The Kintsugi Man

A Story Told In Tanka Form

Once I was broken,
a man of many pieces,
cracked beyond repair,
so many tiny places
scattered like leaves in the wind.

Healing was a dream.
Restoration was elusive.
Much of me was lost.
I could not find the missing,
my eyes dry from the seeking.

Then mercy found me.
The Great Artist touched my heart,
gathered me to me,
glued the pieces one by one
until I was whole again.

Why do the cracks show?
My question rose to the sky.
The scars are ugly.
Must they remain forever?
I wondered if I was healed.

Wait, you gently said.
Dipping your finger in gold,
your love traced the scars -
beauty in my brokenness.
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Each Thought Of The Day is an opportunity for you to reflect on your life, who you want to become, your identify and purpose in life. June 10th 2026 edition.

Visual Art Interpretation – My Hopes and Dreams for the Next Year

I began with an idea of drawing my age and it gradually morphed into a radiant, hand-made number filled not so much with tasks to accomplish as with the people, callings, loves, and practices that give me joy.

The bright red border and repeated golden lights give it the appearance of a theater sign or a carnival ride. They are a remnant of posters I used to make when I was a boy. Inside that celebratory outline, the words curve, turn, reverse, overlap, and require the eye to travel.

The words I placed inside my age—Sing, Play, Memories, God, Laugh, Journey, Pastor, Author, Husband, PeaceGrooves, Friends, Art, Church, Love, Woodcraft—are striking to me because so many of them are relational or creative. Author is near Husband. Pastor winds along the same road as Journey. PeaceGrooves circles alongside Friends, Church, and Love.

The Word I Did Not Write

After finishing the piece, I realized that I did not write health or healing anywhere inside it. Those things matter deeply to me, especially in light of some of the recent physical concerns and uncertainties I have been carrying. And yet, perhaps their absence does not mean they were forgotten. Perhaps I instinctively wrote the life I hope healing will allow me to continue inhabiting.

I did not write healing, but I wrote Sing-Play: the hope that my body and spirit can still release themselves into music.

I wrote Laugh: the hope for lightness, delight, and joy.

I wrote Journey: the hope that I can continue moving forward.

I wrote Husband and Friends: the hope of remaining present in love and relationship rather than retreating into worry or isolation.

I wrote Pastor and Church: the hope that I can continue serving meaningfully among people.

I wrote Art, Author, Woodcraft, and PeaceGrooves: the hope that creativity will continue flowing through me rather than being swallowed up by discouragement, exhaustion, or fear.

Perhaps healing is everywhere in this drawing without being visible. It is hidden beneath almost every word: Let me be wekHzll enough, free enough, encouraged enough, and alive enough to keep inhabiting these loves.

But perhaps the omission also tells me something tender and difficult about myself. When I think about the future, I often think first about what I can give, create, serve, love, and build. I may not always think first about what I need. This picture invites me to remember that somewhere in the glowing year ahead, there must also be room for my own care. I am not only the husband, pastor, artist, author, musician, friend, and creator. I am also a person who needs healing, rest, gentleness, and grace.

The Smear Between Author and Husband

One of the small accidents in the piece occurred in the space between Author and Husband. Water smeared the color there, and I had to cover it as best I could. I was mostly able to hide the mistake, though I know it happened.

That accidental smear now feels strangely meaningful. Author and Husband are two of my most intimate identities: the part of me that creates worlds and gives language to inner experience, and the part of me that shares an actual life in love and covenant with another person. Perhaps those two identities were never meant to be sharply separated. My writing rises from my lived relationships, from tenderness, memory, fear, faith, longing, disappointment, and love. And my creative life inevitably spills into the life I share with my wife.

The water touched the border between those words, and I tried to repair it. That is not a failure of the picture. It may be one of the most honest parts of it. Life does not remain perfectly inside the lines. The roles I care most about do not remain untouched by mess, vulnerability, or accident. Sometimes the colors run together. Sometimes I try to cover what went wrong. Sometimes a trace remains, visible mostly to me.

Yet I did not throw the picture away. I continued working on it. I allowed the imperfection to dry and become part of the finished whole.

