Mastodawn

I need, really need, to get back some sense of security (no matter what the several books for meaningful life I've read lately say about abandoning search for happiness and security). I put little day trip in my calendar. An ever-so-mildly positive-adjacent thing, just back to my hometown an hour away. And straight away I'm scared that everything will come crashing down now. Not like that the trip itself fails, that *everything* fails because I plan one little thing. That soon there will be the dreaded email "You have a message from the welfare services". That they will deport me to Guantanamo Bay because I've boosted anti-AI toots. That all the bad things imaginable will happen now, and a few that are kinda stretches too.

Is this autism? Is this cptsd? Por que no los dos? Whatever it is, it sucks!

#ActuallyAutistic

Steven Saus [he/him]5h ago

Running Everything On Manual: Responding to “But Everybody Feels That”

It is... and it is not.

Archive: ia: https://s.faithcollapsing.com/i3qw2

#mental-health #neurospicy #actuallyaudhd #actuallyautistic #autism #neurodivergence
https://ideatrash.net/2026/06/running-everything-on-manual-responding-to-but-everybody-feels-that.html

Steven Saus 5h ago

Running Everything On Manual: Responding to “But Everybody Feels That” It is... and it is not. Archive: ia: https://s.faithcollapsing.com/i3qw2 https://s.faithcollapsing.com/i0d1q#mental-health #neurospicy #actuallyaudhd #actuallyautistic #autism #neurodivergence

Willa

6h ago

Guess who was able to actually watch the noisy local dairy parade from outside rather than hiding away inside the house, thanks to her Loop Experience earplugs?

#ActuallyAutistic

Sean C.9h ago

RE: https://mastodon.social/@filmfreak75/116677213465697393

@autistics #ActuallyAutistic so hell has frozen over in my world...

…my board met today to "debrief" re the HR meeting…

…after over a year of me sounding the alarm bells re the the issues with HR and how they have been targeting the board because of me…

…and now THEY FINALLY BELIEVE ME…

…i feel so seen and if i’m honest, disregulated for some reason

darrellpf 9h ago

@autistics #actuallyautistic

Plushies on a desk, never really understood them, never thought it was me. Never understood how that was joyful.

I bought a tiny machined metal flashlight for my keychain, USB rechargeable and magnetically detachable from the base. I will probably never use it as a flashlight.

Every time I unlock my door, the metal cylinder feels perfect in my hand. Right weight, right feel. I feel good every time I use it.

Oh, I get it now. Joyful.

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Goiterzan/Amygdalai Lama 11h ago

@autistics
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I think because of the causal, interactive nature of evolution in life, it’s clear to me that to approach understanding and effectiveness in our dealings we have to see ourselves in motion, we have to know that the last generation helped to create this one and that this generation alters the next, otherwise we are forever missing what are moving targets, and missing them by a greater margin every generation.
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But we don’t. It’s not a social matter, so the majority type hasn’t got a second to worry about it. It’s a tight circle of logic, a double bind, the Gordian knot.
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I mean, to be fair, they do seem to have a version of the concept, they control and punish in an attempt to direct the next generation, they at least hope there can be change, maybe evolution - but here’s the problem there:
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They somehow have it exactly backwards, and rather than providing enticements towards a peaceful life, it is an environment of threats and violence that they create, driving the next generation towards conflict.
They are somehow convinced that people couldn’t be worse than how they are born and they do not worry about damaging people.
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So they fight fire with fire, fight the imagined beastly forever Human Nature with their own real beastliness, their own violence - here they seem to have no version of the truth of evolutionary change at all, rather they have the exact opposite idea.
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They may try to control the next generation, but they do not assume responsibility for the generation that results, adaptation isn’t real if it’s negative. Their abuse simply “failed,” it simply “didn’t do anything.”
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I can’t seem to write a line after that that isn’t just snark, so I’ll pause. 💜
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@autistics #ActuallyAutistic #ND #Evolution #Anthropology #Philosophy #Neurodiversity #Psychology

blankie going places 11h ago

this pen is so awesome! its helps my poor hands when i use the small touchpen tip and also its normal pen tip is very good and writes nicely + the fidget/magnet feature! #pens #fidgettoys #disabled #helpful #actuallyautistic

Tim McTuffty 11h ago

Diary of an AuDHD Squirrel. Day 951 , Friday 05/06/2026

Friday started early, it being a day of ritual torture - AKA ‘The Gym’!

Pushed myself a little too hard & my heart rate went a little bananas so I had to take a bit of a rest & let it all calm down a little - Nothing too dramatic but a warning not to be ignored.

Got home & after breakfast did my chores.

Then built the top part of Mrs S’s new desk, tomorrow will see the 2 halves joined & powered.

Spent the afternoon near Alpha Centauri (in Starfield) I am liking this game a lot, it has elements of Elite & NMS while maintaining it’s own unique identity!

Takeaway for tea & then continued our Babylon 5 fest - still on season 1 so a long way to go!

Final Thoughts.

Not a bad day, long may this streak last! (🤞)

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@autistics
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

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Goiterzan/Amygdalai Lama 12h ago

not sure I have another long one, but a huge point I had somehow not said for a long time is that the human environment is the ONLY environment shaping many people anymore.
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Work and law and borders aren’t just additions to the natural
environment of weather and predators, billions of people
are never subjected to natural pressures at all presently, the human requirements are the ENTIRE environment for humans, with no opposing forces for balance.
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I think I say it enough, but here’s the problem: evolution is how life works and people who don’t believe in or understand evolution are the whole environment for people. The only thing driving us, we cannot or will not see.
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I don’t know how to make anyone see how bad that is. It’s not in them to see it.
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@autistics #ActuallyAutistic #ND #Evolution #Anthropology #Philosophy #Neurodiversity #Psychology