and twisting and turning… But… I tried my best to do as much as I could, as I didn’t want to let down my friend, and make her do all the hard work. I know she’d definitely do more than I could, but still, I gave it all I got too. After about 2 hours, I had fixed us a nice lunch. Then, we got back at it, and we finished up as best as we could. It wasn’t perfect, and bestie had wanted to do a better job, but with the time we had, and the broken bodies… This was perfection!

Bestie got ready to head home, and I jumped in the shower for a bit. More and more muscles were hurting, and I also got a blister on my right index finger, just 10 minutes after I started the work. After the shower and a change of clothes, I got out to walk with the black 🖤 fluff. He got all his cuddles and snacks, and then I got ready to head to Cuijk for the puppy visit.

We had a good time with the pups, but I wasn't able to take any pictures, as they were definitely in fluffy piranha mode! Loads of snapping teeth, preferably in me, especially my toes! 😂We got some special Koa cuddles in, and I cuddled a bit with the others as well. Then, I wondered why my right pinkie was hurting, and when I looked at it, the bottom part was swollen, with nice blue and purple colors. I don’t know if it got bruised during the garden work, or when the big galls jumped against me, or when the pups all tried to attack me… Joke got some special cooling thingie on it, which helped to ease the pain some. Then, we helped her to weigh all the heavy balls of fluff, after they had enjoyed their meals. And then, mum and I got ready to head back home again.

I prepared everything to get ready to head to bed, as I was broken and tired enough. But my brain took some time to wind down, and my body needed some time before the pain meds kicked in. And then, I finally dozed off. I didn’t wake up again until the alarm woke me up, which gave me almost 6 hours of sleep in total. So, I got up, and I started my “day”… Still sore…

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#Journal of a slightly busy Dutch AuDHD Pixy  (Thursday, 16/04/2026).

I didn’t have the best sleep. Even though I was tired enough when I went to bed, my body and brain weren’t too happy with me wanting to sleep. I was awake a while, and a few times. In the end, when I got up, I got about 6½ hours of sleep, which wasn’t too bad I guess, I just didn’t feel as rested as I hoped I would. The scale was an asshat again, and I got dressed to start my day.

After I’d taken my meds, packed my bag, and put on my shoes, I headed to Skoosh, and together we skedaddled to the gym. We arrived safe and sound, and I checked up on my socials while I enjoyed my protein shake. I got to the recumbent bike, rode it for a while, and followed it with a walk on the treadmill. After a massage in the chair, I got ready to head back to Skoosh, so we could skedaddle back home again.

When I got home, I headed upstairs, where I folded the dried laundry. Then, I rode the bike for a short while, before I headed back down again. I put away the laundry, and then, after a wash-up, I got to the couch. I grabbed my laptop, wrote my journal toot, finished a blog post, and then I tried to make some more animated images of Koa, to use with my chat apps. I am not too good with them yet, but it’s fun to try and play around with them. Especially when I am able to create something that’s even a bit nice to look at. 😇

When I was getting a slight headache, I put away the laptop, and just relaxed on the couch with some telly. I fixed my brekkie, and took things easy, before I got ready to head to Nijmegen. I filled Skoosh with my two little 5l tanks. Then, in Nijmegen, I filled up the rest of her at Tango. I got to my parent’s place, where I helped mum get ready. Then, we took their car, and we headed to Germany.

We got the groceries we needed, we had to fill up the car and tanks at another station, as our usual one had tape around the pumps, so they could not be used. Back in Nijmegen, we visited Lidl and Jumbo, before heading back to my parent’s place. I helped mum with the groceries, and then I walked with Bas. I returned a missed call from yesterday to the hospital. They booked me in for my hand surgery, which will take place on June 18th, if all goes to plan. When I hung up, I saw an email about a delivery. They managed to inform me around 10am, that they’d be coming to my place between 10:15-12:15. Well, seeing it was already past ten, and I was still walking Bas, and I had to drive home…

So, of course I missed out on the delivery. I found out that it was my new upstairs roller curtain, finally! So, I re-scheduled the appointment to Friday, and hopefully they can come when I am home then. I cleaned up my groceries, had some food, and I relaxed a bit, until the neighbor texted about walkies with the black 🖤 fluff. When I got back, I got ready to head to bed.