Perhaps that is an image of grace. A life of grace is not a life where nothing ever gets smeared. It is a life in which even the smeared places can be incorporated into the beauty.

Church: Almost Illegible

I also noticed that Church almost looks like “Churgh.” It is there, but it is not the clearest or most immediately readable word. That, too, feels symbolic.

Church is deeply present in my hopes for the coming year. It is part of who I am, part of my calling, part of my relationship with God and with community. But church is not always simple or perfectly clear. It can be difficult to read. It can be beautiful and messy, life-giving and exhausting, sacred and profoundly human all at once.

In this picture, church does not appear by itself in a clean, isolated space. It is crowded into a circling path alongside other words: Love, Friends, Art, the movements of creativity and ministry surrounding it. That seems truthful. For me, church is not separate from love, friendship, art, imagination, service, or reconciliation. It is beautifully entangled with them.

The fact that the word may be hard to dicipher signifies that church is something I continue to believe in and belong to, though at times, it may be difficult to see clearly its formation.

The Shape of the Year

The large number itself is not simply filled in. It becomes a winding course. The words curve around turns and corners; some appear upright from one angle and upside down from another. To read the whole image, I almost have to rotate it, follow it, and let my eyes travel through it.

I do not know exactly how it will unfold. My hopes do not form a straight road or a neatly numbered plan. They form a brightly lit labyrinth. Something that appears upside down from one position may look different once I travel farther along the curve. Something that seems peripheral now may become central. Something disappointing may redirect me toward an unexpected opening.

This drawing does not say, Here is my plan to master the next year.

It says, Here is the glowing path I hope to traverse.

Music feeds ministry. Woodcraft feeds contemplation. Writing feeds faith. PeaceGrooves gathers together my imagination, my longing for peace, my love of play, and my desire to offer something meaningful to others. Marriage and friendship keep my creative life from becoming merely solitary. Church places my personal dreams within a larger body. God is not outside all these things, looking down upon them from a distance, but present among them.

My life is not a ladder climbing toward a single success. It is a winding, illuminated journey through many loves.

The Lights Around the Border

The repeated yellow bulbs around the border give the piece a vintage, celebratory feeling. They make the year look like something grounded in the past yet being announced: a show beginning, a stage opening, a bright invitation to enter.

There is something almost exuberant about it. I did not draw a quiet little calendar page or a restrained list of intentions. I drew my age as a symbol of hope. Music, laughter, love, friendship, art, faith, craft, writing, church, PeaceGrooves—these are not hobbies or decorative extras around the edge of life. They are among the things that make life worth living.

And yet the lights are not machine-perfect. They are hand-drawn. Each one is slightly different. Some are rounder, some rougher, some more irregular. The brightness of this coming year is not a slick commercial promise that everything will be perfect. It is the brightness I have carefully drawn around my hopes with my own imperfect hand.

The lights continue around the bends. They do not shine only along the smooth or impressive stretches. They follow the narrow turns, the dips, the places where the shape curls inward. The light does not abandon the complicated places.

What This Picture Says to Me

This is a picture of my hope not merely to survive another year but to remain fully myself within it.

I want to sing and play.

I want to laugh.

I want to remember.

I want to journey.

I want to love and be loved.

I want to remain a husband, a pastor, an author, an artist, a craftsman, a musician, a friend, and a dreamer.

I want PeaceGrooves not merely to exist as a project, but to become an expression of something deep within me: my longing to imagine, create, and make peace.

I want God not as an abstract religious idea floating somewhere outside my life but as a living presence woven among music, love, creativity, friendship, church, memory, laughter, and journey.

And perhaps beneath the entire picture is the word I did not write: wholeness.

Wholeness includes health. It includes healing. But it is larger than both. It is the hope that all these different names for myself will not compete with one another, break apart, or fade away, but somehow curve together into a single radiant life.

The smear between Author and Husband, the almost-illegible Church, the reversed words, the crowded pathways, the uneven bulbs, and the wandering design do not lessen the picture. They make it more honest.

My hopes for the next year are not cleanly arranged or perfectly protected from mistakes. They are handmade. They are entangled. They are vulnerable. They are colorful. They are imperfect.

