wrote HOMO DOPAMINUS because someone had to.

Not to scare you. Not to sell you a detox program.

But to hand you the map of the prison
so you can find your own exit.

If this thread made you think — the book will rewire how you see everything.

More books: https://xandergrimm.com

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Xander Grimm — Psicología · Neurociencia · IA · Biohacking

Autor de THERIAN. Neurociencia cognitiva e identidad en la frontera de lo humano.

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Istu tylsistymisen läpi. Istu ja pala

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Take a moment and wash your face. You'll not only be clean, but it can refresh you and give you a little break.

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Digital Minimalism Reading List

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Digital Minimalism Reading List - sh.itjust.works

# Must Reads 1. Digital Minimalism: Choosing a Focused Life in a Noisy World, Cal Newport, 2019 2. Ten Arguments For Deleting Your Social Media Accounts Right Now, Jaron Lanier, 2018 3. Alone Together: Why We Expect More from Technology and Less from Each Other, Sherry Turkle, 2017 4. Glow Kids: How Screen Addiction Is Hijacking Our Kids - and How to Break the Trance, Nicholas Kardaras, 2016 5. How to Do Nothing: Resisting the Attention Economy, Jenny Odell, 2019 6. How to Break Up with Your Phone: The 30-Day Plan to Take Back Your Life, Catherine Price, 2018 7. The Shallows: What the Internet Is Doing to Our Brains, Nicholas G. Carr, 2010 8. Notes on a Nervous Planet, Matt Haig, 2018 9. Your Brain on Porn: Internet Pornography and the Emerging Science of Addiction, Gary Wilson, 2014 10. Indistractable: How to Control Your Attention and Choose Your Life, Nir Eyal, 2019 11. Irresistible: The Rise of Addictive Technology and the Business of Keeping Us Hooked, Adam Alter, 2017 12. The Age of Surveillance Capitalism: The Fight for a Human Future at the New Frontier of Power, Shoshana Zuboff, 2019 13. The Coddling of the American Mind, Jonathan Haidt and Greg Lukianoff, 2018 14. Weapons of Math Destruction: How Big Data Increases Inequality and Threatens Democracy, Cathy O’Neil, 2016 15. Dopamine Nation: Finding Balance in the Age of Indulgence, Anna Lembke, 2021 16. You Should Quit Reddit, Jacob Desforges, 2023 # By Subject ## Social Media 1. Breaking the Social Media Prism: How to Make Our Platforms Less Polarizing, Chris Bail, 2021 2. Rage Inside the Machine: The Prejudice of Algorithms, and How to Stop the Internet Making Bigots of Us All, Robert Elliott Smith, 2019 3. Ten Arguments For Deleting Your Social Media Accounts Right Now, Jaron Lanier, 2018 4. Terms of Service: Social Media and the Price of Constant Connection, Jacob Silverman, 2015 5. The Digital Divide: Arguments for and Against Facebook, Google, Texting, and the Age of Social Networking, Mark Bauerlein, 2011 6. The Hype Machine: How Social Media Disrupts Our Elections, Our Economy, and Our Health–and How We Must Adapt, Sinan Aral, 2020 7. The Psychology of Social Media, Ciaran McMahon, 2019 8. Tweets and the Streets: Social Media and Contemporary Activism, Paolo Gerbaudo, 2012 9. You Should Quit Reddit, Jacob Desforges, 2023 ## Technology and Society 1. A World Without Email: Reimagining Work in an Age of Communication Overload, Cal Newport, 2021 2. Alone Together: Why We Expect More from Technology and Less from Each Other, Sherry Turkle, 2017 3. Attention Factory: The Story of TikTok and China’s ByteDance, Matthew Brennan, 2020 4. Breaking the Social Media Prism: How to Make Our Platforms Less Polarizing, Chris Bail, 2021 5. Hate Inc.: Why Today’s Media Makes Us Despise One Another, Matt Taibbi, 2019 6. Irresistible: The Rise of Addictive Technology and the Business of Keeping Us Hooked, Adam Alter, 2017 7. New Dark Age: Technology and the End of the Future, James Bridle, 2018 8. Rage Inside the