But, I woke up quite a lot. The second time, I saw that I had missed a call from Joke, so I called back when I was awake enough. She changed the puppy visit time to 15, instead of 14, so I texted mum with the update as well. And then, I tried to sleep again. I woke up once more, and then around 22:15, when I decided to just get up, and start my “day”.

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#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy  (Wednesday, 15/04/2026).

It had taken me quite some time to properly fall asleep. And, when I woke up a little more than 5 hours later, my body was sore, and I just had to get up, and start moving again. The scale was not kind, even though I thought I had done well, as I had not snacked, and I had tried to exercise as much as my body allowed. Ah well, feeling sore and a bit grumpy, I got dressed, and I started my “day”.

After I’d taken my meds, packed my bag, and put on my shoes, Skoosh and I skedaddled to the gym. I enjoyed my protein shake, while I checked up on the social bits. Followed by a ride on the recumbent bike, and a short walk on the treadmill. After a little massage in the chair, I got ready to head back home again.

I washed up, got to the couch, and I grabbed my laptop. I wrote my journal toot, worked a bit on my blog, uploaded the new vids that Joke had shared, and then I put the laptop away again. I watched some telly for a while, as I felt a bit tired.

After I fixed and enjoyed some food, bestie called me on her way to work. We had a nice chat. After that, as the weather wasn’t too bad, I got to the garden, and I started some weeding. I could only manage it for about 15 minutes, and then I felt like I had run at least 10k. I was tired, sweaty, aching, and my hand really hated me. I relaxed for a while on the couch.

I headed out for a short walk around the block, I relaxed a bit more on the couch, and then I headed to the back garden, as the weather was rather lovely. I read for a while, I weeded a bit, until it hurt, and I sat down to read a bit more. After 2 chapters, I tried to weed a bit more. Then, the sun was behind some clouds, and it was getting more overcast. So, I headed back inside, where I watched telly, until the neighbor texted me about walkies with the black 🖤 fluff.

We had a nice little walk, where the fluff got all the cuddles, and of course some snacks. When I got back, I got ready to head to bed. After a little while, I dozed off. I woke up once for the loo, and then I dozed off again. When I woke up again, I still had about 2 hours until the alarm. But, my body was so incredibly sore, that I just had to get up. 😞 So I got up, grumbled at the scale, and I started my “day”.

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#Journal of a slightly anxious Dutch AuDHD Pixy  (Tuesday, 14/04/2026).

After two shorter nights, this time, I actually got about 8 hours of sleep, and it felt rather nice. I got up, got to the scale, and I grumbled. I had been snacking less, I had been trying to exercise as much as my leg and hand would allow, and still, the weight didn’t want to go down. So, a bit disappointed, I got dressed. After I’d taken my meds, packed my bag, and I’d put on my shoes, I headed to Skoosh. Together, we skedaddled to the gym.

We arrived safe and sound, and I got to “my” usual table, and I enjoyed my protein shake, while I was checking up on the social bits and bops. When I was partially done with that, I got to the recumbent bike, where I finished an email to a very sweet friend. After my ride, I managed to walk the treadmill for 10 minutes. I enjoyed a massage in the chair, before I switched my shoes, and got ready to head back home.

I washed up, got to the couch, and grabbed my laptop to write my journal toot. I worked on my blog for a bit, and I ordered some Koa pictures, so I could add them to the lovely (I hope) red photo album that I ordered a few days ago. When the album and pictures have arrived, it will be fun to start on an “old skool” picture album for my “red-collared boy”, Koa. Then, I played a bit with some AI, as I tried to create a Disney like video of my mum, cuddling with Koa. I got a few little vids and images, and together with the original ones, I combined them into a short little video: https://makertube.net/w/j5DEL3vjrdk6tHPtTsz5eb.