And, Oh Yes!, they are still shining.

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The Healing Journey: Small Steps to Wellness

Last weekend, I hiked the easy Inman Pond trail in the Adirondacks. With an elevation gain of only about 475 ft., it was a manageable hike. A year ago, I would have found it painful and challenging; three years ago, the Inman Pond trail would have felt almost impossible.

Perspective Shift

The extent to which chronic migraine, lupus, and endometriosis have shifted my life and my perspective over the last six years is not as vast as I had once believed. Through the often relentless pain and suffering, I am still me; the inherent essence of who I am sits quietly behind the pain, behind the striving for healing.

The Still Point

This still point, a sanctuary amidst the chaos, is my anchor. It was from this point of calm and clarity that I began to make small but significant changes to aid in my healing journey. I have learned to listen to my body, understanding its rhythms and needs, allowing myself to rest when required and gradually incorporating gentle movements that foster both physical and emotional well-being.

Health Shifts

Of course, my doctors have prescribed medications to help control the symptoms of these ailments, which help but do not cure or obliterate the pain. These medications can provide temporary relief, yet the underlying struggles remain, weighing heavily on my daily life. I had lost so much strength, muscle, and ability, and no magic pill was going to bring that back.

Living Fully

Before lupus and the resurgence of my chronic migraine, I was heavily involved in community and physical activity. Helping with local school musical productions from set work to directing, while running 15 to 20 miles a week, attending multiple yoga classes, and engaging in vigorous strength training, I was on fire!

The Fire Goes Out

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That fire didn’t burn out slowly; it was extinguished with a suddenness that took me by surprise. In a few months, I went from seemingly healthy—exercising regularly and enjoying life—to struggling to walk and speak, tasks that once felt second nature. Simple conversations became exhausting, and I found myself grappling with frustration as my body betrayed me. At its worst, I was sent to the ER because my doctor thought I was having a stroke, a harrowing experience that left me feeling both helpless and afraid for my future. Each day felt like a battle, leaving me to question how quickly everything could change.

Rediscovering The Still Point

The journey to reclaim my former self has been an uphill battle, filled with moments of frustration and doubt. I had to rely on my inner strength, digging deep to unearth reserves of resilience that I never knew I possessed. It was crucial for me to continuously find that still point amid the pain, a place of calm where I could gather my thoughts and recharge my spirit, reminding myself that each day was another opportunity for growth and healing despite the challenges I faced.

Incorporating Wellness Practices

Through these small steps, such as taking the stairs at work instead of the elevator, adding moments of reflection and meditation to my day, and shifting towards an anti-inflammatory diet, I have made tremendous progress over the last year.

Learning Patience

I was occasionally impatient with my progress; for example, I work on the eighth floor, so I decided that taking the stairs would be a good way to gradually increase my strength over time. I assumed steady progress would be the norm. However, on certain days when I could only make it to the fourth floor and had to take the elevator, I would feel betrayed by my body. It was frustrating to realize that despite my efforts, my physical limitations sometimes got the better of me, leaving me to wonder if I was truly making any progress at all. Each setback felt like a personal defeat, yet deep down, I knew every little attempt contributed to my journey toward better health.

Small Steps = Great Progress

These efforts, which seemed minor at first, have collectively contributed to a healthier lifestyle and improved well-being. I have found that the more I prioritize my physical health and mental clarity, the more energized and motivated I feel. As a result, I can finally get out and enjoy trekking through my favorite place in the world, the Adirondacks, where majestic mountains and serene lakes rejuvenate my spirit and provide a sense of peace.

The Beauty of Struggle

Had I had a life without turmoil, backsliding, or trauma, I would not be managing stress the way I can today. Every hardship in my life has taught me resilience, how to move through difficulty with grace and flow. Challenges taught me the importance of patience and critical thinking, and that most things are not as unbearable as they seem. Each experience, whether it felt overwhelming or insurmountable at the time, has carved out a deeper understanding within me.

