It’s almost been four years since I made this song.
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/lukeorion/not-fair-y
But it hasn’t stopped being relevant to my health and circumstances. I’m still struggling to survive and stay sheltered, my health is worse physically, and I’m still in the same lasting depression. As a disabled, queer trans person, who has a ton of trauma surrounding the ableist abuse I’ve experienced as long as I can remember, I used my coping skill of humor to come up with the title “Not fair-Y”.. I think you can say it multiple ways; “not fair, why?”, “not fairy”, and as it’s written, with a bit of an audible latch between the fair and the y. It started as just a few lines of poetry, as I prepared to try to sleep through the nightmare.
My lovely partner, @magicalgrrrl not only helped me stay fed during this time, but she also did the amazing guitar leads and harmonies (I don’t know how to play guitar… but she rocks!)..
Now we’re in this together and are working hard to be okay and get out of this situation, even when we shouldn’t because of our health. I hope sooner than later we can get some much needed recovery from all we’ve been through. Any streams are massively appreciated, and I hope you’ll check out my other stuff/look forward to when I can record & release my debut album, which is about many parts of complex post traumatic stress disorder from the perspective of an autistic trans person with an abusive mother.
Thank you for reading. It’s been hard to talk about this, so it means a lot that you’d care this much.
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