"Sign up for SO MANY OBLIGATIONS. THIS! ENERGY! WON'T! FADE!"

Ok. First of all, how dare you.

#MentalHealth #bpi #bpii #bp1 #bp2 #BiPolar

Kanye's #bipolar apology letter checks out.

https://www.theguardian.com/music/2026/jan/26/kanye-west-takes-out-full-page-ad-apologising-for-antisemitic-behaviour-and-denying-he-is-a-nazi-ye

Specifically I mean that his letter makes accurate claims about bipolar disorder. I live with bipolar type 2 #BP2 myself (as well as #AuDHD and #CPTSD).

Bipolar can make you obsess over topics you don't normally think about and act on values and beliefs you don't even hold.

Bipolar can make you behave in ways that are profoundly at odds with your values.

Bipolar isn't exclusively inherited and it can be triggered by stressful life experiences, like brain injury.

Some psychiatrists hold that some cases of bipolar are better understood as a recurring pattern of autistic burnout. We don't have much research or clinical experience on how bipolar and autism interact.

Many people have observed that Kanye has a new album pending release and see this apology as a PR endeavour.

Many people, including me, think Kanye is, at a bare minimum, kind of a jackass.

But while I've never released a Nazi anthem and merch, I absolutely believe that could have been the bipolar talking. I don't believe he is trying to 'blame bipolar' for behaviour and beliefs that were really his own.

I call bipolar 'the dickhead disease' because hypomania is overconfidence on steroids and mania is that plus very energetic obsession.

Mania is a psychotic state. You lose touch with reality, but you also lose touch with yourself — you have no insight into what's happening and your lifelong values seem meaningless.

So I appreciate people saying with the best of intentions that bipolar doesn't make you a Nazi — but when Kanye says it did in his case, I believe him.

I had developed a hunch that Wegovy was affecting the uptake of my #BP2 medication. In most people it causes constipation but in me, very much the opposite. So I increased my dose of Abilify a notch last night and hey presto I feel a LOT calmer this morning.

What a weird life I lead, like a little biochemical cyborg, locked in a set of feedback loops with my medication. Medication goes up, mood comes down. Mood comes down too much, medication comes down a little too. Repeat.

But I am grateful I am living in these times as earlier treatments for bipolar 1 were horrendous and they didn't even recognise that #BP2 existed yet.

I was quite worried yesterday that I was seeing the early warning signs of hypomania.

Then I went to take my meds last night and remembered that I ran out of the really key one a night ago.

That'll do it...

And it is giving me a ferocious headache now 😖 I am waiting out the 2h until my chemist opens and I can fix it!

#bp2

Hot damn it's warm out there.

I have had a productive morning though!

Brekkie at the café, dentist for a clean, haircut, fresh groceries, sunny walk home.

Chilling out for a bit then I want to make some tadka dal and recipe test the grilled cos salad I'm making for dinner with a friend.

The GLP-1 inhibitor has definitely given me some energy and emotion back. I have to keep a close eye on this as energy and emotion can signal the onset of hypomania in #bp2. But in the short term it's nice to feel things intensely once more!

When my friends talked about the hyperemesis they experienced upon starting Wegovy, I had a hunch from the timings they described that it might be due to food sitting in place for too long.

I got the chance to put that to the test when I started taking it recently myself.

Although this is n=1 anecdote, taking a product containing hyoscine / atropine / hyoscamine — anti-emetics which encourage the stomach to relax and empty its contents — does seem to reduce nausea/vomiting.

This is a useful one to know because the other anti-emetics (stemetil and Zofran) are both brain meds and people like me can't take them without fear of triggering an episode of #bp2-related hypo/mania.