Suffering as Wisdom

I discovered that suffering is a teacher, imparting wisdom that becomes a part of my very being. I spoke about ways of coping in the piece “Navigating Suffering Through Buddhist Wisdom” a few weeks ago, sharing insights that arise from reflecting on my journey. Using this framework, I can patiently and deliberately move towards wholeness, embracing not only the light but also the shadows that shape my existence.

Returning To Wholeness

My journey through chronic pain and illness has not only reshaped my physical abilities but has also profoundly influenced my perspective on life. The trials I have faced have cultivated resilience, compassion, and an understanding that healing is a multifaceted process that encompasses both body and mind.

Moving Forward

By embracing the small victories and honoring my body’s signals, I have discovered a renewed sense of purpose and clarity. The Adirondacks, with their rugged beauty, serve as a reminder of the peace that can exist alongside struggle. As I continue to navigate my healing path, I carry forward the lessons learned through suffering, committed to nurturing both my physical health and my spirit, and embracing each step as part of a greater journey toward wholeness.

Below, I have lovingly cultivated a list of gentle practices to help you embark on your healing journey. Please remember to be patient with yourself; healing is rarely a straightforward path. We meander and flow, gathering momentum and wisdom as we navigate our healing journey with intentionality and compassion

Gentle Ways To Begin Healing

  • Listen to Your Body: Pay attention to the signals your body sends. Acknowledge when you need rest and allow yourself the time to recuperate.
  • Incorporate Gentle Movements: Start with simple stretches or light activities that your body can handle. Aim to gradually increase your activity levels as your strength improves.
  • Practice Mindfulness and Meditation: Set aside moments each day for mindfulness or meditation. Use this time to center yourself, breathe deeply, and cultivate inner peace.
  • Focus on Nutrition: Transition to an anti-inflammatory diet that includes whole foods. Incorporate more fruits, vegetables, whole grains, and lean proteins into your meals.
  • Engage in Reflective Practices: Take time for journaling or reflection. Consider your thoughts, feelings, and experiences, and how they contribute to your healing process.
  • Seek Support: Connect with friends, family, or support groups who understand your journey. Sharing your challenges can foster a sense of community and belonging.
  • Embrace Nature: Spend time outdoors in natural settings. Activities like hiking, walking, or simply sitting in a park can provide rejuvenation for both mind and spirit.
  • Be Patient with Yourself: Understand that healing is a journey that takes time. Be compassionate toward yourself, acknowledging that ups and downs are a natural part of the process.
  • Create a Healthy Sleep Routine: Aim for consistent sleep patterns. Prioritize restful sleep by creating a calming bedtime environment.
  • Limit Screen Time: Reduce exposure to screens, especially before bed. This can help improve sleep quality and reduce fatigue.
  • Practice Gratitude: Keep a gratitude journal to document what you appreciate each day. This can shift your mindset and enhance overall well-being.

If you are beginning your healing journey, I suggest starting with listening to your body. This is where we truly learn the wisdom held within ourselves. Our bodies possess innate knowledge that guides us; they know when we need rest, self-care, or movement. By taking the time to listen deeply to the inherent wisdom, we allow the body and mind to communicate with each other, opening the pathways to wholeness. This connection fosters a deeper understanding of our needs, cultivating an environment where healing can flourish. As you engage in this practice, you may discover signals that indicate emotional or physical states, helping you to navigate life’s challenges with greater awareness and resilience. Remember, each step you take in tuning into your body’s messages brings you closer to a harmonious balance, nurturing both your inner self and overall well-being.

For deeper emotional healing, I offer you this free guide to Somatic Experiencing, which delves into the profound connection between our bodies and our feelings. This guide is designed to help you understand how our physical sensations can inform our emotional states and facilitate healing. By engaging with the principles of Somatic Experiencing, you will learn practical techniques to process trauma, release tension, and foster a sense of safety within your body. Embrace this opportunity to explore a holistic approach to healing, enabling you to cultivate resilience and emotional well-being.

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Without any addiction
detached from everything and everyone
sovereign of a kingdom
reclaimed by the heart
and adorned by love

Eyes closed
the gaze turned inward
upon vast forests
rolling with smiles and laughter
in the bright and carefree colors
of a childhood rediscovered.

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