It's Friday. The first Friday of 2026.

My new years resolution is to survive. That's all I have, that's all that matters. I want to get healthier, I want to finally accept myself for who I am, but I don't want to be disappointed if I fail my resolution, so my resolution is something I'm sure I can do, survive.

Also, I appreciate y'all.

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I need to work on my attitude. I've been deeply angry and grumpy for the last 6 months, and I don't know how to change that state. I've had moments of happiness here and there, but haven't had anything lasting. No feeling of joy. Just deep, dark anger.

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Hugs to everyone. It’s totally understandable. I hope you can figure out a way to stop the anger, but it’s understandable

It is the new year! I’m also hoping to get healthier this year, and been noticing some really bad mental health signs… so I have therapy on Sunday.

@TheDrPinky kudos on that step ❤️ and for
@dntlookbehindu and others, the most effective antidote I’ve found for anxiety and anger and bitterness is the slow, consistent, and intentional practice of gratitude. Somebody I love once wrote “spiritual formation is the slowest of all human movements”, and learning to be very patient with myself in this area has also helped.

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@TheDrPinky My therapist had me do the whole medical depression and anxiety assessment thing where you rate various things on a scale of not at all to nearly everyday, and let's be real, that was artificially inflated due to recent events.

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@TheDrPinky exhausting is the right word.

I swear everything that could go wrong yesterday did go wrong.

They refuse to accept me for an ADHD assessment because I had one in 2023 that refused my diagnosis because autism and ADHD are contraindicated, and that one was a neuropsych evaluation, and that's the creme de La Creme.

They also denied my estradiol refill. I called them yesterday, it got fixed up and filled this morning. But that was irritating.

Jumpcloud refused to let me log in all day yesterday on the first attempt, it took like 3 or 4 tries each time.

And teams won't let me click links to open them anymore.

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It is indeed another Friday, or yesterday was at least.

I can't believe I forgot y'all. I'm so sorry.

I woke up this morning to the powers out. And there's snow on the ground outside. And I need to take a piss and shit. Which I can't flush. Because the power's out.

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