Machine: The Prejudice of Algorithms, and How to Stop the Internet Making Bigots of Us All, Robert Elliott Smith, 2019 9. Stand Out of Our Light: Freedom and Resistance in the Attention Economy, James WIlliams, 2018 10. Team Human, Douglas Rushkoff, 2019 11. The Age of Surveillance Capitalism: The Fight for a Human Future at the New Frontier of Power, Shoshana Zuboff, 2019 12. The Digital Divide: Arguments for and Against Facebook, Google, Texting, and the Age of Social Networking, Mark Bauerlein, 2011 13. The Hacking of the American Mind: The Science Behind the Corporate Takeover of Our Bodies and Brains, Robert H. Lustig, 2017 14. The Hype Machine: How Social Media Disrupts Our Elections, Our Economy, and Our Health–and How We Must Adapt, Sinan Aral, 2020 15. Weapons of Math Destruction: How Big Data Increases Inequality and Threatens Democracy, Cathy O’Neil, 2016 16. The Glass Cage: How Our Computers Are Changing Us, Nicholas Carr, 2015 ## Children, Parenting, and Families 1. Glow Kids: How Screen Addiction Is Hijacking Our Kids - and How to Break the Trance, Nicholas Kardaras, 2016 2. It’s Complicated: The Social Lives of Networked Teens, danah boyd, 2014 3. Media Moms & Digital Dads: A Fact-Not-Fear Approach to Parenting in the Digital Age, Yalda T Uhls, 2015 4. Parenting for a Digital Future: How Hopes and Fears about Technology Shape Children’s Lives, Sonia Livingstone and Alicia Blum-Ross, 2020 5. Parenting in a Tech World: A handbook for raising kids in the digital age, Matt McKee and Titania Jordan, 2020 6. Power Down & Parent Up!: Cyber Bullying, Screen Dependence & Raising Tech-Healthy Children, Holli Kenley, 2017 7. Screen Kids: 5 Relational Skills Every Child Needs in a Tech-Driven World, Gary Chapman and Arlene Pellicane, 2020 8. Screen Time: How Electronic Media-From Baby Videos to Educational Software-Affects Your Young Child, Lisa Guernsey, 2012 9. Talking Back to Facebook: The Common Sense Guide to Raising Kids in the Digital Age, James P. Steyer, 2012 10. Tap, Click, Read: Growing Readers in a World of Screens, Lisa Guernsey and Michael H. Levine, 2015 11. Tech Savvy Parenting: Navigating Your Child’s Digital Life, Brian Housman, 2014 12. The App Generation: How Today’s Youth Navigate Identity, Intimacy, and Imagination in a Digital World, Howard Gardner and Katie Davis, 2013 13. The Art of Screen Time: How Your Family Can Balance Digital Media and Real Life, Anya Kamenetz, 2018 14. The Big Disconnect: Protecting Childhood and Family Relationships in the Digital Age, Catherine Steiner-Adair with Teresa H. Barker, 2014 15. The Coddling of the American Mind, Jonathan Haidt and Greg Lukianoff, 2018 16. The Other Parent: The Inside Story of the Media’s Effect on Our Children, James P. Steyer, 2003 17. The Simple Parenting Guide to Technology: Practical Advice on Smartphones, Gaming and Social Media in Just 40 Pages, Joshua Wayne, 2020 18. The Tech Diet for your Child & Teen: The 7-Step Plan to Unplug & Reclaim Your Kid’s Childhood (And Your Family’s Sanity), Brad Marshall, 2019 19. The Tech-Wise Family: Everyday Steps for Putting Technology in Its Proper Place, Andy Crouch, 2017 20. Why Can’t I Have a Cell Phone?: Anderson the Aardvark Gets His First Cell Phone (Teaches Kids Responsibility, Morality, Internet Addiction and Social Media Parental Monitoring), Teddy Behr, 2019 21. iGen, Jean Twenge, 2017 22. Reset Your Child’s Brain: A Four-Week Plan to End Meltdowns, Raise Grades, and Boost Social Skills by Reversing the Effects of Electronic Screen-Time, Victoria L. Dunckley, 2015 ## Gaming 1. Hooked on Games: The Lure and Cost of Video Game and Internet Addiction, Andrew P. Doan and Brooke Strickland, 2012 2. Internet Addiction: The Ultimate Guide for How to Overcome An Internet Addiction For Life (Gaming Addiction, Video Game, TV, RPG, Role-Playing, Treatment, Computer), Caesar Lincoln, 2014 3. Cyber Junkie: Escape the Gaming and Internet Trap, Kevin Roberts, 