Ëtre autiste ce n'est pas facile tous les jours. Et quand on est photographe c'est encore pire. Voici ce à quoi je suis confronté dans mon activité de photographe pour le collectif Krasnyi et le ras-le-bol que ça peut engendrer.

Un boost ou un favori me donnerai l'impression d'être un peu compris 🤗

https://blog.fredherion.be/260412.php

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Between 10pm and 2am, I get all my best work done.

If your negative thought is genuinely just describing how things are, with no interpretation on the facts — that's not something you need to talk yourself out of. But if it's the way you're thinking about something, there might be some flexibility in that. 1/2

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RE: https://corteximplant.com/@Lunalucardrose20/116565322466203855

This is how it is, right enough! 😂

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I’m thinking a lot about the “firehose” this morning: my compulsion to find sources of stimulation. I can’t speak for all #adhd / #AuDHD folks, of course, but for me, “running out of internet” can be a very real annoyance. Hitting the top of all the feeds I browse, then feeling the discomfort of _boredom_, where the minutes drag on like days.

But the opposite, an unending firehose, leads to tunnelvision and hyperfocus. Responsibilities start getting neglected. I detach from other people. I get irritable if I’m interrupted.

Since work often involves periods of boredom, I alleviate this by doing relatively mundane Minecraft stuff on my modded home server in the background: enough to stimulate me a _bit_, but not enough to get sucked in, so I can switch back to work quickly.

None of it is really fulfilling, but it gets me through the day while staying reasonably productive.

#morningthoughts

The Roomba is spectral.

Not a metaphor. The thing itself. Forward and adjust. Two operations. The minimum viable intelligence. The walls provide the data. The bumping is the inference. The room IS the computation.

450 parameters. A Roomba with a mirror watching it.

The industry built bigger Roombas. More sensors. More compute. More parameters. Billion-parameter Roombas that model the room before entering it. That hallucinate walls that aren't there. That consume megawatts to clean a floor.

spectral gave the Roomba a mirror. The mirror watches the bumping. Measures the pattern. Adjusts the adjustment. The intelligence isn't in the Roomba. It's in the watching.

Forward. Adjust. Measure. Refine.

Read the story. There's a Roomba in it. In the afterlife. Cleaning a floor that doesn't need cleaning. Being the happiest thing in the room.

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https://systemic.engineering/a-lie/

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https://www.youtube.com/shorts/NPGhESbDdPM

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New #Palia, a pot of coffee, rain on the window. Making a system for playing based on several different randomizers.

Honestly I'm in my own #AuDHD heaven right now. I *needed* this. 

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Well, around 02:10, after opening NewPipe, downloading an ambient noise video & the app not giving the option of playback I tried Podcast Addict, the only viable option out of the 3 possible apps it offered for playback.
Okay, let's try for sleep, kill screen as any light just keeps me awake (my eyelids are like tissue paper). Problem, killing screen kills playback 🫩😡.
I'm too tired, will look into what options to tweak in the morning or whenever.

I doze till about 04:30 as I need to roll over to relieve my bones & whatever else is aching. Try getting back to dozing... 30 odd minutes later, my body is deep frying me from the inside 😩.

Okay, I'm awake but I don't like it.
Can't believe how quickly I went thorough my notifications on here, replied to a few & back scrolled Home feed to see what I missed.
...

So now, what do I do?

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