Heidi

@Heidiknits
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Gemini. Hockey mom. Wife (not yours). Naturally medicated. Fiber artist. Lover of most music. Romance audiobook fan. A little witchy. Brainfog aficionado. New Englander (US). Horrible chef, excellent baker. Mathphobe (shut up, it's a thing.) Migrainer. Meditator. Awkward, but cute. Chronically ill #POTS. Yankees fan, but not an asshole about it. Obsessed with dresses & square dancing. (Yes, for real. Don't knock it til you try it.) Vaguely agoraphobic, which can be fun. She/her. Be kind. #JoinIn
Heidi22h ago

I agreed to go into the office 90 minutes early today. This was a stupid idea. I'm slow moving in the mornings (I'm slow all day, but particularly slow in the AM). Plus, it's Monday. Who wants to go to work early on a Monday?? At least I'll be done by 12, then I can go to therapy, and later, chocolate class.

I can do this. I'll do my best not to cry.

Hope you have a good day, Mastodonlandia.

Heidi1d ago
Daughter of a Carpenter1d ago
They say: "There is a crack, a crack in everything / That's how the light gets in", but I think that's also how the light gets out... #nature
Heidi1d ago
Husband and I had a very honest, very difficult conversation yesterday. I think he's finally realizing that I'm not going to magically stop feeling depressed. I need some TLC from him and I think I've finally asked in a way that he got it. He's been great since then. Today wasn't so heavy.
Heidi3d ago
Today was another hard one, friends.
Heidi4d ago
Fat Squirrel Peppers4d ago

Work smarter not harder

#Gardening

Show threadHeidi4d ago

The kidney surgery was 2015. That was a doozy.

Sigh. No need to comment or like. I dunno. I'm overwhelmed by everything and everyone. I just need to get shit out of my head & husband has enough to worry about besides me & my bullshit.

Sigh. Crawling back into bed. Even if it is 90° in my bedroom this evening. (I love it. Winter sucks. Lol.)

I love you, #Mastodon. Go do fun stuff & tell me about it.

#medical

Show threadHeidi4d ago
I had a hysterectomy in 2011. I wasn't even 40. She was awesome. She also saved my kidney. Endometriosis had blocked a ureter. The urologist I was seeing at the time said I was fine. I sent the scans to my OB because of the endometriosis & she called me from her cell phone telling me that I had an enlarged kidney and to get a second opinion that day with a specialist she recommended. She got me the appointment. I had robotic surgery a month later. My body is an asshole. Lol. #medical
Show threadHeidi4d ago

I called my old OBGYN Monday & was told the first available appt for me was September. That's what started Monday's tears. What sucks is, I know if I talked to my Dr, she'd absolutely make room for me in her schedule. I've been a patient of hers for 18 years. She performed my hysterectomy, ffs. I've called 7 different offices looking for help this week and either it costs $695 for a 45 minute consult, not including tests or wait months to be seen.

These are my options?

WHAT THE FUCK.

Heidi4d ago

Got about 24 hours of feeling like myself but now I'm slipping back into depression. Sigh. I'm ok. But fuck, this is miserable. I need to find a new OBGYN. I think tomorrow I'll call my old OBGYN and beg for an appointment. Or go to the ER. I'm in pain. My left ovary is angry and I'm afraid that it's not something I should ignore. I get this pain monthly but it's the intensity of the pain this time. It's better than yesterday so that's why I didn't go to the ER today.

#MentalHealth

Show threadHeidi5d ago
Dogs sometime don't like me. I think they sense the POTS/high heart rate and it makes them wary of me. This girl though- all love. I needed that. #dogsofmastodon