Aurin (ki, ki, kis)I think I'm currently in a phase of recovery where outside circumstances got better and now my brain is letting go of some more of that sweet sweet denial and struggling to find a balance of brain chemicals and hormones and the lack of acute trauma feels... boring, mundane, meaningless, sad, unimportant. As though I was suddenly unimportant. I had some hints of mania previously, sometimes more and sometimes less, and that was the medicine my own brain produced to protect me and get me through alive. Now it's missing and everything seems "bleh".
Plus, more trauma material is coming up. But that's as usual.
Plus, cycling through self doubts and thought hangups that I thought I already dealt with like "how can I live without the logical fallacies I had brainwashed into me my entire life, it seems so hard to live without black and white thinking and us versus them!" (even though I had long ago swapped out who was in which category, because I wanted to be an sjw, woke etc)
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Lindsay JK Nichols
