After another sleepless night the old man drags his lifeless body from a sunken bed of jagged shards of steel, his body stiff and in pain, as the classical music plays he shuffles off to make his coffee, his hands tremble as he pours the water and counts the scoops of grinds, after struggling to plug the percolator in the coffee begins to perc, stumbling off to the toilet his bowels bellow out in hunger, in the mirror a man with no existence stands with disheveled hair and beard, to weak to care he shuffles back to his bed, he fights to put on his socks pants and shoes, he pours a cup of coffee as his hands shake, carefully he packs his pipe with tobacco scraps, he pulls on his coat and opens the door, the air is cold and crisp, the sun is barely there, as the world begins to wake not a single person cares for this old man's despair;

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Not all solutions solve all problems, what may fit 99% of the time, often over looks the 1%, most of the time that 1% is greater than the other 99%, yet because the numbers seem opposite, the solutions pushed are the solutions for 99%, leaving the 1% with no solution at all, sometimes that 1% really is N of 1 in every way conceivable, making solutions for 99% not only useless but often insulting and degrading;

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Rumbles in the distance echo through the aching bones, nausea all day has zapped the hint of energy away, a body in constant pain and exhaustion that never goes away, as my mind melts into chaos while my executive cognitive function steadily slips away, to say I am in a perpetual state of decay, may underscore the storms as they roll away, with every lighting flash my vision fades even more, the constant rumbling of noise in and out the door, spinning in the winds of time simply lost am I, for if the darkness lifts within this voids abyss, a rotting corpse you'll never miss;

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Today is a bad day.

I went in to get med refills, but I couldn't afford them because the fucking free doctor prescribed them wrong. So I haven't had my meds for a week. Went to get the correct ones today, and they were $40.

Awesome. So I had to do a walk in I didn't mean to do. Got the meds prescribed for the third fucking time, and I was so stressed out I left without ever picking them up.

Went back to pick up my meds, was going to celebrate with a vape. Vape mod is missing. I look for it everywhere. It's gone. I lost it somewhere in all the stress of trying to save $40.

This is the poverty tax. To save $40, I lost $80. It is the snake that eats itself.

Also I have a second job interview next week. Unfortunately I also have agoraphobia, and my vape was my safety signal.

I'm freaking out and I need to replace it now. I will do anything to replace it. But to prevent myself from engaging in desperate, self-destructive acts, I'm going to have to require myself to do nothing.

I'm so fucked. I was getting $100 from a friend soon and none of it matters because I can never get ahead and begging for scraps kills my fucking soul.

So I'm begging. Because a soul can't live without a body, and I've been a body without a soul long enough.

No GFM. This is an emergency. If I have to wait, I might as well go inpatient and fuck both job interviews.

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P.S. Oh and next week I'll need new Adderall. So this is all hell. I get $20, it's gone. Beg for more. If you have anything, please spare me more hell. I am so close, but I'm so tired too. I can't take much more of this. At this point I feel like I'd lose less self esteem finding people to fuck me for money on Craigslist.

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The tussle of morning fatigue has left me feeling drained of energy, with a rumble of hunger in my stomach, I struggled to chop a potato and some onion to fry, the standing and flipping until golden brown, the cracking of the pepper too, my body in pain as my heart beats out of time, the labored breaths sparse as basic needs continue to appear, every step a work of feat, the darkness looms as my vision zooms, random noise disrupts the flow, scrolling through the news so bleak, for another day in this hellish world of mine;

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After a long stressful sleepless night the old man drags his lifeless body out of a bed of agonizing sunken jagged shards of thorns and glass, as the classical music plays he shuffles off to prepare the coffee, as his hands are shaking he pours in the water and counts the scoops of grind, he struggles to plug in the percolator, as it begins to perc he stumbles off to the toilet, his bowels roar out in the horror of hunger, in the mirror stands a face unknown to be, his hair and beard greasy and disheveled as can be, assuming it has been sometime, he shuffles into the shower, his body weak and tired and without a breath in his chest yet, he brushes his teeth, he struggles as he washes his hair and beard, the soap falls out of his weakened hands as he begins to wash, reaching his feet is no where as easy as it use to be, as the hot water pours over him, exhaustion and pain remind him he is alive, he shuts off the water and dries his body, the arduous task to brush out his hair and beard become a taxing feat of endurance, stumbling back to his bed, he struggles to pull on his clean unionsuit, his socks and pants, his shoes try to dance as his feet attempt to wiggle into them, he pours a cup of coffee, pulls on his coat, he packs his pipe with scraps of tobacco, he stumbles outside, the air damp and cool as clouds loom over the morning sun, as the world begins to move, not one cares for this old mans plight, as he brings the coffee to his lips his hands slip, half a cup gone down his shirt, what a sad start to another agonizing day;

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Floating endlessly in a void of darkness, where the only thing that exists is pain, your body experiences throbbing, aching, burning, stabbing, freezing endless pain, there is no light no warmth no cold no air no sound no top no sides no bottom, a void in which all is absorbed, you can not hear yourself scream, you can not feel your own breath, you can see nothing at all, the darkness of this void consumes every sense, leaving you with pain, a constant reminder your alive in this endless void of darkness, a constant reminder there is no escape, for if the pain was to end, would you even exist or would you too be absorbed into the great abyss;

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Your Prompt And Compassionate Attention To This Matter, Will Be Greatly Appreciated.