2010 ## Pornography 1. Your Brain on Porn: Internet Pornography and the Emerging Science of Addiction, Gary Wilson, 2014 2. Life After Lust: Stories & Strategies for Sex & Pornography Addiction Recovery, Forest Benedict, 2017 3. Love You, Hate the Porn: Healing a Relationship Damaged by Virtual Infidelity, Mark Chamberlain and Geoff Steurer, 2011 4. Porn Addict’s Wife: Surviving Betrayal and Taking Back Your Life, Sandy Brown, 2017 5. Pornland: How Porn Has Hijacked Our Sexuality, Gail Dines, 2011 6. The Porn Myth: Exposing the Reality Behind the Fantasy of Pornography, Matt Fradd, 2017 7. The Porn Trap: The Essential Guide to Overcoming Problems Caused by Pornography, Wendy Maltz and Larry Maltz, 2009 8. The Easy Peasy Way to Quit Porn, Hackauthor^(2), 2020 9. How to Thrive in the 21st Century - By Avoiding Porn and Other Distractions, Havard Mela, 2020 ## Classics 1. Amusing Ourselves to Death, Neil Postman, 1985 2. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley, 1932 3. The Medium is the Massage, Marshall McLuhan and Quentin Fiore, 1967 4. Technopoly: The Surrender of Culture to Technology, Neil Postman, 1992 5. The Disappearance of Childhood, Neil Postman, 1994 ## Fiction 1. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley, 1932 2. The Circle, Dave Eggers, 2015 3. All Rights Reserved, Gregory Scott Katsoulis, 2017 4. Access Restricted, Gregory Scott Katsoulis, 2018 5. An Absolutely Remarkable Thing, Hank Green, 2018 6. A Beautifully Foolish Endeavor, Hank Green, 2020 ## Critiques, Counterpoints, and Optimism 1. It’s Complicated: The Social Lives of Networked Teens, danah boyd, 2014 2. Screen Time: How Electronic Media-From Baby Videos to Educational Software-Affects Your Young Child, Lisa Guernsey, 2012 3. Tap, Click, Read: Growing Readers in a World of Screens, Lisa Guernsey and Michael H. Levine, 2015 # Full List 1. 24/6: The Power of Unplugging One Day a Week, Tiffany Shlain, 2019 2. A Beautifully Foolish Endeavor, Hank Green, 2020 3. A Deadly Wandering: A Tale of Tragedy and Redemption in the Age of Attention, Matt Richtel, 2014 4. A World Without Email: Reimagining Work in an Age of Communication Overload, Cal Newport, 2021 5. Access Restricted, Gregory Scott Katsoulis, 2018 6. All Rights Reserved, Gregory Scott Katsoulis, 2017 7. Alone Together: Why We Expect More from Technology and Less from Each Other, Sherry Turkle, 2017 8. Amusing Ourselves to Death, Neil Postman, 1985 9. An Absolutely Remarkable Thing, Hank Green, 2018 10. Atomic Habits: An Easy & Proven Way to Build Good Habits & Break Bad Ones, James Clear, 2018 11. Attention Factory: The Story of TikTok and China’s ByteDance, Matthew Brennan, 2020 12. Bored and Brilliant: How Time Spent Doing Nothing Changes Everything, Manoush Zomorodi, 2017 13. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley, 1932 14. Breaking the Social Media Prism: How to Make Our Platforms Less Polarizing, Chris Bail, 2021 15. Chaos Monkeys: Obscene Fortune and Random Failure in Silicon Valley, Antonio Garcia Martinez, 2018 16. Cyber Junkie: Escape the Gaming and Internet Trap, Kevin Roberts, 2010 17. Deep Work: Rules for Focused Success in a Distracted World, Cal Newport, 2016 18. Digital Detox: The Ultimate Guide To Beating Technology Addiction, Cultivating Mindfulness, and Enjoying More Creativity, Inspiration, And Balance In Your Life!, Damon Zahariades, 2018 19. Digital Minimalism: Choosing a Focused Life in a Noisy World, Cal Newport, 2019 20. Digital Nomads: In Search of Freedom, Community, and Meaningful Work in the New Economy, Rachel A. Woldoff and Robert C. Litchfield, 2021 21. Don’t Be Evil: How Big Tech Betrayed Its Founding Principles, Rana Foroohar, 2019 22. Dopamine Nation: Finding Balance in the Age of Indulgence, Anna Lembke, 2021 23. The Easy Peasy Way to Quit Porn, Hackauthor^(2), 2020 24. Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management for Mortals, Oliver Burkeman, 2021 25. Glow Kids: How Screen Addiction Is Hijacking Our Kids - and How to Break the Trance, Nicholas Kardaras, 2016 26. Hate Inc.: Why Today’s Media Makes Us Despise One Another, Matt Taibbi, 2019 27. Hooked on Games: The Lure and Cost of Video Game and Internet Addiction, Andrew P. Doan and Brooke Strickland, 2012 28. Hooked: How to Build Habit-Forming Products, Nir Eyal, 2014 29. How to Break Up with Your Phone: The 30-Day Plan to Take Back Your Life, Catherine Price, 2018 30. How to Do Nothing: Resisting the Attention Economy, Jenny Odell, 2019 31. How to Live With the Internet and Not Let It Run Your Life, Gabrielle Alexa Noel, 2021 32. How to Thrive in the 21st Century - By Avoiding Porn and Other Distractions, Havard Mela, 2020 33. Hyperfocus: How to Be More Productive in a World of Distraction, Chris Bailey, 2018 34. iGen, Jean Twenge, 2017 35. In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts: Close Encounters with Addiction, Gabor Maté, 2010 36. In the Shadows of the Net: Breaking Free of Compulsive Online Sexual Behavior, Patrick J Carnes and David L. Delmonico and Elizabeth Griffin, 2007 37. Indistractable: How to Control Your Attention and Choose Your Life, Nir Eyal, 2019 38. Internet Addiction: The Ultimate Guide for How to Overcome An Internet Addiction For Life (Gaming Addiction, Video Game, TV, RPG, Role-Playing, Treatment, Computer), Caesar Lincoln, 2014 39. Irresistible: The Rise of Addictive Technology and the Business of Keeping Us Hooked, Adam Alter, 2017 40. It’s Complicated: The Social Lives of Networked Teens, danah boyd, 2014 41. Life After Lust: Stories & Strategies for Sex & Pornography Addiction Recovery, Forest Benedict, 2017 42. Love You, Hate the Porn: Healing a Relationship Damaged by Virtual Infidelity, Mark Chamberlain and Geoff Steurer, 2011 43. Media Moms & Digital Dads: A Fact-Not-Fear Approach to Parenting in the Digital Age, Yalda T Uhls, 2015 44. New Dark Age: Technology and the End of the Future, James Bridle, 2018 45. Notes on a Nervous Planet, Matt Haig, 2018 46. Offline: Free Your Mind from Smartphone and Social Media Stress, Imran Rashid and Soren Kenner, 2018 47. Parenting for a Digital Future: How Hopes and Fears about Technology Shape Children’s Lives, Sonia Livingstone and Alicia Blum-Ross, 2020 48. Parenting in a Tech World: A handbook for raising kids in the digital age, Matt McKee and Titania Jordan, 2020 49. Porn Addict’s Wife: Surviving Betrayal and Taking Back Your Life, Sandy Brown, 2017 50. Pornland: How Porn Has Hijacked Our Sexuality, Gail Dines, 2011 51. Power Down & Parent Up!: Cyber Bullying, Screen Dependence & Raising Tech-Healthy Children, Holli Kenley, 2017 52. Rage Inside the Machine: The Prejudice of Algorithms, and How to Stop the Internet Making Bigots of Us All, Robert Elliott Smith, 2019 53. Raising Humans in a Digital World: Helping Kids Build a Healthy Relationship with Technology, Diana Graber, 2019 54. Reclaiming Conversation: The Power of Talk in a Digital Age, Sherry Turkle, 2015 55. Reset Your Child’s Brain: A Four-Week Plan to End Meltdowns, Raise Grades, and Boost Social Skills by Reversing the Effects of Electronic Screen-Time, Victoria L. Dunckley, 2015 56. Screen Kids: 5 Relational Skills Every Child Needs in a Tech-Driven World, Gary Chapman and Arlene Pellicane, 2020 57. Screen Schooled: Two Veteran Teachers Expose How Technology Overuse Is Making Our Kids Dumber, Joe Clement and Matt Miles, 2017 58. Screen Time: How Electronic Media-From Baby Videos to Educational Software-Affects Your Young Child, Lisa Guernsey, 2012 59. Stand Out of Our Light: Freedom and Resistance in the Attention Economy, James WIlliams, 2018 60. Stolen Focus: Why You Can’t Pay Attention, Johann Hari, 2022 61. Talking Back to Facebook: The Common Sense Guide to Raising Kids in the Digital Age, James P. Steyer, 2012 62. Tap, Click, Read: Growing Readers in a World of Screens, Lisa Guernsey and Michael H. Levine, 