💖moonmouse (they/them)💖I miss 2011. I haven’t known peace since 2013. Oh god it’s been 10 years since I’ve not had a chaotic existence. Where I could just breath. The last 10 years have been some of the worst years of my life. There’s only a few shining moments in there, like the birth of my son and my son existing (he’s been a constant shining light in my life), finding my way back to my partner, getting sober. But g0dd*mn I thought the c-ptsd I had from being a kid was rough in 2011… ha. HA. #cptsd #chaos #sober
the ptsd, mental illnesses, a personality disorder, and being doubly neurodivergent (triple! Counting ptsd) not to mention now I’m disabled and chronically ill… laughs at what I felt was rough then. I mean it wasn’t easy most people didn’t have to deal with what I did by the time I was 18 in 2011. But now I can honestly say there’s no way I could have possibly even begun to imagine how the last decade has went. #cptsd #ptsd #MentalIllness #mentalhealth #neurodivergent #adhd #pots #chronicilless
Things that most people wouldn’t even be able to comprehend like their worst nightmares kinda bad, where like maybe one of the events that happened to me happens sometimes in a persons life and devastates them, oh no- I have like countless amounts of those events. #trauma #cptsd #mentalhealth #MentalIllness #ptsd #chronicallyill #chronicillness #disabled
My own psychiatrist I was seeing in 2021 when I told him my whole story, sat back, took his glasses off and was cleaning them and said “I’m gonna be real honest with you kalie, I’m surprised you’re even alive,”he then went on to tell me that I was the strongest person he’s ever met in his 20+ year long career. I wish I didn’t have to keep being the strongest person. I’ve grown tired of it 😞 #strong #ptsd #cptsd #disabled #chronicallyill #chronicillness #mentalhealth #MentalIllness #sad
NoctisEqui 🇺🇦🇵🇸🇪🇹🏳️🌈I walked on the wild side one too many times. Now I can barely walk at all.
I have no idea when, if ever, I will return to my ‘before’ life.
@NoctisEqui I totally know how you feel. I went way way too hard and now I walk with a cane.