My head wasn’t up to reading, so I just relaxed with some telly for a while instead. Then, I got some clean plaids, and I cleaned up the couch a bit. The old plaids would get a wash later, so that I have enough clean ones, just in case Koa makes a bit of a mess when he gets here. I relaxed a bit more, and then, bestie called me on her way to work. When she had hung up, I went and fixed some food. While I was eating, the washing machine was doing a fine job on the plaids. I could hang them up when I was done with my meal. And, then I started the dishwasher.

I tried to get all the chores done. Around 10:15, I headed to Skoosh, and we skedaddled to Grave. I visited the store where I could pick up the puppy package. I had checked the store’s website for puppy toys and I had found a few that I was interested in. But, they only had a few things at the store (it wasn’t too big), so I went with two toys for Koa. I paid, got the puppy box from a very kind lady, and then I headed to Cuijk. As I still had some time, I went to Action, and it was good that I did!

They had a small fake grass mat for sale, 1x2,5m for €9,99. As bestie and I would be trying to tackle the back garden this Friday, and as Koa is learning to poop and wee on the fake grass in their pen, I thought this would help me and him for a better transition. I want to walk with him, to get him used to that, and to give him bits of exercise and socialization. But the fake grass in the garden can hopefully help him to be able to go out for his business as well. And, by the time Koa’s more trained and all, then I could replace the bit of cheap grass with some better quality stuff. So I was very excited to see this sale, and to be able to take it with me. I also bought some more toys, and a “licking mat”.

I got to the physio a bit early, as usual, as the visits to the store had gone quite quick! They managed to change my appointment so that I would not have to wait too long. I was still waiting for the hospital to call me about my hand X-rays from the previous week… My PT did the echo on my hip, as he told me he’d do. He didn’t see anything too pressing to need immediate action, but he did see bits that explain my discomfort/pain in the area. He will scan the area again in a few weeks, and depending on what he will find then, he may write a request to the hospital for a better scan.

On the way home from physio, when it was already in the afternoon, the doc from the hospital finally called me. And, it was as we expected: there is osteoarthritis in my right hand. So, they want to perform the same surgery as that’s been done on my left hand… 😞 The wait list is about 2½-3 months, so hopefully I will have done the most important parts of the training with Koa, so that he can be with my parents for a few hours on the day of the OP. And, hopefully he will be trained enough, so that I can walk and care for him properly, while my arm/hand are in a cast, recovering after the OP. So yeah… Medically, I am still a bit of a wreck, I guess…

I got home, unpacked all the toys and such, and then I relaxed for a while with some telly. When the neighbor texted me for walkies with the black 🖤 fluff, I got my jacket, and the snacks of course, and we headed out for a short walk. After all the cuddles and nomnoms, I headed back home again. I got ready to head to bed, as I felt tired enough. Unfortunately, my ADHD brain was still buzzing, and it took me quite a while to finally, properly, doze off. I woke up again a little more than 5 hours later. My body was sore, and even through I was still tired, I had to start moving around, as my muscles would not let me relax enough to get any more sleep. So, I got up, and I started my “day”.

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#Journal of a slightly tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy  (Monday, 13/04/2026).

I had a good time with the puppies on Sunday afternoon. When I finally went to bed, it took me quite some time to fall asleep. When I woke up again, after about 5½ hours, my back was very sore, and I had to get up, and start moving around. The scale was a bit kinder. I got dressed, I took my meds, and I packed my bag. When all was done, I got to Skoosh, and together we skedaddled to the gym.

I checked up on the social media bits. I tried to upload some videos to PeerTube while I was riding the bike and walking the treadmill, but somehow, they weren’t properly loading. I thought it was my internet connection at the gym, although I never had issues before. After a while, I gave up. I enjoyed a massage in the chair, and then I switched my shoes, to head back home with Skoosh.

I washed up, dressed, and I got to the couch. I grabbed my laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. Then, I finished my journal post for Tuesday’s posting. After that was done, I started to upload my vids and snaps to Flickr, and I worked on getting descriptions with them as well. PeerTube was not working properly on the laptop with the better internet (I even hooked the laptop up on the LAN line). I kept getting 503 gateway errors. I asked a friend in the States, and he got the same errors, so I knew it was due to the site, not to my connections.

