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Kalvin

A little depressed and feel like doing nothing this morning, so I'm filling the time in a productive way: by tackling my sewing pile.

Just finished a whole pile of socks, and now i'm going to fix a pair of PJ's.

In effect, I'm paying myself around $75-$100 for less than an hour of work.

It's good to know how to sew.

#MentalIllness #MentalHealth #Sewing

Update: We just surpassed the halfway mark, but we are starting to approach a time crunch because we have slightly more than 24hrs to raise the remainder. Thank you so much everyone for your help. ♥️🙏♥️

Good Morning Everyone,

The good news is, it's been more than three weeks since our last begpost!! We're both still employed and it looks like my upcoming average weekly hours are on the mend after the usual first-quarter retail slump.

The bad news is, we're still struggling a little to get on our feet. The increase of aforementioned scheduled work hours won't happen for several more weeks, so funds will be tight for a bit longer.

On top of that, we've had multiple one-off expenses; my partner finally convinced me to allow my six-year-old Pixel 4 to rest in peace, which will piss me off til the end of time because I know I could get at least a couple more years out of it if the damned battery weren't welded on. Fucking planned obsolescence.

It got to the point where it was getting very, very warm during charging and was almost unusable unless strapped to a wireless battery charger (the USB port ceased charging a couple years ago). We figured since I'm walking and/or riding the bus home from work late at night it might be a good idea to have a lifeline.

The phone replacement was probably the most significant expense this month, but we've also needed to address things or difficulties that we had indefinitely postponed due to our precarious poverity living situation the past two years until the #Fediverse gave us the chance to stage a true, honest-to-goodness comeback for the first time in our lives. We finally have all-purpose cleaner and Softscrub again after years of just.. not cleaning anything. Our pantry is slowly becoming stocked. An upgraded Crock-Pot (on a killer sale) gives us much more flexibility than the 2-qt slow-cooker we've always used.

We still need to get the oil changed, replace the wiper blades to have functional windshield wipers, and get the dog to the vet for the first time in almost five years. But.. one step at a time. We're still recovering and can't do everything at once, much as we wish we could.

Anyway since I'm off today and tomorrow, I have no daily pay advances to guess about which means I can start fundraising a couple days earlier this time, which is always helpful.

I realize this amount is even *greater* than what we needed at the beginning of January for rent, which seems like we're going backwards; but as I mentioned above, we had a substantial expense replacing my phone in addition to lower than usual weekly work hours and the cost of replenishing our pantry and fridge and so on. Without those almost exclusively one-time (or at least quite rare) expenses, this amount would be less than half.

So.. I must respectfully ask for your #MutualAid help yet again. I know things are.. awful everywhere. Everyone needs help right now; I can't begin to imagine what others are going through right now. I know there are so many, many people who need help. But if you can pitch in, we would be deeply grateful.

If you're willing AND able, please boost and if possible donate. If you can't donate, *do NOT feel guilty* for being in the same boat as us. Your feelings about it are valid but rest assured you needn't feel bad.

Venmo: https://venmo.com/thegizmotwins
Cashapp: https://cash.app/$thegizmotwins
PP: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/gizmo1982
GFM: https://gofund.me/12171be3

#Solidarity #MentalIllness #BPD #PTSD @mutualaid

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BlueSky Is A Platform For Attention Whores With No Standards

I’m convinced that Bluesky is the platform for attention-whores who perform and humiliate themselves for validation and affirmation. It’s really sad. I don’t feel bad when bad things happen to them as a consequence because they were already warned, yet they prioritize fitting into a culture and refuse to deal with their feelings of inadequacy. The reason they stay is that the bar is low for meaningful engagement, allowing them to indulge in their obsessions and compulsions while being rewarded for self-destructive behavior. It truly is quite pathetic.

I initially joined Bluesky for the sexual content because people on Mastodon have little interest in sex and much more elaborate norms around sexuality. Contrary to what people think of me, I don’t actually use social media in the conventional way most people do. I view it on an abstract, non-algorithmically served layer via my network analysis tools, and I interact with YouTube in a very constrained way. So, I wasn’t aware of how bad things were until I started using Bluesky conventionally. The men on Bluesky are just plain repulsive to me. Desperation, neediness, lack of independence, and obsessively posting about a single topic (like sex, religion, or politics), instead of developing a genuine hobby that demonstrates skill, progress, and mastery, are major turn-offs. I find a lack of standards absolutely disgusting.

For example, if someone abhorrent gives you a compliment, you don’t accept it. If an abhorrent person follows you, you block them. Yet what I see are men posting sexual content and seeking attention and validation from anyone, regardless of who it’s coming from. If I look through someone’s activity and see nothing but low-effort posts interacting with nothing but sexual content or obsessive engagement with that type of content, I lose interest immediately.

