UGH, I have to call a dr's office to make a payment.

Who in the Year of Our AOC 2026 doesn't have an online payment method? What kind of medical office still takes checks?!?

*sigh* I hate the phone.

*SIGH*

#IntrovertProblems
#ADHDproblems

Daaaaanng it.

I've done it again. In an attempt to loosen up on the "but I don't have that notebook with me" perfectionism, I've scattered my song writing / song revising systems too far and wide.
I've allowed myself to spread out over a couple apps, lots of texting to myself, only a couple(!) notebooks, and at worst, some index cards (which are paperclipped into bundles and kept all together in a Ziplock. i do draw the line at random scraps of paper.)
Now, I had a good line the other day. And it paired well with another line I'd had floating around.
And I know I wrote it down. Like, solid 98% taking "being interrupted so brain ticked task as complete based on intention and initiation" into consideration. But I really do tend to remember that I've actually written things down — because it happens so rarely!!

And I can't find it. I've looked everywhere. If past logical me agrees with present logical me, we would have added it to the old line somewhere instead of creating a new random orphaned idea. But that older line already exists in a dozen locations due to revisions and digital vs paper… OR what if practicality and this feck perfuctionism! thing won out, and I just got it out my brain before I forgot it. Full Columbo with a Picasso sketch on the napkin routine… in terms of act first, think later.

Oh well. I was managing to beat some lyrics out myself but I wanted to track down that damn line and now… Well, tonight the white noise sounds like ME just continuously singing one long note. Oh wait, there's some overtones in there. I can't tell you the pitch of your vacuum cleaner, but I can detect an entire choir from the frequencies of a box fan.

I'll say it again: UPNOTE NEEDS A WEB VERSION!!!

Ridiculous how much daily effort goes into:
1. Remembering to take my meds
2. Actually taking the meds before forgetting again

Sometimes, this dance lasts literal hours.
My first "reminder" alarm went off at 9:30. I have finally just now succeeded at executing the task.
Sigh.
#ADHDProblems

Constantly buoyed by the firm belief that I'll be able to solve all of today's problems by just getting my head down and working hard tomorrow.

Constantly crushed by the knowledge that I'm solving exactly none of yesterday's problems because I cannot, in fact, get my head down and work hard.

#ADHD #AuDHD #ADHDProblems #Neurodivergent

Why have we not invented good coffee on tap?

I want a coffee, but oof, making the coffee

#ADHD #ADHDLife #ADHDProblems