After a sleepless night of pain the exhausted old man drags his frozen breathless lifeless corpse from a sunken bed of jagged shards of rocky thorny steel, unable to yet see as the classical music plays he drags himself off to prepare his coffee, as his shaky hands tremble he pours in the water counts the scoops of grind and fumbles to plug in the percolator, as the coffee begins to perc he shuffles off to the toilet, his bowels bellow out in a hungerous rage, in the mirror a tired face stares off into the abyss reflecting that his hair and beard are as disheveled as his pitiful existence, slowly he stumbles back to his bed where he struggles to pull on his socks pants and shoes, he pours a cup of coffee and gently packs his pipe with scraps of tobacco, he pulls on his coat and shuffles out the door, the morning is cold and damp the sun is barely rising and as the world begins to wake not a soul takes care for the enduring hell of life the old man must face yet another day;

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"Das europäische Bezahlangebot Wero gewinnt an Bekanntheit, tut sich gegen nationale Platzhirsche oder US-Riesen wie Paypal aber noch schwer. Anhand einer YouGov-Umfrage in neun europäischen Ländern stellte das Beratungsunternehmen BearingPoint fest: Wero werde europaweit wahrgenommen." ...

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Heavy is the weight of existing in a world in where you simply do not belong, for when your mind is traversing parallels and dimensions that modern math can not even fathom, exhausting is an existence where poverty and disability dictate what and when you can eat what you can do, when you may even have the strength to be, tiresome is the existence in where basic language simply fails to explain the pain you exist within, redundant is the effort to communicate with others for they simply lack the mechanics and comprehension of your mind, your soul, your existence your very being, exhaustive is an existence where everything should be simple, yet the world conflates convolutes and abstains from rational logic, I am tired of humans, I am tired of being in constant pain, I am tired of not being able to afford the basic things people need to live, I am tired of being expected to portray myself as ok normal functioning giving a shit ect, I am exhausted and for this wretched existence there is no respite, there is no end, just a continuing loop I am forced to both bear and endure;

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Apparently I have been running my crons all wrong, made some adjustments, not sure if things actually will run smoother now or not, but somehow I forgot that * left in the minutes column meant my crons were running every minute of everyday, and the again 1 was running every 25 minutes 1 at every 15 minutes and 2 every hour, all along running concurrently every freaking minuet, well I moved my first one to every hour, my second one every 5 minutes and the last 2 to every 12 hours, im sure my host's server for my #friendica instance will be much happier, sometimes no matter how much knowledge you have and how many times you do something, when life becomes more than you can sometimes handle the simple things end up getting handled wrong, time will tell if the changes will improve anything, not likely to much as this is a single user instance and I really don't follow that much nor have that many followers, I kept seeing weird things go on in my terminal when I sshed in, and was wondering why I had so many php process constantly running for such an empty instance, come to find out when I set everything up, I was out of it, and every time I would check things, my mind was elsewhere so the big red flashing lights never got noticed, my brain is much like a computer and far to often I need a good defrag and reboot sadly my existence does not allow for it, but at least my I finally focused long enough to realize the dumb mistake I made;

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Humanity; When you assume that Humanity is made up of Humans that posses Compassion, Empathy, Love, Respect, Intelligence, Sentience and Consciousness, it is hard to comprehend the state of decay in this world, but if you strip those qualities/properties from Humans, you see that the decay is very much possible as they are really nothing more than barbaric animals with clothing; The fact Humans have learned how to wear different masks depending on need of the moment does not in fact imply that they actually posses any redeeming qualities nor ability to truly comprehend the concept of community, society, nor humanity, therefore it shall forever be known that Humans should be avoided by all costs, and in fact quarantine their entire star system, preventing their inferior dna from contaminating the rest of the galaxy and the universe at large, from this we the interstellar community shall consider humans a life form of ill repute and only acceptable for observation from no closer than 10 light years;

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Into the abyss as the void swallows your very existence, for no ground to hold no sky to see, no noise to hear no voice to speak, the no warmth nor cold to feel, the pain of eternal being is all that exists within this dark abyss, for the darkness is blinding the silence is deafening, the isolation becomes comforting, the desperation of need becomes a natural force upon your soul, for constant drag of a body in decay as the mind fades away, not penny nor pot to cover you from rain, hunger that grows like a nagging scream, welcome to the void of poverty that is shroud in disability;

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For within the realm of interdimensional interstellar fluidic space, exists a plane of reality so bizarre it breaks the constructs of what is real and what is imagined, for within this place or point or moment of time, whatever your consciousness can imagine appears in physical reality, your mind becomes a active creator, your hopes your dreams your fears your nightmares, all become real, to haunt your existence for if anything can be then what is not but chaos in a dream;

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After a night wrought with restless pain filled sleeplessness the old man drags his stiff breathless lifeless corpse out of a sunken bed of jagged shards of thorny rocky glass, as the classical music plays and unable to yet see he scrapes himself across the floor to prepare his coffee, as his hands shake and tremble he pours in the water and counts the scoops of grind, fumbling he manages to plug in the percolator as the coffee begins to perc he stumbles off to the toilet, his bowels bellow out in a hungerous rage, in the mirror a man blankly stares into the abyss his hair and beard greasy and disheveled he disrobes and enters the shower, the boiling water pours over his weary body as he brushes his teeth it offers no comfort, struggling to wash out his tangled hair and beard his arms grow tired, moving on to wash his body his hands fail to maintain grasp of the soap, the shower becomes a chore of will, finally achieving an acceptable level of clean he rinses off and shuts the water off, exhausted he dries himself and carefully exits the shower, now onto the arduous task of brushing out his hair and beard, then stumbling back to his bed where he struggles to pull on a clean undergarment his socks pants and shoes, he does a load of laundry and pours a cup of coffee then with great care he gently packs his pipe with scraps of tobacco, he pulls on his coat and slips out the door, the morning is chilly and damp as the sun begins to wake, as the world opens its eyes not a single soul cares for the hellish plight of life the old man must endure yet another day;

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Mit #Wero geht's wohl endlich voran.

Bye bye, #PayPal! Diese Alternative wird jetzt interessant https://www.inside-digital.de/news/macht-paypal-ueberfluessig-alternative-bank

Wero basiert auf dem EPI-Standard (European Payments Initiative) und läuft über die IBAN. #ING gehört zu den ersten deutschen Banken, die es integriert haben.

Die ING-DiBa AG in Deutschland ist übrigens ein 100%iges Tochterunternehmen der niederländischen ING Groep N.V. mit Sitz in Amsterdam.

#dit #dut #diday #dutgemacht #unplugbigtech #ingdiba #banking

For if anyone ever finds the means to comprehend my mind, I shall be expired for all of time; There is but a shimmer of a glimmer upon the surface of light that emits from within my soul; The keys to enter these walls beyond defense, are buried across the cosmos; Fainting whispers shout about the possibilities, but no voice dares to speak of what shall be; To stand and breath is but defeat, for it is better to immerse one's mind in realities no one can see; Across the dimensional plains lies a peace in silence, far to many fear the void to see; Humans lack the biological and physiological mechanisms to rationally comprehend my reality;

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