From my latest essay on my Substack publication, Rivers of Reflection. Please take the time to go read it and subscribe, if you can! I so appreciate your support.

Happy Autism Awareness month. It's an important month to remind ourselves of the realities of autistic people. I am autistic. I am Level 1 diagnosed at age 33. I speak up during Autism Awareness Month so that my Level 2 and Level 3 autistic siblings have a voice where they may have a quieter one.

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First image reads: "You must imagine for yourself what it is to carry that dissonance quietly, everywhere you go. To live in a body that is constantly negotiating with its environment. To move through systems that were not designed with you in mind. To wonder, again and again, if you are the problem or if the world has simply never learned how to hold you."

#Autism #AutismAwareness #Autistic #Neurodivergent #AutismAwarenessMonth #ASD #Substack #Essay #Advocacy #LateDiagnosed

Please read the full essay here: https://open.substack.com/pub/riversofreflection/p/were-you-aware?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=35z54g
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Diary of a late-realized autistic, part 2:

Just had a sudden epiphany about why I hate "mobile-first" web design that doesn't detect browser size and adjust for it ... when I'm on my desktop with my 5120x1440 resolution, those sites are LITERALLY SHOUTING AT ME WITH GIANT BUTTONS AND HUGE TEXT AND PICTURES THAT TAKE UP HALF THE SCREEN! I get anxious just trying to find the information I came here for ...

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Diary of a late-in-life realized autistic:

At 58 years old, I'm just now figuring out just how loud the world is as I start wearing earplugs whenever I'm out in public. Even if there isn't a crowd, just being able to reduce the volume of ambient noise, music played in the restaurant/bar, nearby conversations... it's life changing. Right up there with being trans, I wish I'd figured this out decades ago!

For the record, I can't recommend enough Loop brand earplugs! Super comfortable, lots of options, and being in-ear, I can wear cute earrings and not have them covered up like headphones would do! 😉

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"It is often said that autistics can sense other people's energy, and the slightest shifts and changes in them can throw us off balance and leave us feeling confused and frustrated."

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From 'Lost & Now Found: a guide to understanding and accepting yourself for late-discovered autistic adults' by Kate Laine-Toner and Suzi Payton

Everyone's experience and feelings will be different. This is just one perspective.

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#AutisticPride #InvisibleDisability #lateDiagnosed

"Specialization tends to limit the field of problems that the specialist is concerned with. Now, the person who isn’t a specialist, but a generalist like myself, sees something over here that he has learned from one specialist, something over there that he has learned from another specialist—and neither of them has considered the problem of why this occurs here and also there. So the generalist—and that’s a derogatory term, by the way, for academics—gets into a range of other problems that are more genuinely human, you might say, than specifically cultural." - Age 83
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I witness very few in autism discussions and autism topics who bring up environmental influence, experience influenced. And being a specialist in a field has a huge influence on languages / jargon / etc.
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People may not have major problems of autism depending on the lifestyle and demands they are placed under. This topic gets into genetic diagnosis vs. subjective diagnostics in adults.

Oh, we were supposed to conform to something?

What's that? And why?

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I hate this time of year. The Dread starts around August when I 1st think abt the calls & making my excuses to avoid flying & all the end of the year stuff.

The Obligatory Thanksgiving calls are done so that's out of the way, but even though it's just me & my SO who I absolutely love not doing anything holiday-related, I'm still full-on in The Awful Time. The Holidays still happen & what is a well-needed break for most people is agonizing, life-draining hell for me.

My routines are destroyed for over a month. I'm always perceived. There's always noise. I'm locked in a masked freeze state. My time alone is completely stripped & I'm hiding in the bathroom just to get 5 minutes of solitude for a mini-meltdown so I can keep it together for another few hours. I am anxiously counting down until the holidays are over & I finally get a break from the chaos & intrusion. All while hating myself & feeling shame and guilt for every second of it because what an awful way to feel about spending time with someone you love. At least now I know I'm #Autistic & that's why.

35 days to go.

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