Almost 2 weeks on #Lexapro. Noticed an interesting trend in my resting heart rate. It's going down. Screen shot is from my #Fitbit app. It shows this month, 71 (my average resting heart rate), bpm personal range (63-82) with a graph that shows the decrease.

I was taking 3/4 of a pill. I decreased it back to a 1/2 pill. Yesterday I was feeling flat, tired & a little numb, with a nagging light headache. Today I feel more Heidi-like. Like I'm feeling my feelings again. #mentalHealth #depression

Everybody finds me much better to be around, says how much better I look and sound, and my brain is getting more broken by the day.

I just learned that when most people try hard to remember things, it can make their head hurt, and that they just stop trying to remember the thing they forgot.

My wife and dad had a whole conversation with which I struggled to interact, in which I ended up virtually non-verbal. They were more relaxed and comfortable because it no longer occurred to them to put in the effort to help me understand, and I hated myself for not understanding.

They both think I should go off the medication, with my wife less strenuously,because she doesn't want to decide for me (she's the absolute best), but I'm dedicated to giving this a real chance.

Anybody with experience here? Does this get better? Or at least tolerable?

#Lexapro #SSRI #MentalHealth #Autism #Anxiety #medicine #ActuallyAutistic #Autistic