@actuallyautistic@autismsupsoc Trying to be kinder to myself, not there yet.
This is a refrain I have repeated to myself many times and heard from so many others. The problem is that, especially for those of us new to our
#Autism, it is incredibly hard to do. We have spent so long suppressing, ignoring and masking the real us that we don't know how to be kind to ourselves anymore. So many of our relationships have been about trying to fit in and being kind to others that our own needs and wants and feelings have become secondary and in many ways unimportant. Beginning the process of acknowledging this and of understanding and being kinder to ourselves means seeing this, but also just how much more, when we finally allow it, intense and powerful and indeed painful our experience can be and after so long that is kind of terrifying.