After I worked with uploading the bits, and I added descriptions to most of them, I put away the laptop. I had wanted to read a bit, but I could not focus on it. I played with my phone a bit, trying to get some screengrabs from my puppy videos. I tried to play a bit with those images, using AI to make some cartoon and vector style emojis of them. But it wasn’t going as I hoped it would, so after a bit, I just gave up, and watched more telly.

Bestie was going to call a bit later, so I fixed my food first. As I had not eaten brekkie, due to me forgetting to buy yogurt on Sunday. 🫣 After I finished eating, bestie called, and we had a nice chat as she drove to work. When she had arrived, I got ready to walk to the supermarket, to get that yogurt, among some other things.

I had a good walk, got what I needed, and got back home again. I felt a bit tired, after having two shorter nights in a row. So, I retreated to the couch for a while, and just watched some telly. After some relaxing, I went upstairs, and I got a box. I used it to start cleaning out the lower level of my little table, preparing it for when Koa comes. After that, I felt OK enough to try and mop the floors a bit. I didn’t do a perfect job, and even with doing it so-so, my hand and back were trying to kill me even before I was all the way done. I know it needs to be done better before Koa comes, but I still have a bit over a week, so I want to do that at the latest.

Sore and tired, I got back to the couch, and I watched telly until the neighbor texted me about walkies and cuddles with the big black 🖤 fluff. We had a nice walk, he got all the scratches and snacks, and then I headed back home. I prepared everything to get to bed in time. It didn’t take too long to doze off. But shortly after I did, there was noise outside, and it startled me. After a little time, I fell asleep again. I woke up once more, for the loo. And then, when I woke up again, I had to get up and start moving around. According to my watch, I got about 8 hours of sleep, so that was a huge improvement to the less than 6 hours from the previous nights. So, I got up, and I started my “day”.

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#Journal of an excited Dutch AuDHD Pixy  (Sunday, 12/04/2026).

I had a bit of a shorter night. I went to bed later, due to dad leaving late after we’d finished installing the LAN to upstairs. I had set my alarm a little later, but after some time, my back started to hurt a lot, and I just had to get up and start my “day”. The scale wasn’t too bad, but I know that it could do better (if only I could be doing better to achieve that). I got dressed, I took my meds, packed my bag, and I got ready to head to the gym.

I checked up on my social bits while I was enjoying my protein shake. Then, I got to the recumbent bike for a while, followed by a short walk on the treadmill. I got to the massage chair, and after some relaxing, I got ready to head home again.

I relaxed a little, and then I headed to the shower. I did my best to properly give myself a wash, but it had to be a faster one, as the water was really annoying me. Stupid sensory issues… 😞After that, I got to the couch, and grabbed my laptop. I wrote my journal toot, worked a bit on my blog, and then I tried to make descriptions for all the new puppy pictures that had been shared in the puppy chat.

There were some great pictures of Koa. One of them, I tried to make into an emoji, but I also managed to make some little animated images for stickers to use with WhatsApp and Signal. I had never made stickers like that. First, I used Gemini to make little videos, which I edited into little GIF images. Those, I had to adjust to the right size and format. With some hassle, and some grumbling, I managed to make two animated stickers and one normal one, for both the chat apps.

I went upstairs to ride the bike for a bit. After that, I relaxed while watching some telly. When I felt more relaxed, I got to the treadmill, and I walked it for a while. After that, bestie called me as she was driving to Rotterdam for a run she was partaking in. When she hung up, I made myself some food. I relaxed some more, as I felt tired, and I even dozed off for a little while.

When I got the text for walkies with the big black 🖤 fluff, mum was already coming to my back door. She was supposed to come around 14, and it was 13:20. But, she didn’t mind relaxing on the couch for a bit, while I had the little walk with the fluff and my neighbor. When I got back, mu and I watched a bit of telly, one of the series that mum was enjoying, until it was time to get to Skoosh.

