#Introduction
Hey, everyone on the Fedi!

I'm Eli (pronounced as Ellie).

I'm an #enby from #Mexico and not new to the Fediverse, but haven't been around recently. I had an account at queer.party and, since that instance is gone now, I'm looking to find new connections, so feel free to follow if we share interests or recommend accounts to follow.

I'm #trans, #nonbinary, #genderflux, #agender, #maverique, #aromantic #demiaro, #polysexual, #toric, #enbian, and #polyamorous.
My pronouns are they/them, ze/hir and it/its, interchangeable.

I love all things #horror (mostly films) and am very fond of #80sHorror, you can check my Letterboxd out to see my reviews. My fave film is Chopping Mall (1986).

I usually don't watch shows now, I hate when they get cancelled and the story gets no proper ending, which happens a lot, but you can also find me at Serializd.

My reading list is predominantly #CrimeFiction (mainly Nordic) but I also like reading horror, #QueerRomance, and anything that piques my curiosity.

I'm some kind of a #geek and enjoy #FOSS, my main OS has been #LinuxMint for 5 years now, and I have an old laptop for distrohopping, currently using #Manjaro and #Debian. My secondary OS is #macOS.

I also happen to be a #language nerd, I speak #Swedish, #Catalan, and #French. Will mainly post in #English and #Spanish, though.

My favourite #music genre is #IndieRock, but I’d listen to anything, primarily more #indie genres.
My favourite band ever is #kent.
As of now, my favourite artists are: #cupcakKe, #DaltonDeschain, #SoporAeternus, #TwinTemple, #LaCasaAzul, #Enjambre, #Ginestà, #ElsAmicsDeLesArts, #PierreLapointe, #Остава…

My favourite animals are #cats, #spiders, #octopuses and #snails, but I don't have any pets.

#ASMR has helped me relax and fall asleep for +10 years now, so I may share some links every now and then.

I love #JigsawPuzzles and every once in a while I do some #puzzling.

Latest from my genderfluid experience. At one point I used neutrois as the placeholder name for my default gender before I settled on maverique. Right now I think neutrois is more fitting. It's as if maverique is a more charged gendered feeling, neutrois is more subdued. Still there is a gendered feeling so it's not close to genderblank/agender. Not sure whether this is actually one more point between genderblank and maverique. Might also be related to my general energy levels. I'm pretty exhausted at the moment.

#NonBinary #GenderFluid #neutrois #maverique

Oh my, this wave of gender euphoria! Getting ready for work, looking at the pierced ears, dreaming of finding lovely earrings -- and I know there are lots of them out there. Braiding my long goatee. Putting on beautiful bracelets, rings and necklaces. Checking my sweet shiny nails ("Regal garnet"). I love what I see in the mirror. This morning I'm maverique as hell, baby, and I love it! 💜

#NonBinary #NonBinaryJoy #GenderQueer #GenderEuphoria #maverique

I've been silent here for a long time. All is well, just haven't had anything queer to say. Thought that some might appreciate an update.

The biggest thing I've processed lately is my self-diagnosed autism. It's as if I got my gender processed -- at least for the time being -- and then moved to the next "new" part about my self. It's all an interesting tangle.

I've become more comfortable expressing my gender. I've added a non-binary flag to my work laptop and wore a non-binary t-shirt to the meeting with our new students. I've told about my identity to yet another coworker who took it nonchalantly, and let my superior know about my they/them pronouns. I also bought a beautiful necklace (pictured) from @skaly and have been wearing it almost daily. Usually I pair it with another necklace. At the moment, I change my nail color weekly.

My gender keeps fluctuating but I don't think about it daily. While there's no doubt about me being non-binary, I've even went through a period where I felt mostly guy. It's funny how that felt somehow strange! Right now I'm maverique with genderblank creeping in.

#NonBinary #GenderQueer #maverique #GenderBlank #GenderFluid #GenderFlux

the thing about maveriquehood is that it isn't related to the binary, but i still feel like i relate to certain expressions of binary gender, or that i have to use binary language to explain myself.

i love wearing skirts, jewelry & floral, things society associates with women. but i'm not female, so even i, who has also internalised the binary, take the most unfemale gender that comes to mind and sort of relate to it. when i wear dresses, i'm not doing it the way a woman does, i'm doing it in a way someone who is entirely unfemale does - & society says this is men. so i end up kind of relating to feminine men without relating to femininity or manhood, without ever wanting to call myself or be associated with either of these things.

i love having shaved hair, wearing baggy clothes & tops that show off my big fat arms, things society associates with men. but i'm not male, so even i take the most unmale gender that comes to mind and sort of relate to it. when i wear my hair short, i'm not doing it the way a man does, i'm doing it in a way someone who is entirely unmale does - & society says this is women. so i end up kind of relating to masculine women without relating to masculinity or womanhood, without ever wanting to call myself or be associated with either of these things.

this is however why i am both a fag & a dyke, both a failed man & a failed woman in society's eyes, queer in ways that don't have language yet. the only way i'll ever relate to the binary is in ways that are so queer even other queer people often don't get it.

when i try to express how queer my gender is, i feel a pressure to use binary language to explain it. for example, referring to my boobs as "the boys" would mark them as unfeminine more clearly than simply not using binary terms. using cross-binary language is considered an active choice, an act of nonconformity, whereas the lack of binary language is seen as passive & not a big deal, if people notice it at all. & it's not like we have maverique-specific or even nonbinary-specific terms that are even remotely recognised. but i don't give in to this pressure because no binary terms feel authentic to me.

the binary is inescapable.

#maverique #nonbinary

Last year I settled with maverique being my default gender. During winter I thought I was mistaken and that genderblank was the default. In the last weeks we've gotten more light and the summer has now arrived. Maverique feels like the default again. I think the most plausible explanation is that my fluid gender is affected by light/warmth/season. I don't mind, this is pretty neat actually!

#NonBinary #GenderQueer #GenderFluid #maverique #GenderBlank #GenderFlux