This week's blog post is a conversation with an abuser introject of my twin. It starts with:

🐀 I just... I just want this pain to stop... *sobs*

🐑 Do you know where this pain is coming from?

🐀 FROM YOU!!!!!

🐑 *holds up hands* I am not hurting you.

🐀 BUT I'M IN PAIN!!! IT MUST BE YOU!!!! >:///
IT IS ALWAYS YOU.
You are the weakest link. If you just measured UP, we'd ALL be ok!!!

later:

🐑 You didn't disintegrate from pain, despite the fact that I kept my boundary. Me having boundaries is not an attack on you or constitutes abuse.

🐀 it does

🐑 No, it does not.

We did get somewhere in the end. Felt very enlightening about how our abusers think, how abuse works in our corrupt family system. Granted, this is only coming from an introject, but still.

⚠️ TW for incest, rape, CSA

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/inner-helper-talks-to-the-abuser-introject/

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This week's blog post is the continuation of a conversation with my Inner Helper about intrusive thoughts/introjects. Excerpts:

"Getting that memory out... it was buried so deep. Dion is right, it was like digging out a splinter from a wound, it hurt a lot but it was necessary."

"I am staying me. And I am holding on to that idea... how did Dion put it? "Your true self is not "being a martyr"" :')"

"And I am looking at the abuser introject or whatever it is, and holding steady.

I can do this."

"I don't know what this means but it feels right. It feels like a triumph of sorts - we didn't just heal a wound, we allowed something to grow stronger than ever before."

You can tell how invaluable having a trusted, supportive, loving friend – Dion – is! I couldn't do this alone! ❤️

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/intrusive-thoughts-2/

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HISTAMINE (Gadigal) with PERSECUTOR, SHOVE, SIN TAX & COMBAT ROCK

Bell City Takeaway, Friday, July 10 at 08:00 PM GMT+10

BIG RIFF BONANZA, EVERYTHING MUST GO!

HISTAMINE (Gadigal) return for one show only alongside a lineup of local heayweights ready to bring the ringing to your ears.

HISTAMINE: Bold beats from the backside of big bad (B)Sydney

https://lastriderecords.bandcamp.com/album/quality-of-life

PERSECUTOR: Powerviolence to punish the puny colony

https://persecutorpunx.bandcamp.com/album/lateral-violence

SHOVE: Lebenden Toten on a stolen Harley with Chitose

https://shovemc.bandcamp.com/album/agency

SIN TAX: The G-Anx of graff-core

https://miraclecortexrecords.bandcamp.com/album/abnegation-ep-2

COMBAT ROCK: Rival Mob-esque riffs for rockers

https://the-omission.bandcamp.com/album/demo

$20 OTD, R100+

https://melbourne.askapunk.net/event/histamine-gadigal-with-persecutor-shove-sin-tax-and-combat-rock

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Timepeace, Persecutor, Slowburn & Lockjaw @ Last Chance

Last Chance, Thursday, April 30 at 07:00 PM GMT+10

Timepeace continues to push the boundaries of what hardcore is, and challenge old ideas of what it should be. Thursday April 30th, they will be teaming up at current punk rock mecca, The Last Chance; along with them are Persecutor, Slowburn & Lockjaw. 

https://melbourne.askapunk.net/event/timepeace-persecutor-slowburn-and-lockjaw-last-chance

Hong Kong Fuck You, Persecutor, Dronraid & Messy Inside @ Last Chance

Last Chance, Thursday, April 23 at 08:00 PM GMT+10

https://melbourne.askapunk.net/event/hong-kong-fuck-you-persecutor-dronraid-and-messy-inside-last-chance

Sick People (QLD), Persecutor, Gift Giver (NSW), Vile Apparition & Implode @ Boronia Girl Guides

Boronia Girl Guides Hall, Sunday, March 1 at 01:00 PM GMT+11

Last show of the Victoria weekender.
Capping it off after Friday at Last Chance and Flippin’ The Bird the night before.

Linking back up with old friends, some of the new waves best and long-term supporters, it’s set to be a cracker of an all ages show for young and old!

https://melbourne.askapunk.net/event/sick-people-qld-persecutor-gift-giver-nsw-vile-apparition-and-implode-boronia-girl-guides