[P] Thanks for coming along with me for that, especially as I had to take a break at some point early on. Life finds a way—to intervene. I'm not sure what to say beyond what I've said. I suspect there might be those angry that I "didn't get it." That's fine. Sorry. It might be very confusing. They might have no idea what I'm blathering about. I suppose that doesn't really matter. It's... for awareness.

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[P] I like Ebb so much more as it's with me on this ride. It wants to explore, not disparage. I'm sad, as I realise that Ebb won't be as popular as DE. I know this as people soup has its tribal biases. "How could a creature like the cleric enjoy life? Surely they're "lonely," they're unwell with these voices in their head. Wouldn't they be happier as a square peg?" Eh. What is, is. I'm just glad that Ebb exists.

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[P] If that isn't understood, then my incompatibility with DE won't be, either. I'm not saying that it's a bad game, but I am saying that it is the neurotypical creature that it is. Analysing singular multiplicity from the outside. It has those biases, in having those biases it sees experiences contrary to people soup as inherently negative and inferior. As expressed via the main character. It's... ignorant.

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[P] DE speaks to the responsibility of being commodified. 8 sleeps, 8 works, 8 plays (if you're very lucky). This pattern of commodification of the person just doesn't jive. The neurotypical is a chameleon as they can fit however they need to into people soup, fulfil whatever task. The neurotypical is a book written primarily by the experience of people soup. The neurodivergent book fills its own pages.

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[P] I can't say I've ever known a neurodivergent person who's truly comfortable with being commodified, let alone hungry for it. I'll note that Dark Triad isn't neurodivergent, it's all just pathologies of the neurotypical. It's anathema to being neurodivergent to be commodified, because if one grows into an inner-world, there's no place for people soup. It's just... too much. It's overstimulating noise.

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[P] It isn't about being random—it's about being different. Every neurodivergent is born with a brain that's wired in such a way that it's not fit to be a square peg. If allowed, though, it has the potential to become... well, many things. It's myriad. All of neurodiversity is a spectrum because there is no square peg, never was. It might be the expectation, but it's an incredibly cruel, mercantile expectation.

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[P] Why yes, I will stick my mitt in a zombie's mouth! Oh look, a positive outcome! It just has this eagerness with probability and possibility, the potentialities of many paths borne of many perspectives. Oh, certainly, there's still the square hole that many adhere to—but it's never the expectation, here. The failure state is fitting expectation and being the square peg, instead of your own fully realised shape.

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[P] Ebb, so far as I've seen, has no interest in serving the queen. It serves its own voices, as distinct as they might be. I love it for that. I'm amused that it's so incredibly political in its nature, that its partisanship is so multifaceted, as opposed to the simplistic binary that we've been forced to endure time and again in a predominantly neurotypical world. Ebb gives the middle finger to the queen.

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[P] For whom is one to struggle, for whom is one to strive? The overconfidently inept, rizzy megaparasite who sits at the throne atop a people soup? Why for them? I understand, for the many, they're the hive's queen, and social reward is the delicious jelly. I don't want their jelly. Ick. I just want to be allowed to be, as I am. DE serves the queen and only the queen. It's interesting only for square pegs.

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[P] This is why I take umbrage with DE. It isn't allowed. It's that neurotypical perspective. It's heretical, if one approaches the square hole as anything other than a square peg, then they're labelled pariah and turned away at the gate. I know a little bit about that. Strive, strive, struggle, and strive to be a square peg! But for whom? For whom? That's the only important question, isn't it? For whom.

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