Trying to find some way to make money at-home while I’m fighting #ChronicPain. The challenge is finding something I don’t have to invest more money or time into bc money is always needed:
- I have #IT experience, but no inclination to continue doing IT stuff except for the monthly noodle on a home server.
- I’m a good #CreativeWriter and #TechnicalWriter, but with no shareable experience.
- I have enough gear and enough meme-ability to try being a gaming #ContentCreator, but I feel overwhelmed at the quality and consistency needed to be seen over the quantity of other creators.
Maybe I’ll get irked at myself enough to take another crack at #Programming, or #GuitarBuilding or some other profitable #Woodworking. Still half-heartedly working on getting better at #Drums to keep the music passion alive and poking into other “hobby/careers” to see what’s feasible.
Peeps around me are hoping I eventually tolerate the pain enough to get a normal job again, but my worldview and values have changed so much since this illness took over that I can’t tolerate the idea of wageslaving unless it’s for an ethically positive cause.
All the while, the nagging feeling of “you’re taking too long to decide when you could be doing something,” and the reciprocal feeling of “you could be doing something better/more productive instead of this,” means I should probably be seeing a psych, but the last psych I saw made me stare at a dot for 45 minutes before asking me how I felt…? Psychology Today has messed the profession up.
Oh well, more alienation! How do cynical introverts make friends again? Probably worth a separate post