We arrived in Cuijk a little earlier, as the roads were a lot better, compared to last Friday. We got to cuddle the 3 big girls, and then it was time to get into the pen, to play with the little ones. And ow my, they were still being cute, little fluffy piranha’s 😂. So many little bites and nibbles! I tried to take some pictures, but that was virtually impossible. So, I tried to get a little video instead, making sure I would film all the pups, so I could share it in the group.

Of course, I tried to get more Koa cuddles now, hoping that we could use the two visits that we had, before he would be coming come, to bond a little better. I left the pen to sit a bit, and cuddle with the big girls. Then Joke told me that I could take Koa out for some more cuddles. So, first I cuddled him, and then he got on the table, so mum could get some cuddles as well.

The pups were given a meal, and after they had been enjoying that for a bit, mum and I got ready to head back home. We got home a little after 17. Mum headed to their home, and I got ready to get to bed, as I was rather tired. But still, it took me a while to get comfortable, and finally be able to doze off and fall asleep. When I woke up again, I was wide awake, and my body was no longer comfortable, so I had to get up. With about 5½ hours of sleep, I started my “day”.

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#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy  (Saturday, 11/04/2026).

I had a decent enough night. I woke up twice, and then when my alarm alarm told me it was time to get up and start my “day”. The scale was still its silly self. I got dressed, I took my meds, packed my bag, and I headed to the gym. Skoosh got me there safe and sound, and I enjoyed my protein shake while checking up on the social bits and bops.

I rode the bike for 25 minutes, followed by a walk on the treadmill for 20. I could not use the massage chairs, as they were in use by others. So, I switched my shoes, and I got ready to skedaddle back home again.

I washed up and changed, and then headed to the couch with the laptop. I had an idea to create a video with many of the snaps and vids that feature Koa. I should have written my journal toot first, because once I had started on the video editing, I kinda lost some track of time… I did remember to eat brekkie, as my tummy started to annoy me. And then I managed to write the journal toot, before I finished the video. It’s not the best editing, and I do want to try to make it better with time, but it’s good (and long) for now.

When the video had finished rendering, I wrote a bit for a new blog post. Then, I managed to fix some proper food for myself, it even had veggies! 😇 After food, I relaxed for a wee bit, and then I went upstairs. I folded the dry laundry, and I managed to ride the bike for a while. Then, I cleaned up the clothes and all, and I got back to the couch for a bit of relaxing.

Dad texted me that he was coming my way in the afternoon, to help me fix the upstairs LAN cable connection. I vacuumed the downstairs area, and then I waited for dad to text me that he was on his way.

Mum texted me instead, and I made sure the gate was open, so dad could come in. But, when I saw the car park, I didn’t see dad get out. While I walked to the gate, I got a text from dad that he had arrived. But he didn’t know that he could come in… Even though I told him that I would open it so he could… Ah well…

Dad and I checked the materials I had. And dad was being a bit weird, because something that was very clear and easy for me to see and understand, he kept saying it was wrong, because the ones he has used were different… But… He didn’t check the numbers, and it took some time for me to persuade him that the info on the connector was indeed right… So, we finally got started, and things went well enough. In about an hour, we attached the wall connection and the little clip on the other side. We checked the connection, and it worked like a charm! So, that was a big plus. 😊 Dad mounted the wall connector, and found out that the people that had put in the connector box had been drunk or something, because it’s more crooked than the tower of Pisa… 🫣 Ah well… At least it works!

I helped dad clean up everything, and carried his stuff to the car. Then, I got ready to head to bed. It took a little while to fall asleep. I woke up, went to the loo, and tried to fall asleep again. I managed to get another hour, but then I woke up again, and my back was terribly sore. So, even though I had another hour till the alarm, I just got up, and started my “day”. And… It would be a puppy cuddling day! 🥰

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#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy  (Friday, 10/04/2026).

