RE: https://lgbtqia.space/@pronounshe/116328136567106660

Today was a really bad #Pain day. I was almost in tears it hurt so much, and I have a very distorted pain threshold and tolerance from not having a pain free day in 42 years of #ChronicPain.

Just realized the weight ive recently put on might actually be muscle??? Crying bc no other reaction feels to quite fit this emotion im experiencing/failing to name

I havent been trying to gain or lose weight, just doing range of motion and flexibility stuff plus the odd dance movement with a fancy French name... i have a few what feel to me both modest and extravagant dance aspirations, so in some ways this development makes sense, its just so incredibly alien to me to actually detect progress toward those goals!!

For context: ive been #chronicallyill since at least 2012, and was fully bedridden for at least seven of those years. Im still rather severely mentally ill but my body has been doing somewhat better lately (ongoing problems notwithstanding), for which im endlessly grateful and going to make the most of while I can, whatever that ends up looking like

Random snaps my partner took of me the other day, for attention and bc i look fantastic 🩷

#ChronicFatigue #ChronicPain #mecfs #fibromyalgia #hypermobility