So! With it being Pride Month, I've been meaning to type something on this up but just keep getting distracted or just flat out forgetting, but... Hi! I'm Kavu, and I think I'm Aegosexual!
Let's talk about that. Falling under the Ace umbrella, Aegosexual is someone who feels a disconnect between sexual arousal, and the SUBJECT of sexual arousal. Essentially, while I get horny, masturbate, and fantasize about a LOT of stuff, when it comes down to ACTUALLY doing sexual acts... a lot of times... there just isn't any drive or turn on.
For me, kink helps blur that line and gives me an outlet to enjoy intimacy with others. While I have ZERO interest in having penetrative sex with my Daddy, he knows that rubbing or buzzing the front of my diaper and using kinky phrases or ahm... threats/teases.... will absolutely smash my buttons. He's tried giving me a pawjob before, and it's unfortunately not something that works for me, because... the act itself isn't hot, and it's difficult to do that exact grip and squeeze that works best for me. Diapers however.... play directly into that fantasy concept or idea that arouses me, and they also FEEL good, so it lets me be intimate with him without direct interaction with our bits. This is entertainingly why to a certain extent, I vibed so much with the whole #diapersexual thing. Cause in a way... I am. The DIAPER is what brings those horny fantasy thoughts into the real world to act on them.
With others, I've found grinding diapers to be an incredibly amazing experience, because again... the diapers are the subject of arousal, not the sex act with another person. It's hard sometimes in retrospect to separate the two, but somehow, to me, they are. I find some of my friends very hot and absolutely have wonderfully hot, erotic ideas or fantasies about them, but they almost ALWAYS are kink related, and are never going to be simple sex fantasies, or even kinky fantasies that involve sex as it's own thing.
Weird, right? And this killed my 11 year relationship because it's taken me until the age of 33 to learn about and articulate this. My Ex is VERY sexual, and I... struggled to perform. To the extent that my dry spell went on for YEARS, and was absolutely unfair to her(which is actually why we opened our relationship and why I met my Daddy!)
But yeah! Welcome to a bit about me. Want to tie my wrists and ankles up, diaper me, tease the hell out of me about being a helpless diaper dependent kitten who NEEDS his diapers to get off, then vibe the fuck out of my soaked diaper while threatening to take the wand away if I don't come quick enough? Boom, Buttons smashed. The moment actual sex becomes involved though... nope. Doesn't matter if I find you hot, it's the fantasy idea involving the kink that does it for me, not the act itself.
For the few people I've had relations with IRL who might be reading this, I need you to know I absolutely loved EVERY second of those moments together >.> Diaper Grinding is an absolute turn on, and again, having the diaper there plays into the fantasy, bringing the IRL act together with the mental fantasy in a wonderfully conjoined act of .. HUFF. 10/10 can't wait to see you all again and do even more things. <3
#PrideMonth #aegosexual #diapersexual