Why I relate to #witcher #witcher3 characters.
#geraltofrivia : I feel #emotion intensely/deeply but don't know how to express them.
#regis #emielregis : I feel the need to constantly have a tight control over myself because I fear how people will react, I fear I won't be able to control the other side of me, so I keep it locked away. #anxiety
#dettlaff : I'm willing to do almost anything for even the tiniest bit of #kindness . I don't understand social cues nor other people. #nerodivergent

#bipolar #bipolardisorder tends to lead to a complicated relationship with happiness. My personal experience, as I can't speak for anyone else, always gives me mixed feelings when I'm happy. After so long I struggle between what's happy and what's <em>too</em> happy. Is it happiness or #mania / #hypomania . Do I feel out of control or content? So, I have a very complicated relationship with happiness

"No wanna," Geralt grumbled as one of the vampires tried getting him out of bed. Probably Regis. Dettlaff often spent the morning in the cellar. He was still amazed that the man chose to sleep upstairs despite the overwhelming sensory input. Sure, the night tended to be more peaceful, but that was only so much. Regis didn't hesitate to pick him up, blankets and all. Geralt would forever deny the sound that escaped him.
#wipwednesday #witcher #regis #geraltofrivia #dettlaff #vampires

The hardest thing about my #breakup wasn't losing him. No, it's about the healing. #healing from all the abusive #trauma , from the loss of a relationship, that the relationship had been over for a long time. #Accepting that all I feel towards him is mild annoyance and indifference. #abusiverelationship

Me: posts 4 chapters on Ao3 within a week.
People: wow you're so fast.
Me now: sobbing, why is it so hard to write a paragraph
#fanficwriter #fanficwriting #ao3 #writing #burnout