#Journal of a slightly tired, but still happy, Dutch AuDHD Pixy
(Thursday, 30/04/2026).
Another broken night. Not really due to Koa this time, but due to my body being too sore to deal with, and with my brain being too busy to let me relax. We went to bed in time, because I was so tired, and because it had taken me some time the previous night to fall asleep. So, we went to bed, and after some of the new routine set by Koa and me, he stopped fighting his sleep, and he started to snooze. It would take me three more hours to be able to fall asleep. Before then, Koa already went out for the first time. We slept for a while, about 3½ hours, and then Koa had to go out again. Then, he slept for about 2¾ hours, and he had to go again. We had been in bed for a longer time, but due to my sore muscles, and my busy brain, I had gotten about 6¼ hours of sleep in total. It would have to do, as we got up, and started our day.
I prepped Koa’s meat, used the scale, which was a bit kinder to me, and I got dressed. I took my meds, got my laptop, and I started writing my journal toot. After about 15 minutes, I prepped Koa’s kibble, and he was a very happy doggo. I hoped that he would relax after that, but instead, he got a bit mischievous, and started to nibble on the table. And then, he gave some cries that scared the bejeebus out of me! One of his teeth got stuck a bit in the wood, and he panicked. Well, so did I… I cuddled him for a bit, and then put him in his crate, as I wanted some writing time, without having to worry over Koa hurting himself, or damaging things, while I was a bit distracted. He complained a little while, but then he gave in, and he snoozed peacefully for a while.
After I finished the journal toot, I took Koa out for first walkies. I offered him the olifant (elephant) plush a few times, and he wobbled around with it for a bit. And yes, I was able to film it. 😉 We got back, played for a little while, and then Koa slept a bit under the couch. I do have to listen when he’s under there, as he also likes to nibble on the couch… 🫣 But, he slept for a while, and I was able to work a bit on my blog, and on uploading some pics (and descriptions), and vids. After a while, I was done, and Koa woke up again. We headed back out for a little walk.
There were workers busy behind the house. So, Koa wasn't interested in his olifant, as he was too preoccupied by the big working men, and especially the ones that “melted” when they saw him, and that wanted to shower him with all the cuddles in the world. We had a challenging walk, because Koa kept being distracted by the workers. But, he did his things, and then we walked around the house, and we took the front door to get back home.
After some cuddles and a little snack, Koa started to sink his teeth in the couch again… 😞 So, after several warnings, I had to crate him again, as he was getting a bit too wild, and he started to really bite in my hands when I tried to take him away from the wood he’d been nibbling on (which was a challenge, as he was under the couch, and with my shoulder and chest muscles being so sore… 🫣). Koa wasn’t too pleased, but after a while, he decided that he was indeed a bit tired, and he dozed off.
I tried to read for a little while, while Koa was snoozing, which was very nice. When Koa woke up again, we headed out for another walk. The workers were still there, so many distractions again. I tried to sit in the garden with Koa for a while after that, but Koa kept trying to grab little rocks and all… So after getting yet another rock from his mouth, I gave up, and I took him back inside. We played a little, and then we relaxed for a while. Mum texted me that she was on her way to us with some of my groceries.
Koa and I went out again, so we could meet and greet my mum when she’d arrive. We saw Nicole and the big black 🖤 fluff, and we tried to get him more used to Koa, bit by bit, Nicole and I chatted for a while, and then mum came, so we headed to her. I locked up Koa in his crate for a moment, so I could get the groceries safely inside. When we were done, when mum got her cuddles, we got to Skoosh, and we drove to Grave for the Welkoop store.
Mum sat in the back with Koa, who was a bit excited about it. We’d forgotten to take a toy with us, so we would look for a nice one at the store. Koa was allowed in the store, but only on his leash. Well, I would not walk him without one anyway! The sliding doors were a bit scary, but he managed, and then we went further, to look for the meat cans, and for a toy. Mum had Koa on the leash, and when I had found the meat, I walked back to her, and I saw that Koa was just finishing a wee… Mum had not noticed! 🫣 She had some tissues, so she started to clean it. I went to the cashiers, with the little guilty party 😉, and I asked for some paper towels so I could clean it up, and I apologized for the accident. And then... That lady thanked me!
I was a bit flabbergasted... Why would she thank me, when I tell her my dog peed in their store? But then she said that accidents can happen, especially with young dogs, but that most people just drag their dog away and pretend it didn't happen. They don't tell them that their dog had an accident, and they certainly don't ask for paper towels to clean it up themselves! Wow... I was so amazed, and a bit angry that folks behave like that... Mum cleaned it up for me, as I had Koa on the leash, and he tried to play with the towels... We got the meat, and mum picked out a toy for Koa as well. There was a doggy scale, so I got Koa on it, and it said 7,95kg, with his harness on. So not too bad all.
I paid for the bits, and asked to borrow some scissors, so I could cut the little duck toy free from the packaging. I wanted to take the bits of plastic home, and put it in the bin there. But the lady beat me to it, and she cleaned them up for me. Guess she was still grateful for my mum and me cleaning up after Koa’s little wet accident. On the way back home, Koa got on mum’s lap, and he tried to doze off bit by bit. But, with every twist and turn in the road, he’d wake up again. Poor thing, I guess he was in for some snoozing after we’d get home.
We got back, and mum watched Koa for a few minutes, so I could take down the dried laundry. Koa was very active, playing with his new duck toy. Then, mum headed back home, and I put Koa to his crate, as he was so terribly tired, and he didn’t take the rest he needed by himself… I fixed some food, and we relaxed together. Some walkies, some cuddles, some more relaxing.
As I had a short night the night before, I was rather tired. So, around 18, I got us ready to head to bed. We had last walkies, last cuddles, and to my amazement, it didn’t take too long before Koa was off in dreamland. If only I could join him! I was dead tired, but my muscles were so incredibly sore, that I took yet another extra painkiller, because it was driving me nuts. Then, when I felt a bit better, my brain was super wired and it would not let me relax. So, I worked on my blog a bit, and I managed to write a few posts. I took Koa out again, and still could not sleep… I was going nuts… I took Koa out again, and then I was finally able to doze off. And, within minutes, I had the worst nightmare of the last moments of Arwen’s life! 😭I woke up crying, and I felt so terribly bad…
I did the one thing I had not tried yet: I got my phone, started to stream Downton Abbey, and I just lay down and watched. And… I dozed off! Koa woke me again after about 3 hours. And then, I’d get back to bed again. When Koa woke me up again, it was 5:15, and time to get up… I had slept less than 5 hours, and felt bad… I hope that my PT can do something about that shoulder, as I do need more and better sleep (and less painkillers) than I am getting now. So, we got up, and we started our day…
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