Rail replacement for our winter day

I’m on my way back from a day with your adorable little face.

The plans to visit grandma and other friends in the Big City were cancelled because the direct trains aren’t running. Your mum refused to drive so I went to River Town instead.

Tickets to see you

Your mum messaged me at 8:30am to confirm the day was going ahead, as I asked her to, because I needed a bit of time to prep your lunch. Over the last few days, you’ve been unwell with a cough and rash. Both are still present, however now they are mild.

I really hope you get past these constant sicknesses, it’s starting to worry me a bit. As long as your mum takes you to the GP, all I can do is trust you’re being looked after suitably. If I dare to ask, your mum shuts me down with threats of accusing me of harassing her. I’m in a horrible position.

I now have access to your GP records but that won’t cover every time you’re sick so I can’t know if your mum is just making excuses. I’m kept in the dark and we’re kept separated.

Our day together

I had originally planned to visit grandma and have lunch with her before visiting Market Street. As the plans changed, in the morning I got ready and cooked you a prawn, cream, spinach and mashed potatoes meal.

I anticipated Wagamama would have highchairs and like other chain restaurants, would be family-friendly. Yo Sushi last week they were great.

You were a little unsettled and didn’t eat much so I had to use the various backups which were successful. You were very keen on cheese today and kept asking for more until you finished everything I had! ‘Moor’, ‘moor’. It’s adorable hearing you speak, I’ll try and get a video of you saying ‘more’ soon.

I tried to go for a walk along the canal but it started raining so I thought you would be better off at the library. It was busy with various families and a little reading session was on, I tried to have us join, but I think you wanted to monkey around and release some energy.

Less reading more throwingI can understand why dads grow their beards now!

I used an opportunity to video call grandma and then there was little time for anything else as it was getting dark and generally a miserable day. The greatest brightness was absolutely your lovely expressions and sweetest way of playing with other kids.

It breaks my heart that you fall asleep and I disappear for a week or longer at a time

I miss you already so much sweetheart.

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