🧵 3/3

So it’s been challenging for both of us. I don’t normally leave the house often anyways, but I can’t keep cancelling much-needed medical appointments indefinitely. If anything, I’ve erred on the side of giving him as much rest as possible, but it’s also not healthy for either of us to be confined to home for months on end.

These are the challenges with having a #servicedog when something unexpected happens. You have to do what’s best for them, but fuck, you need them too! #codependency

Many years ago, I wrote #lyrics to go with the track Promise from #LastWindow.

It's a case of life imitating art. It's almost like I channelled the feelings of my future self. I'm still grieving. I'm just going to let myself feel whatever I need to feel.

PROMISE

I treasured the promise you made me.
It gave me
the strength to fight.
But now I grow weary of crying,
of trying
to understand.
And now...

Now I close my eyes,
I see your smile
and I'm wondering why.
Why you went away,
and all the promises you made to me,
they're dying.
And I'm all alone
among the ruins of
our shattered dreams.

I wonder if you still remember,
together,
those dreams we had.
But now they have faded and left me
so empty,
just like your words.
But now...

Now I close my eyes,
I see you smile
and I ask myself why.
Why you went away,
and all the promises you made,
have they all died?
Am I all alone among the wreckage of
my broken heart?

Do you close your eyes
and see my smile?
Do you ask yourself why?
Why you went away,
and all the promises you made
were they all lies?
Now are you all alone among the wreckage of
your broken heart?

Illustrated version here: https://blog.outtolunch.me.uk/2013/03/28/last-window-promise-lyrics/

@actuallyartistic

#codependency #cptsd #heartbreak #toxicrelationships