So many moral injuries and injustices have abound around me this past week, and Mother's Day, and just everything all together, has really made me super #Depressed and I can't help ruminating and crying about it, because it's all I can do.
Self-distraction is not working. Do I dare dive into a heavy psychedelic trip in my mental state? There's no such thing as a bad trip.
#MentalHealth #mentalillness #moralinjury #depression #anxiety #rumination #cPTSD #actuallyautistic #psychedelics
2026 update!
I'm 53, a computer programmer. I love drawing. Mostly digital these days, on a tablet. I'm a runner. I enjoy comics, TTRPGs, and reading non-fiction.
Also:
- Gamedev: I'm making my own fantasy simulation game in Godot
- Blender: Re-learning 3D modelling and animation
- IndieWeb: never not restarting blogging
- Linux: Switched from Windows last year
#AuDHD #NoAI #FreePalestine #FuckIsrael #TransRightsAreHumanRights #ActuallyAutistic
[P] I'm seeing a huge wave of jewish people getting very vocal about the racist belief in "the jewish right to genocide," and how "denying that rigbt is antisemitism." Nah, saying jewish people want the right to genocide is antisemitism, which should be incredibly obvious, but racists have always been manipulators. In all cases, political zionism has ALWAYS been antisemitism, and jewish people are saying it.
#psychology #actuallyautistic #racism #judaism #isnt #zionism #ffs #jewhate #politics
[P] It's dizzying that racists think it's antisemitic to claim that genocide ISN'T a jewish right, when the VAST majority of the global jewish diasphora would say it's antisemitic to lump them in with genocide. I don't know how British racists believe that this is actually a fucking argument. "I'm racist? Oh yeah? Well you're antisemitic for not supporting the jewish right to genocide!" What the actual fucking fuck.
#psychology #actuallyautistic #racism #judaism #isnt #zionism #ffs #jewhate
@NanoRaptor I must admit I’ve thought of it as trans-related until now, but I take your point, and will relay my #ActuallyAutistic eggs…
What turned out to be the first small crack (just the beak poking out of a tiny hole, really), was my acceptance and self-diagnosis of being on the spectrum (or “having a touch of the ’tism”, as I now sometimes say [and as you know, not to be confused with “TISM”] {medi because this *is* serious, after all}]).
My major egg crack, break, explosion was my self-diagnosis (official ones “not available in my country or region”, although my psych agrees and has been a great help) of Pathological Demand Avoidance.
Shattered my whole world view and life, no going back, never the same again.
So, thank you…I’ll accept it 🐣
PS And I bet most, if not all, egg cracks have a *very* definite anniversary (29 January 2024 at almost 56).
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This Wednesday I'll be giving a free workshop for coaches and therapists on working better with your Autistic clients. Join me?
Learn how to better support Autistic adult coaching clients, which might look different than expected, and how to be a good ally in a coaching setting.
https://www.icf-events.org/icw/when-your-client-is-autistic/
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I think why is half the industry, if not more, 3D printing their chews.
It took me half a year and thousands of dollars to manufacture just my one Heart Chew Necklace in 2 colors, and do it properly by going to the best of the best silicone manufacturer in China.
Our entire chew industry is run by neurotypicals who don’t know what it’s like to have chew stims. They don’t care they’re selling autistic people 3D printed plastic chews made with toxic filaments. They can flood the market with chews fast.
They probably all hate me because not only am I the only autistic designed chew in the industry, but I’m likely the only one who manufactured a chew the right way. My Heart Chew Necklace exposes their scam just by existing and selling.
I’ve seen chew designs that have intricate detailed designs on the chew, and it’s baffled me how did they manufacture that chew.
Silicone can make tactile texture, it cannot make detailed designs.
Those intricate design chews are all 3D printed, that’s how.
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