I had a bit of a shorter night than I had hoped for. But, with almost 6 hours of sleep, I had woken up, and my brain was ready to go. So, I got up, got to the scale, and I dressed to start the “day”. I took my meds, packed my bag, and I got ready to head to Skoosh, so we could skedaddle towards the gym.

We arrived safe and sound. I checked my social bits, while I was enjoying my protein shake. Then, I got to the recumbent bike, and I rode away… Well, I rode. 😉At one point, I was wondering why my music sounded so strange. I had forgotten to pack my Buds, so I was using my headphones. Then, when I took those off, I noticed what the noise was all about. There was a huge thunderstorm happening! And the rain falling on the flat roof of the gym, made it sound like it was going to punch holes in it, as it was so damned loud! After a few minutes, the noise reduced again, and I was able to properly hear the music again. I didn’t use the treadmill after the bike, as they were rather busy, and I didn’t want to squeeze between two dudes, so I went to the massage chair instead.

After that, I switched my shoes, and Skoosh and I skedaddled back home. The rain was a lot less now, but the skies were still filled with all sorts of flashes. I got back home, braved the heavy wind what was blowing, and got warm and dry inside. I washed up, and went to the couch. Grabbed the laptop to work on my journal toot. I worked a bit on my blog as well, and I played a bit with some photo editing.

When I was done with that, I got to the treadmill where I managed to walk for half an hour. My leg and lower back weren’t too pleased, but it felt good to finally get a bit of a decent walk in again. I got back to the couch and I had wanted to read a bit. But then a very sweet friend from California texted me, and we ended up chatting for quite a while. It was very nice to chat with him again, and we played a bit with his AI image ideas as well. When he had to go, I wasn’t interested in reading anymore.

I had put the green bin out. There wasn’t that much in it, but I wanted to have it as empty as possible. Should bestie come to help me with the garden, next week on Friday, it will be good to have an empty bin, as there will be many weeds and roots coming out of the mess that’s my garden. 🫣 I watched a bit of telly, worked a bit on some images, sorting them out on my phone, so they would be less messy (and easier to find).

A wonder had happened, and DHL had actually delivered my parcels to my neighbor, 5 doors down the street! This was the first time in almost two years, that they finally took the effort to follow the instructions. So, my neighbor had not two, as I expected but 3 parcels for me! When she headed out with the big black fluff, I was able to receive them from her. Yay! Now I had everything I needed, so dad and I could finish the LAN-cable installing upstairs. And I had two new toys for Koa as well.

I had a bit to eat, and when it was time, I got ready to head to Cuijk. I knew they had closed down a bit of one of the highways there, so I expected it to be busier. And, I was right, as it took me 15 to almost 20 minutes longer to get to the physio… I was still too early, so that was a good thing.

My PT helped me with setting my thumb back properly. And he worked on my leg again, as I am still experiencing more issues with it, instead of less. Next week, he’ll take an echo of the hip, so he can hopefully find a reason for my worsening state of things. If necessary, he will write a letter for the GP, and then I can hopefully get a check-up at the hospital. But! I will need help when I can make an appointment with the hospital, as I need to have a different surgeon. After all the issues with the hip, the dislocation, and then the dude just saying I was a bit unlucky… Well, it still boils my brain when I think of it. So I definitely don’t want him again…

I tried to get back home again, which, of course, took me almost 20 minutes longer as well. I wanted to make a quick snack. So, my right hand lost its grip on a bin, it crashed, it spilled over the floor, my shirt, my pants, and my shoes. And, when I had cleaned it all, I picked up the bin again, and it turned out the bottom had been damaged! So, after all that cleaning, I had more cleaning to do, as more spilled out when I picked it up… 😞I was grumbling so hard…
When the neighbor texted me about cuddles with the big black 🖤 fluff, I got his snacks, and headed out.

After he had gotten all the cuddles, and of course all the snacks, I headed back home, and I got ready for bed. It didn’t take too long to doze off. I woke up twice during my night, but both times I was able to sleep again. Then, I woke up when the alarm told me it was time to start my “day”.

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#Journal of a slightly anxious Dutch AuDHD Pixy  (Thursday, 09/04/2026).

