Rider of trains, appreciator of cool buildings, name nerd, into languages and bouldering. Gay, kinky, somewhat damaged
#transman #actuallyautistic #audhd
| PRONOUNS | he/him |
| LANGUAGES | English, German, Russian, Lithuanian |
| MY TOOTS | https://justmytoots.com/@cupoftea@mstdn.social |
Suppose it's time for me to stop being nervous, and just go ahead and tell you lovely Mastodon people:
I have been sharing my science fiction story, "Radiant Inverse", on Royal Road (a serial fiction website) for the past couple of weeks.
https://www.royalroad.com/fiction/72693/radiant-inverse-a-science-fantasy-adventure
There are already 13 chapters up. 
I would love it if you'd check it out. No need for an account -- but accounts can comment and leave reviews!
Recent engineering graduate Jessyn Skye has all summer to look for a job on his remote colony world -- and he's ready to waste every minute of it. There are parties to crash, test ships to fly, and a planet full of tropical beaches. Few people know the painful secrets behind his easygoing attitude, however. While attempting to confront an old trauma, (...)
yeah okay that's unfair of me, it does actually help and it did a lot for my confidence and my therapist is honestly an awesome human being
but it's like... carrying around a 10 liter jug of water for years, and every session you can only pour out, like, 50 ml into a tiny glass. It's better than nothing, I'm glad I can do this at all, but fuck I just need so so so so much more. Every time I can't help but leave disappointed that my jug is still so heavy
The biggest benefit of being in therapy so far:
1) got super frustrated with how little today's session had brought me, as well as with my life, body, and the whole damn world
2) angrily power walked 5 km
3) came home still angry, Turkish rap blasting in my ears, and did 5 very angry push-ups...
...where before I could do 0 (if we don't count knee push-ups)...
...yay, I can do 5 full push-ups now! I'll take it as a win
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