2015 63. Team Human, Douglas Rushkoff, 2019 64. Tech Savvy Parenting: Navigating Your Child’s Digital Life, Brian Housman, 2014 65. Technopoly: The Surrender of Culture to Technology, Neil Postman, 1992 66. Ten Arguments For Deleting Your Social Media Accounts Right Now, Jaron Lanier, 2018 67. Terms of Service: Social Media and the Price of Constant Connection, Jacob Silverman, 2015 68. The Age of Surveillance Capitalism: The Fight for a Human Future at the New Frontier of Power, Shoshana Zuboff, 2019 69. The App Generation: How Today’s Youth Navigate Identity, Intimacy, and Imagination in a Digital World, Howard Gardner and Katie Davis, 2013 70. The Art of Screen Time: How Your Family Can Balance Digital Media and Real Life, Anya Kamenetz, 2018 71. The Big Disconnect: Protecting Childhood and Family Relationships in the Digital Age, Catherine Steiner-Adair with Teresa H. Barker, 2014 72. The Circle, Dave Eggers, 2015 73. The Coddling of the American Mind, Jonathan Haidt and Greg Lukianoff, 2018 74. The Digital Divide: Arguments for and Against Facebook, Google, Texting, and the Age of Social Networking, Mark Bauerlein, 2011 75. The Disappearance of Childhood, Neil Postman, 1994 76. The Dumbest Generation: How the Digital Age Stupefies Young Americans and Jeopardizes Our Future (Or, Don’t Trust Anyone Under 30), Mark Bauerlein, 2008 77. The Glass Cage: How Our Computers Are Changing Us, Nicholas Carr, 2015 78. The Hacking of the American Mind: The Science Behind the Corporate Takeover of Our Bodies and Brains, Robert H. Lustig, 2017 79. The Hype Machine: How Social Media Disrupts Our Elections, Our Economy, and Our Health–and How We Must Adapt, Sinan Aral, 2020 80. The Joy of Missing Out: Finding Balance In A Wired World, Christina Crook, 2014 81. The Medium is the Massage, Marshall McLuhan and Quentin Fiore, 1967 82. The Other Parent: The Inside Story of the Media’s Effect on Our Children, James P. Steyer, 2003 83. The Porn Myth: Exposing the Reality Behind the Fantasy of Pornography, Matt Fradd, 2017 84. The Porn Trap: The Essential Guide to Overcoming Problems Caused by Pornography, Wendy Maltz and Larry Maltz, 2009 85. The Power of Habit: Why We Do What We Do in Life and Business, Charles Duhigg, 2014 86. The Psychology of Social Media, Ciaran McMahon, 2019 87. The Shallows: What the Internet Is Doing to Our Brains, Nicholas G. Carr, 2010 88. The Simple Parenting Guide to Technology: Practical Advice on Smartphones, Gaming and Social Media in Just 40 Pages, Joshua Wayne, 2020 89. The Tech Diet for your Child & Teen: The 7-Step Plan to Unplug & Reclaim Your Kid’s Childhood (And Your Family’s Sanity), Brad Marshall, 2019 90. The Tech-Wise Family: Everyday Steps for Putting Technology in Its Proper Place, Andy Crouch, 2017 91. The Trap: Sex, Social Media, and Surveillance Capitalism, Jewels Jade, 2021 92. Trapped In The Web: How I Liberated Myself From Internet Addiction, And How You Can Too, A. N. Turner and Ben Beard and Kris Kozak, 2018 93. Trick Mirror: Reflections on Self-Delusion, Jia Tolentino, 2019 94. Trust Me, I’m Lying: Confessions of a Media Manipulator, Ryan Holiday, 2013 95. Tweets and the Streets: Social Media and Contemporary Activism, Paolo Gerbaudo, 2012 96. Utopia Is Creepy: And Other Provocations, Nicholas Carr, 2016 97. Weapons of Math Destruction: How Big Data Increases Inequality and Threatens Democracy, Cathy O’Neil, 2016 98. Who Owns the Future?, Jaron Lanier, 2013 99. Why Can’t I Have a Cell Phone?: Anderson the Aardvark Gets His First Cell Phone (Teaches Kids Responsibility, Morality, Internet Addiction and Social Media Parental Monitoring), Teddy Behr, 2019 100. You Should Quit Reddit, Jacob Desforges, 2023 101. Your Brain on Porn: Internet Pornography and the Emerging Science of Addiction, Gary Wilson, 2014 Big thanks to all the contributors: Natalie Sharpe, David Marshall, Rick Dempsey, RonnieVae, Westofer Raymond, Sarah Devan, Zak Zelkova.