I had a bit of a weird night. I had woken up for the loo, checked my messages, didn’t see anything important, and I dozed off again. I woke up partially, turned around, and dozed off immediately again. Then, when the alarm woke me up, and I had gotten almost 8½ (!!) hours of sleep, there were a lot of messages! Joke had shared the test rapport, and with it, the names of the pups!!! I opened the rapport and, on the top of it, was Koa… Boy red, the alpha male! I was both excited, honored in a way, but also a bit scared… The alpha male, would I actually be able to handle raising a born leader, a “stubborn” one, with different rules than the beta dogs…

I got up, used the scale, got dressed. After taking my meds, and packing my bag, I got ready to head to the gym. Skoosh and I skedaddled, and we arrived safe and sound. I enjoyed my protein shake, while sharing many messages to everyone, telling them all that the red collared boy was now named Koa Koolani. Then, I got to the recumbent bike, and I rode it for a while. My leg started to act up, again, so I went to the massage chair after that. I would try to walk the treadmill later at home.

After the massage, I switched my shoes, and Skoosh and I went back home again. I washed up, and for a bit distracted with more messages about Koa. Then, I finally wrote my journal toot. I wrote a small extra blog post (https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/04/09/and-the-winner-is-%f0%9f%92%96/) after that, with the translated rapport on Koa, and with some pictures of Koa added to it as well. Then, I put away the laptop, and I wanted to read a bit. But…

My brain got distracted by another idea, and of course I had to go with that! I had already made two AI generated edits of the pups, one for boy red (who is now called Koa), and one for boy beige (who is now called Pumbaa). But, at the time, I only knew that it was most likely that one of the pair would become my Koa. So, what I did for those two boys, I also did for their 2 brothers and for their sister. So I had 5 different AI images, based on original pictures of the pups. I added their names as well, and later, I would share these with the puppy group. I had no idea if they would even like it, but it was fun to do, and I enjoyed doing it, so… 😊I shared all the images on Pixelfed (https://pixelfed.social/p/PixysSnaps/947706188724602552) as well, after I made alt texts for them.

Then, I put on my shoes, and I got to the treadmill. I had told myself I would walk, so I had to do that. After a little walk, I got back to the couch, and I read for a while. My bestie had texted me that she’d be calling a bit later, so I was just watching some telly, when she called earlier than planned. We talked while she was on her way to physio, and when she was almost there, I had to leave for my appointment to the hospital (check-up on my right hand). So, we talked for a while, while I was driving as well.

I got to the hospital too early, so I checked in, and then played a bit on my phone. Slowly, more people were coming in, and I got the urge to use my buds. But… It was almost time for my appointment, so I needed to be able to hear them call my name. They did call me in on time, and a doctor in training took me in. She discussed everything, making up a report for the surgeon, that was coming to check me out as well. He felt my hand, he discussed things with the other doc and me, and then discussed the options that he thought would be available. But, he wanted to get new X-rays taken, so I had to go to the main hospital for that.

It was a bit of a walk, but the weather was good. I tried to find a check-in, like they had in the other hospital (where I got my hip done), but I needed to go to another counter, and the lady there got me my ticket and directions. I waited for a bit, and then they called me in. 3 different shots of my hand were taken, and I was good to go. So, I walked all the way back. Got to Skoosh, found the exit gate, where I could pay with my card and leave. I didn’t have to find a machine first to pay, nope. It was possible to swipe the card at the gate, pay, and go. Very convenient.
I got back home, where I relaxed for a while. I had some food, watched some telly, and waited for some parcels to arrive. When the parcels from one of the delivery services had been delivered, I headed out for walkies with the big black 🖤fluff. I had some extra delicious snacks for him, which made him drool like a mad man! Haha! We had a nice little walk, he got all his cuddles, and then I headed back home. The other delivery service finally updated their delivery indication, and when they did, they made it impossible to change the delivery! Ugh..

