I have a doctors appointment today to see if I’m going to need to get a hysterectomy. Women’s medicine is such a fucking joke. I don’t understand why we have to suffer for months or years before our complaints are taken seriously… And sometimes when they finally listen it’s too late. I love children and I’ve always wanted to be a mother. Thankfully I already have one son who is the light of my life and a brilliant and talented little boy… but I do want to have or care for more children so that I can make better people for the future (people that are good and actually have secure attachment). I couldn’t sleep at all last night because I’m scared. I’m only 28 years old and I’m a little young to be experiencing these issues. I really hope that I’m just crazy and it is all in my head… then at least it would just be therapy instead of losing organs. I always thought I was going to have a daughter named Elanore… this part may be selfish, but I wanted to give a girl all of the love and power and confidence that I was denied. Of course I do the same for my son and I love him more than anything, but the world really is against us (women) and I wanted to help cultivate a young lady who is not traumatized and could be a strong leader in the future of the world if she wanted (and again, I do the same for my son). If I do end up getting hysterectomy it is going to have some pretty extreme health consequences. After women get a hysterectomy they generally age pretty quickly… it could take some years off my life. I’m so upset because I care so much about health and #wellness and have overcome so many really intense difficulties… But I guess there will always be a new challenge, right? #Hysterectomy #WomensHealth #MyBody #MyBodyMyChoice #Women #Health #ProChoice #Feminism #Feminist #fucktheus #ModernMedicine #Medicine #battle #scared #pcos #pots #mystery