A reason why my husband has held my attention for over a decade is that there is always something new with him. He is always randomly looking into developing a new skill. One day, he started randomly speaking Mandarin to me, which I did not know he knew how to speak. He had told me he had been learning Mandarin. Yes, my husband is neurodivergent and his interests are cars, but that doesn’t displace all other things. Another reason why my husband holds my attention is that he can keep a conversation going and match anyone’s changes. It’s not one ritualistic or compulsive thing every single fucking day.

A very real consequence of the lack of standards in gay sexual spaces, especially given that many misogynistic, homophobic far-right men suppress their homosexual attractions, is that many of the fetishes in gay sexual spaces are reminiscent of manosphere content. Because of what I do for a living, I have access to audience segmentation metrics and social embeddings of how content is served. Manosphere content clusters with homoerotic content that men consume. At some point, obsession became so normalized that people stopped realizing it was problematic.

Unless gay men set boundaries and tell manosphere bros, “we’re not having that,” you’ll see what I see on Bluesky. I’m actually very sexual myself, and I frequently go to bathhouses—those that have very explicit rules—sex parties, and orgies.

The funny thing is that I have had plenty of really deep philosophical conversations sitting in the hot tub of a bathhouse with naked gay men. Because of health codes and all that, you can’t do sexual things in the pool or the hot tub, so those areas were places for genuine play and conversation, while spots like the saunas were the fuck spots. I recall a particularly interesting conversation I had with an older gay man who had been going to that bathhouse since the ’80s. He explained to me the social context of the HIV epidemic and how, basically, no one knew it was sexually transmitted, so everyone was still barebacking at that exact same bathhouse we were in.

The issue here is people who fuck and sexually perform for awful people who want to murder them because they have absolutely no fucking standards and are so emotionally needy that they forgo all forms of self-preservation. I’m a computer scientist, so I have access to a lot of data tools. I can tell you for a fact that there is a strong correlation between men who want to murder gay men and trans people and the ones liking, engaging in parasocial dynamics with, and commenting in their replies. You’re willing to take sexual attention from people who want to kill you, and that blows my mind.

In their minds, Bluesky is better if it is not a Nazi strip bar but a Nazi BDSM-furry-kink club? What the ever-loving fuck?! Honestly, I watch a lot of feminist content that rips manosphere content apart, so much so that I can instantly recognize coded things. The “fuck no!” moment for me is when I saw manosphere-coded things being fetishized in the ego networks of large gay adult content creators and OnlyFans creators in social network embeddings. It’s not like it is insidious. If I see it, everyone else sees it; they are just ignoring it because they are prioritizing sexual validation and their obsessions.

Dude cheats at golf... We know he's over par - in age; in making unreasonable and constitutional rights infringing statements; and now we wonder how many strokes is the 'President' actually on... What's the score?

Doctor Claims Trump, 79, Suffered Serious Medical Issue

https://www.thedailybeast.com/doctor-points-to-evidence-that-donald-trump-79-suffered-serious-medical-issue/

#overpar #sickpresident #mentalillness #cognitivedecline #dangerous #deranged #stroke #coverup #dementia #sleepyTrump

Doctor Claims Trump, 79, Suffered Serious Medical Issue

Concerns about the president’s health have been raised for several months.

The Daily Beast
Nie było wczoraj komiksów, sorry.
Po kilku dniach bardzo gównianego samopoczucia w końcu jakoś wracam do życia.

#hobby #art #mood #furry #anthro #wacom #mydesk #mentalillness #mentalhealth

I don't believe mental illness can turn someone into a racist. 🙄🙄🙄

"Rapper, now known as #Ye, apologises to his family and to the Black community and says he loves Jews, blaming his #bipolar disorder for his ‘poor judgment and reckless behaviour’"
#mentalillness
https://www.theguardian.com/music/2026/jan/26/kanye-west-takes-out-full-page-ad-apologising-for-antisemitic-behaviour-and-denying-he-is-a-nazi-ye?CMP=Share_iOSApp_Other

Carol Ann Sauer obituary

“Carol did not like being homeless,” it reads. “Her delusions masked the real reasons why she was living on the street.”

#homelessness #unhoused #AmericanTravesty #Mentalillness

www.legacy.com/us/obituaries/washingtonpost/name/carol-sauer-obituary?id=60507412

@randahl
When someone is a threat to the people around him and society, that person is taken into custody.

If there are issues pointing to mental illness or the person is denying the abnormality of its actions, the person is subjected to forced mental treatment.

Why don't the rules of a normal civilised society apply to politicians and head of states?

#mentalIllness #DarkTriangle #psychology #insane #trump #Psychopath #narcissism #machiavellianism #CrashCourse