I tried to check with their bot to find a way to a solution, as I did not want them to leave it in front of the door (both due to people being able to take them, and, there were warnings of thunderstorms coming). And the previous times, where I used the app to get the parcels delivered to the neighbor of the black fluff, who lives 5 doors down, they often just put it in front of the door anyway. Even after I changed it in the app, and I hung a note for them, asking them to deliver it 5 doors down… After frustration with the bot, I finally got a real person to chat with, I explained my situation, they understood. But I had to try the neighbor again… So I did! And then I warned the neighbor, telling her I had been a bit rude, and I had it changed before I had asked her… 🫣 But, she was OK with it, so I hung up the sign, and I headed to bed.

It took a while to doze off. I woke up once for the loo, and then I snoozed again, until I woke up a little earlier than I hoped. But, I was wide awake, so… It was time to get up, and start my “day”.

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Picture added today was one of my first pictures of Koa, during the first puppy visit, before I knew he would become *my* Koa. 🥰

#Journal of a slightly anxious Dutch AuDHD Pixy  (Wednesday, 08/04/2026).

I went to bed in time. But, I woke up and saw some messages on my phone that kept me chatting for a while. News about the puppies, where Joke told me that it was either going to be red or beige for me, seeing how they already were showing their characters. And if I had a preference between those two. So, I was a bit bummed, because part of me was hoping for either blue or white paw. But I had a little sob, and then I was able to recover, and be more excited that it was going to be one of those boys. After some chatting, I got back to sleep again. When I woke up, it was about half an hour till the alarm. I still felt a bit tired, but I got up, and I started my ‘day”.

The scale was decent enough, still not good, but not as bad as it had previously been. I got dressed, I took my meds, and when I had packed my bag, I headed to Skoosh. Together, we skedaddled to the gym. I checked up on the social bits. Then, I got to the recumbent bike, and I rode it for a bit. Followed by a short walk on the treadmill. My leg and tummy started acting up while I was walking, so I had to relax. I did get a massage in the chair, and then I got ready to head back home again.

I washed up, got to the couch, and I wrote my journal toot. I worked on my blog a bit, and then I made a few AI images with original pictures of boys beige and red, as one of them was going to be my Koa. Then, I put away the laptop, and I watched TV for a while. I also read for a bit.

When it was time to get ready to head to my parent’s place, I got all my bags and such, and Skoosh and I skedaddled to Nijmegen. The roads weren’t too busy, as there were some school holidays in the area. I helped mum with her stockings, and then we got ready to head to Kleve.

Filing up Skoosh was bad for my wallet. The prices had gone up 10 cents per liter in 6 days! Ugh… Fortunately, I didn’t need too much, but it was still a big price to pay, when compared to a few weeks ago, before the orange turd decided on this great plan of his… In about 6 weeks time, the price went up 33 cents per liter! And that is a whole lot, especially when you have a disability income, and you need to use the car for things… I know it’s hard on many folks, but the way some folks are driving, you’d think they literally have money to burn (and I don’t mean the EV folks).

Mum and I got the groceries we needed. We headed to Nijmegen, where we visited Lidl and Jumbo. A quick pit-stop at Appie, because I had to get my glass jars to the recycling bins. I could not do that at Lidl, as there was a market, and it was harder to reach the recycling station. But, now, finally I had been able to ditch the jars. We headed back to my parent’s place. I helped mum with unpacking the bags. When mum was getting her things in the fridge, I took Bas for a little walk. When we got back, I got my things, and Skoosh and I skedaddled back home again.

I put away my things, had a bite to eat, and watched some telly, until the neighbor texted me about walkies with the big black 🖤 fluff. We had a nice walk, and he got all the cuddles and snacks. I headed back home, and got ready to head to bed. It didn’t take too long for me to doze off. I woke up once, checked my phone, didn’t see anything important, so I got back to sleep. I woke up again, but felt too tired, so I managed to turn around, and sleep till the alarm.

When it woke me up, there was news on my phone! Joke had been able to finish all the tests, and she had sent the results to us. And the boy that is named Koa now is: boy red! So, I got up, read all the texts, got to the scale, and I started my “day”.

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