finally making an introduction post cuz i wanna be a lil more active here :)
hello! call me capgras for now, i'm an autistic DID system & otherkin (primarily fallen angelkin)
i use any pronouns & i'm trans, aroace & queer
my fave bands are placebo, mcr & wwattw :D
im absolutely obsessed w the film velvet goldmine augh
heres some tags cuz i want mutuals lol :]
#did #osdd #didosdd #dissociativeidentitydisorder #otherkin #therian #introduction #intro
Car breaks broken
Home temp controls broken
Dogs need medical care
Dryer burns holes in clothes
House still unfurnished
Etc.
Wish I could afford to deal with any of these
Too #disabled to work should mean a person gets #disability. Period.
But what’s rlly fucked up is that bc I have a safe place to stay & anything at all to eat, I know I have no right to complain.
I mean, look around.
#actuallyautistic #audhd #cptsd #pots #bpd #didosdd #adhdrants #chronicillness
#dystopia #poverty #chronicpain
Idk but “faking it” “for attention” sounds pretty symptomatic to me💁♀️
#mentalillness #bpd #eupd #invisibledisability #mentalhealth #audhd #actuallyautistic #adhdlife #latediagnosedautistic #selfdiagnosisisvalid #cptsd #didosdd
“Here in this moment
You have to take notice
Of the chemical imbalance in your brain”
“I need you to see
What you've been through was just enough
So go ahead and lay your head down”
Carry You by Dreamhouse (a band I’m so glad I found and I wish more people knew)
I’m so grateful for this song
#lyrics #mentalillness #bpd #depression #cptsdrecovery #cptsd #musicsaveslives #didosdd #latediagnosedautistic
i'd like to compile some resources on things like mental health community peer support and emotional first aid, and so i'm asking for recommendations.
we are all quite aware that healthcare in the US is a travesty, but even for people who do have access to quality therapists and the like, it just doesn't sit right with me that "maybe you should talk to a therapist about that" is so commonly the only substantial support given to others.
emotional work is still work, and disabled communities often don't have the spoons to help each other effectively... but as an autist who does much better in situations when i know what's expected or needed of me, i'm inclined to believe that it would genuinely be very healing and empowering to learn how to help each other, get our hands on more resources, and have alternative options to offer in tandem with "seek professional help."
this can absolutely include how to protect and care for oneself when a friend or loved one is in crisis, and how to set boundaries and step away from a situation when someone's in need but you just aren't able to help.
so... i'm doing research! does anyone have any articles, books, organizations, anything? this is primarily for mental health, though i believe in the same principles for physical health and also advocate for learning physical first aid as spoons and resources allow!
if there are huge glaring issues with this approach, i'm also interested in hearing why and getting resources that address those.
boosts appreciated!
#mentalHealth #disability #neurodivergent #actuallyAutistic @actuallyautistic #trauma #PTSD #CPTSD #DIDOSDD #depression #anxiety
you know when the multiple people living in your body can't quite decide who's fronting so you just sit on your bed exhausted and confused because you don't know what your name is or what you like to do
#justDissociationThings
#shitSystemsSay
(now for the actual hashtags)
#plural #DIDOSDD #CPTSD #trauma #disability #mentalHealth
i really appreciate getting to know new people... but i'm still learning to unmask.
i can feel that i have this really peppy, bubbly persona and i don't know if it's like, an actual alter (DID/OSDD identity) or if it's a mask related to neurodivergence.
probably both. i've been simultaneously joyful to interact with others, while having this sort of identity dysphoria roiling underneath like... i'm *annoying* myself. the problem isn't the friendliness, just that it starts to veer into a self-caricature.
i can't find the right words to describe it. honestly, the right words probably don't exist.
above all, this is likely a sign that i need to set aside some dedicated quiet personal time, because whether it's an identity being triggered to front or a mask i don't know how to take off, it's self-perpetuating, encouraging me to socialize *more*, while the other parts of me and my system are neglected.
this is actually a big reason why i now aim to get in bed at 2am, rather than 10pm—i NEED these hours in the house when no one else is awake.
capgras!
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