Hello NoSurfers!
If you’re an iPhone user and have wondered if you can do a bit more NoSurfing with this, rather than a traditional dumbphone, I invite you to take a look at a short guidebook I wrote recently. It explains how you can create various degrees of a dumbphone with just your iPhone. Read it here: https://books.apple.com/gb/book/a-dumb-iphone/id6478497912 #nosurf #ios #iphone #wwdc24
‎A Dumb iPhone?

‎Health & Well-Being · 2024

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I have been playing around with the concept of making my computing usage more intentional. So I turned my Smartphone into a #hackerphone https://knightwise.com/hackerphone/ #intentionalcomputing #nosurf
HackerPhone! - Knightwise.com

In my last blogpost I had been pondering the idea of a « Lightphone » where I was specifically looking for a phone that would allow me to consume podcasts,

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I've been playing in my head with the idea of a "retarded phone". Not as addictive as a smartphone, not as basic as a dumbphone. But something with the ability to connect to modern day cloud services without getting sucked into endless social media scrolling. #nosurf #digitalminimalism. So far I've been looking at the Unihertz Jelly or the #Unihertz Titan or Titan Pocket. What device would YOU suggest ? #askthefediverse #nosurf #digitalminimalism

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I was born in the eighties. How can I not go a day without rotting my brain on mindless internet drivel? I did it for like two decades. (note: Bo Burnham not included in mindless drivel) #BoBurnham #NoSurf

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I'm setting out on my third major attempt to curb this by doctoring up my smart phone. Previous attempts were rebuilding an iPod to stop using my phone as a media device, buying a watch, ditching a laptop for a desktop, degoogling, converting to lineageOS, and committing to only using free and opensource apps, unpluq (kept plugging that stupid dongle into my phone so often I fucked up my port) simple launchers, and even a god damn fidget spinner. (That's a lot of time, money, and effort spent on something that's not that big of a deal./s) I'm currently using slimlauncher and have my phone on greyscale, and while I am doing okay, I'm a few days in... But I know I'm going to slip up, and keep chipping away at my resolve that keeps me from just undoing the counter measures I've set up. I built this cage and I sure as hell am gonna dismantle it.

I know the obvious solution is to have someone put parental controls on my device, it's sensible and keeps me from needing to buy a dumb phone... But oh my god, the absolute shame of telling someone in your life that you literally can't trust yourself to stop scrolling... It's humiliating. Plus losing agency over something I own rankles me.

Buying a hardware solution is attractive because it feels like agency. When people ask me why I want to find a smart phone alternative I keep comparing it to trying to quite smoking while still carrying a pack of cigarettes in your pocket. The temptation is CONSTANT. and DRAINING. This habit is actively derailing my life and impeding my growth, and I feel like I can't be taken seriously copping to it. I know it isn't the suffering olympics, but saying you can't stop using the internet as compared to saying you need help coping with substance abuse is like... "Just magically develop enough will power and discipline to just not do the thing you've done your whole life. This guy has a chemical dependency, what the hell is your excuse?" And I know this is real, and hard, and the psychology of it, but now suddenly I need to convince someone that I'm just as worse off as an alcoholic.

The irony of this is that I just got high as hell for the first time in months and only just realized how BIG of a deal this is for me. That this is going to be real work, and it isn't going to get easier any time soon. And with collapse brain, doing anything for my future benefit just feels like robbing Peter to pay Paul, and my ADHD brain means I'm already attempting this with a low amount of executive function.

... I know community is an important part of the fight for a lot of folks, and I guess that's the only reason I'm writing this up. I'm sure this isn't a new realization among folks dealing with this, but I needed to put this here more just to bookmark this moment for me... that what I'm feeling right now isn't a fleeting thought, it's a REALITY, my taking it seriously is an IMPERATIVE, and action is NECESSARY. I don't even care if this is coming off cheesy, if you are vibing with this great, but this is here for me. YOUR HIGH ASS WANTED TO TYPE THIS OUT AT 12:44 AT NIGHT BECAUSE THIS SHIT IS IMPORTANT AND YOU NEED TO GET YOUR LIFE ON TRACK!

And if I'm going to do this I am going to need some accountability, so I'm going online to ask a bunch of other people online who don't want to be online to help me stay offline online.

I have stuff I want to learn, a life I want to live... I'd appreciate you being in my corner.

God I'm not used to being this earnest, it makes my skin crawl.

#NoSurf #InternetAddiction #technologicalEmancipation #techEmancipation #AlgorithmEmancipation