I struggle with task paralysis at the best of times, but moving home has taken this to another level!
This year, I feel like I've barely been able to do anything other than worrying about every possible scenario that could have led to the collapse of our house sale. I have been even less productive than usual, my creativity has suffered and my hobbies have been discarded. Reading is one of my favourite activities, but I've been unable to concentrate on this for longer than a few pages at a time.
It has been the most serious and consequential process that I have ever had to endure. Eight months of forcing myself to make phone calls, studying documents, engaging in important negotiations and dealing with all manner of unforeseen circumstances and potential problems has taken its toll, but the elation of completing the sale has made it all worthwhile.
But only half the task has been completed! We still have to finalise the purchase of our new house. While we stay with my sister-in-law, who has kindly taken us in, the majority of our possessions are in storage — it's incredible that most of the contents of our previous house fit into such a small space! This sense of limbo is akin to what my mental state has been like for most of the year. I have been unable to make plans or firm decisions, and I've not allowed myself to relax. Hopefully, the finishing line is in sight.
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