Depression makes you do complex maths. Like train speed based on distance between level crossings judged by the train horn. From this you can calculate approximate speed. Velocity of a 192 lb body traveling for 142' onto dead calm water on a moonless night on an outgoing tide. Aye, my brain is a real party. I'm just having a wee rant, I really donnae ken the solution other than a promise I made. #suicidalideations #majordepressivedisorderrecurrent #bpd #mybrainisverybroken

Aye. Art by Shawn Coss #MentalHealth #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #SelfLoathing #SelfPunishment

So often I will talk tae someone fully forgetting that nobody gies a wee shite wut I havtae sae. #RejectionSensitivityDysphoria is just fucking lovely. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #SelfLoathing

Well I've discontinued my mental health care. Sacked both my therapist (#7) and my psychiatrist (#2). Let the fun begin! #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #PTSD #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #SelfLoathing

Ah will suffer alongside ye but ye must NEVER count on meh. Ah nae really know how much longer mah monsters will let meh live. Art by Shawn Coss #MentalHealthAwareness #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Suicidalideations #Dysthymia #OCPD #SelfLoathing

The problem with becoming romantically attracted tae someone is that my monsters demand it's immediate destruction. So I take the emotion like I do so many others, and shove it back intae vile wee place frae which it came. #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria #SelfLoathing #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent

I want desperately tae fall in #love, but no sabotage it when it is returnit. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #SelfLoathing #MyBrainIsVeryBroken

I look at my 57 year auld face and body and then look at the photos of beautiful women and men and realise that I wasnae ever in the running, and ahm fair certain ahmno now. I swear I curse mah deceased mum for giesing me birth. #PissPoorGenes #Ugly #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #SelfLoathing #TheTruthHurts.