One thing that does shock me about neurotypicals is their tantrums are so different.
Instead of identifying the source, they blame other people’s character.
They talk shit about their friends, and expect you to agree.
“I did not notice” did the neurotypical reply.
Apparently they lie when they try to make peace? We met today and pretended nothing had happened.
Does my ASD tolerate teamwork?
Not if I want to pitch a tent or puting away Christmas lights.
Just realised what I had yesterday was an ASD meltdown from prople not tidying up ‘right’ at a function party.
I have since apologised, but I am aware some neurotypical friendships don’t last after me becoming pedantic.
Plans cancelled.
So I got to do something else that was pending. After the initial frustration, I am proud and happy now.
Understanding my resistence to change comes from being #actuallyautistic helps me be kinder to myself, and to move on quicker to the next thing.
I finally understand that some errands come with an extra cost for me, and it is ok to pay it.
Accepting that changes the whole perspective of my day.
Today was far from perfect, but:
- I persevered to find my way to a new place
- I got important paperwork done
A good day after all.
Of course I would be taking the wrong bus and end up in another town.
That is why I took the whole morning off just to do this one thing.
Instead of my latest hiperfocus (now fading), I could be doing more fulfilling/impactful things with my time.
So I created a Trello board with the options. Far from perfect but it is helping.