I WISH YOU COULD UNDERSTAND MY URGENCY AND MY DESPERATION FOR
HELP, I NEED IT, I AM NOT BEGGING BECAUSE I ENJOY IT, I AM BEGGING FOR HELP BECAUSE I NEED IT TO LIVE!

The erroneous perpetuation of flaccid assumptions that those living with disabilities and in poverty either don't need external support or are un-worthy of any support, is a gross negligence of humanity.

Between my failing health and aging body, the basics of life become an unclaimable mountain which often keeps me drowning in the well of despair, your help would be most graciously received,

A Great Deal Of #MutualAid Is Needed, Please consider supporting this #disabled man living in #poverty, Another month is here which means now I really need to raise $1500, so I can take care of myself, Lack of sleep, body in constant pain, persistent hunger, disability and living in poverty, all these make life very much a difficult one, I am and have been desperately trying to raise money to not only live each day, but overcome some of the short comings that poverty and disability cause, I truly could use some compassionate people to come into my life and offer monthly support,

I don't feel well, I am in pain, I am exhausted, I am hungry, I don't feel well and I can not do anything about any of it and I just want to scream but that will cause my head to hurt 😥

CAN YOU UNDERSTAND DESPERATION AND URGENCY OF NEED?
I AM BEGGING FOR HELP!
When you are Disabled and Live in Poverty, No One Cares if you are Hypoglycemic, No cares if you suffer in constant pain and with vertigo, anxiety, in fact people dont care at all about you, they dont care you cant afford to clean yourself, they dont care you cant afford to feed yourself, they simply dont care about you at all, and you are left begging for help that never actually comes at all, I AM STARVING FOR A BETTER LIFE, BUT I CAN'T EVEN AFFORD THE BASICS OF THIS ONE LIVING IN POVERTY,

I AM BEGGING FOR HELP! I Am Both In A State Of Disrepair and Despair, it sure would be nice to be able to order some fresh fruits, some stuff for salads, and sandwiches, some cleaning supplies and enjoy some healthy food and a tidy home today, It would be really nice to be able to get the things I need right now, People I Am Begging For Help And Support, PLEASE HELP ME.

People really can not comprehend what life for me is like, for all the similarities between many of us, we all have a truly unique experience, Some of us live in full out hell, from the very first breath we take, our lives are not just trying to climb an un-climbable mountain, but having to do so under constant fire, the world it's self is a dark desolate wasteland that is incredibly unforgiving to life it's self, and when you introduce society that is indifferent to your personal trials, issues and barriers, life it's self becomes an overwhelming war that your faced to fight not just each day, but with every step and breath you take, become disabled and thrust into poverty, and you will soon find the majority of what is supposed to be a community of humanity simply does not exist, you fight to eat each day, you struggle to keep clean, if by chance you manage to keep a roof, your battle is even harder, because you simply can't manage the basics for the resources of day to day life many take for granted are not there, add constant pain, a failing and aging body, a mind that is so overwhelmed by time that often you struggle to see, far too long I have had to beg just to barely exist on any given day, for if only the world would hear what I have to say, and actually come together and help me raise my ultimate goal, within the hours of a single day, then not only could this broken man live, and care for himself, but very much within the realm of possibility I could create a life in where I could offer help and respite to those in need like me, but people you all see are far from loving and compassionate to me, no they rather I disappear deep within my despair, I am below the well of desperation, but I refuse to fight for my right and chance at life, and for those like me, I fight for you as well, within my last true ability in life I put into words the only fight I have, the only way to build beyond disparity, for those who wonder why you do not do more, this is all that is left within my soul to do, for if you cared you would pick my cross to bare and offer me some respite so I may still have more chance to fight;

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The interdimensional relationship between biology and consciousness, is as simple as picking up your foot and putting it back down, yet modern science would have you believe they really can not explain it, here is the reality, your consciousness existed before you had a body and will exist when your body expires, social construct of education leads you to think you need someone else in a structured environment to teach you, that is a lie, a human biological body that has consciousness, has all the knowledge of the universe at birth and retains it for ever, it is the noise from society that drowns out that wisdom, it is community that shapes what is acceptable to what knowledge you should utilize, strip away the boundaries of biological constructs, and we would exist in an eternal Garden Of Eden, no hunger, no poverty, no illness, no war, no jealousy, virtually everything that disrupts human life would cease to exist if we simply tuned out the manufactured noise and allow the universal knowledge to live;

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As the clouds cover the sky and the warm moist air gets sucked north, the idea winter is over almost makes sense expect it is January 8th, it should be cold, the weather is broken leaving the birds the bees even the squirrels in the trees confused by what they see, for if anyone was to tell you that the Earth was well, you simply must be living at the bottom of a well, as our planet spins it has always had its days, nature of weather simply has its own ways, cycles come cycles go, but to be able to lie out in the sun when winter is here, my dear something is very much wrong, for the world keeps going blind to the damage we cause, expecting this planet to self repair, nature can last so long when we strip it of its life, soon this rock will spin in endless night, and for all of us we will lose all life;

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