Playing with shaders in #godotengine. The sky and ground is a single screen-facing quad that also writes to depth buffer so objects vanish over the horizon properly, although there is also a mesh for shadows. The world is just flat square and wrapped around a sphere radially from the camera position using another shader. Still working out how to let you walk around it and add physics. Feeling too #depressed to really care tho so its been a bit of a slog.
Would ya maties still rule me
We are staying with the Olympus Trip 35.
original title : Save me sad and lonely boy

First and foremost, the photo was taken near where I live. And perhaps the photo also reflects the mood I was in then, a couple of years ago and am a little bit today. A little lost and lonely. I was feeling really emotionally lost and went for a walk when I came across this boy. He looked lonely, standing there all alone in a remote meadow. He was seeking contact at the fence. I understood him completely...
Today it's grey and wet and I don't even want to leave the house.


#analog is timeless.
#filmphotography #ishootfilm #grainisgood #thisisbelgium #olympustrip35 #film #believeinfilm #trip35 #streetphotography #depressed #streetlife #art #blackandwhite #filmphotography #ghent #horse #winter #grey

โ€œI havenโ€™t felt truly engaged with my #work for much of my 20 plus year career. There have been patches where itโ€™s been interesting and Iโ€™ve been getting up in the morning feeling motivated, but for the great majority of it Iโ€™ve either been โ€˜mehโ€™ or #depressed (sometimes suicidally so), hyper #anxious and thoroughly miserable. My variable #mentalhealth is another (yet intertwined) story.โ€

I wrote some more about this:

https://open.substack.com/pub/threeofus/p/a-rock-and-a-hard-place

A rock and a hard place

Providing for our family vs a job that's killing me

ThreeOfUsโ€™s Substack
When it's Friday night and the drink don't work the same
And you're alone with yourself and there's no one else to blame
When you still can't feel the rhythm of your heart
And you see your spirit fading in the dark

No one will be there for you
Jesus isn't real.

I need to go eat some chocolate ice cream.

#depressed #SongLyrics (sorry Jess Glynne!)

I'm feeling so damn #depressed I can barely open my eyes, so I'm listening to moody #music. I've decide to share my musical journey. First up, some #NIN

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysFxrPNjvNA

NIN - Every Day is Exactly the Same

YouTube

#disney #robinhood #song #singing #music #sad #depressed

Every town has its ups and downs. Sometimes ups, outnumber the downs.
But not in Nottingham. ๐Ÿ˜ญ ๐Ÿ˜ญ ๐Ÿ˜ญ ๐Ÿ˜ญ ๐Ÿ˜ญ

I held out for years, trying to be good, but I kept getting bigger, and hairier, and hornier. By age 16, I was ready to have a child, without hesitation. Your efforts to prevent me from ever interacting with a female who felt the same way were admirably successful though, and now I have to die forever alone. So thanks for that. #depressed