Ari "Two Sheds" JacksonI'm starting to become more vocal about #Covid, and I'm getting so much fucking pushback from people who have not bothered to stay informed on the topic.
I'm trying to find a way to communicate to the people that I love that they *should* be worried about catching the virus, and they should do everything they can to avoid catching it, especially repeatedly.
But nobody listens to the Cassandras.
If what we predicted doesn't come true, we're happy, but nobody remembers that we were predicting dire things.
If what we predicted does come true, we're not happy, and still nobody remembers that we were predicting dire things.
Nobody wants to hear that Covid is an airborne immune destroying virus and that 5-10 years down the road (or even now!!!), they're going to be mysteriously sicker. Of course it will not be attributed to Covid, because nobody believes that Covid is an immune-destroying virus except us Cassandras and a few nerdy researches tucked away in the halls of academia or whatever.
I am so fucking frustrated at this point! I almost feel like I'm gaslighting myself, because I don't have peers who have the same amount of knowledge and who are taking the same types of precautions to protect themselves and the people that they care about.
My friends are starting to treat me like a tinfoil hat conspiracy theory nut. I don't even push knowledge on them unless they ask me. And they don't even ask me, because they know they will get an irritatingly long and passionate infodump about it.
We as a society really fucked up. We as a world really fucked up. The things that we could have done in order to prevent so many people getting sick and dying were so damn simple, but nobody wanted to do them.
And now, even the people who are closest to me, to whom I can't help leak Covid information to, are tired and exhausted and don't want to hear it.
They don't want to see me in my mask. They don't want to understand my perspective, they have no compassion for my struggle these last six years, and they are not even curious how I've never caught it. They don't care that to the best of my knowledge, I have protected myself from it over the last six years, and I'm one example of how a person can do so.
I tried to remind them that it's OK to mask again. It's OK to get a HEPA filter. It's OK to assess risks before you go somewhere. Nobody fucking wants to do that! Everybody wants it to be over, they want to go back to pre-Covid days, they want everything to be normal and happy and shiny and whatever again.
And it cannot be because we did not defeat the virus. It is here to stay. It continues to mutate, it continues to infect people and give them long Covid, and it does continue to kill people. They just don't see this information in regular media. A person has to go digging for it in actual research papers and follow the people who have continued to track the virus, citizen scientists, as it were.
Nobody likes a know-it-all. I feel like they are all just waiting for me to catch it. They're waiting for me to fuck up (that's what I'm getting into gaslighting/tinfoil hat territory -- not trusting the people who say they care about me). They all want me to relax my fucking boundaries and not wear a mask around them and not to be cautious.
It's like fucking #Pluribus, except those aliens can't do harm to living beings or even pick a damn apple, even though they are scheming behind the scenes to infect the last remaining people.
I feel like there are people in the world who, if I caught Covid, would laugh and point and say see, you're one of us now.
I would love to be able to let my boundaries down for a while, the way Carol did when she went running off with her alien companion. But then, more likely than not, I would catch Covid. And with my pre-existing immune issues? I would be signing my own death warrant.
No temporary pleasure or escape is worth that.
Though I did wish yesterday that somebody would give me an atomic bomb* because I'm about ready to nuke the entire universe so we can start over.
* if you haven't seen the show, you won't get that reference
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