Daaaaanng it.

I've done it again. In an attempt to loosen up on the "but I don't have that notebook with me" perfectionism, I've scattered my song writing / song revising systems too far and wide.
I've allowed myself to spread out over a couple apps, lots of texting to myself, only a couple(!) notebooks, and at worst, some index cards (which are paperclipped into bundles and kept all together in a Ziplock. i do draw the line at random scraps of paper.)
Now, I had a good line the other day. And it paired well with another line I'd had floating around.
And I know I wrote it down. Like, solid 98% taking "being interrupted so brain ticked task as complete based on intention and initiation" into consideration. But I really do tend to remember that I've actually written things down — because it happens so rarely!!

And I can't find it. I've looked everywhere. If past logical me agrees with present logical me, we would have added it to the old line somewhere instead of creating a new random orphaned idea. But that older line already exists in a dozen locations due to revisions and digital vs paper… OR what if practicality and this feck perfuctionism! thing won out, and I just got it out my brain before I forgot it. Full Columbo with a Picasso sketch on the napkin routine… in terms of act first, think later.

Oh well. I was managing to beat some lyrics out myself but I wanted to track down that damn line and now… Well, tonight the white noise sounds like ME just continuously singing one long note. Oh wait, there's some overtones in there. I can't tell you the pitch of your vacuum cleaner, but I can detect an entire choir from the frequencies of a box fan.

I'll say it again: UPNOTE NEEDS A WEB VERSION!!!

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