Sigh, I'm struggling with a Thing I don't like in my life, friends, but I can't change it. Well. Not immediately (unless I'm willing to face some really unpleasant consequences, and I'm not).

I can work towards changing said Thing but that will take time, and meanwhile, I need to be OK with the status quo. This is unsettling and annoying because I've really reached the end of my tether with the Thing.

I need to focus on radical acceptance/gratitude/what good I have in my life over the next few days. Currently I'm journalling, writing lists of 'things I love and are good in life', spending time with my favourite folk, planning some gardening...

any other tips will be greatly appreciated. This is taking up a lot of energy and it's demoralising and sad.

#advice #LifeStuff #annoying #sad

I hate crying in therapy.

Not because it's embarrassing or anything, but because therapy isn't cheap and I can cry in my own time 😭😂
(in the shower, like normal people. Right? Right?!)

But mainly it's because I can't cry and talk at the same time. Annoying 😒

Effectively gagging myself with emotion.

#therapy #cptsd #emotional #vulnerable #crying #personal #LifeStuff

I've finally been referred to a 'local' M.E. clinic - it's miles away but they also work via Teams apparently & I'll have my hearing aids & lipreading, so will hopefully be ok.

Also applied for PIP - not for CFS/M.E. as I doubt I'd get it on that, but for my lifetime deafness + hearing aids costs. NHS don't offer the ones I need & I'd only get one anyway! My hearing aids are £2k+ & I'm on my second pair 😭 So expensive 🙄

#PersonalUpdate #deaf #chronicIllness #CFS #PIP #HearingAids #LifeStuff

I will always share the best advice I was given growing up second to "Learn how to relax."

Be a regular someplace outside your home/work. Maybe a bar, a group, an activity with peers. Be a regular somewhere.

Make friends and have community. It goes beyond you. Help build and contribute to something larger.

#advice #regular #lifestuff

good morning friends, it's time for another round of #LifeStuff, the tag for trying to get things done. it's been a while since I've done one

to-do list:
✓ eat breakfast
- start a load of laundry
- unpack/put away blankets and towels (now that the linen closet is accessible)

... and idk, maybe I'll do more, but that list is making me tired already. me wanting to do a Life Stuff post is usually a good sign that I'm climbing out of a #depression pit, but I've been very depressed for many months, so I'd rather not overdo it

anyway, here goes! I just finished my breakfast, let's start some laundry!

#mentalhealth #unpacking #moving