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Entertaining flights of fancy, mania as well as paranoia, was necessary on my journey. I just had to allow reality to reel me back in when I got off track too much. It's helpful like that.

(that's what I meant when I said, being intentionally crazy freed my soul and grounded my spirit btw)

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And you need to listen to your body. ESPECIALLY when it tells you to eat the "unhealthy" food or "too much" of it or at the "wrong time". That's your body looking out for you.

I know in theory that because of my eating disorder, my body's ability to signal its needs to me, and probably more so my ability to listen, is messed up. So I have to eat when I'm not hungry, or eat when nothing tastes good. (The praxis of this still trips me up.) But when I DO get a craving, I know I should listen.

"All the tasty food is bad for you" is a lie. It's tasty because it is full of stuff we need. That's basic evolution. We need energy, calories, sugar, fat, carbs. They're good for us and they're healthy and they're necessary. Additives usually serve a good purpose and are fine (except artificial sweeteners). Ok I'm not a nutritionist, these are just things I need to remind myself of. I'm being very general and vague for that reason. But it's important to push back against the constant diet culture messages that tell us to deprive ourselves of things we're hungry for.

#EDRecovery #EatingDisorder #DietCulture

lies like

"Self-restraint is a virtue/ indulgence is bad"

"less is more"

"if it doesn't hurt, it can't be effective"

"it is virtuous and morally good and important and effective to make personal sacrifices"

"this isn't a sacrifice, you LIKE it!" (when I don't allow myself to consider the alternative)

"this is extreme, but extreme is good because it is radical, it goes to the roots of the problem!" (ok, sometimes true, but not everything that's extreme is automatically effective or even radical!)

"this flies in the face of conventional wisdom because I am actually more informed than most people" (again, sometimes true but not automatically true)

"the problem isn't that this is too hard, it's that I'm stupid/not trying enough/ etc"

"you always have to try harder. just like. in general."

"pushing yourself is morally good and leads to growth rather than burnout"

"you don't deserve to have your needs and desires met"

"this isn't a need, it's a want, it's selfish"

"others have it worse so quit complaining"

"resting is wasting time"

"having fun is selfish when others are suffering"

"there is so much to do, no time for rest/fun!"

...and so on. Until you genuinely can't tell what you want and need. Because society and especially abusers (insofar as there's a difference) beat that ability out of us starting in infancy.

And these beliefs are so common in activist scenes and spaces and are what motivates many people to do activism. It's not "just" the stuff eating disorders are made out of, it's also the water most people swim in in general. Obviously you get versions of these beliefs in religions and conservative circles too....

There's nothing more radical than listening to your body's needs and allowing them unconditionally. Fuck the concepts of laziness, greed and undeservedness!

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