Each day feels like a week, each week feels like a month, each month feels like a year, a decade, a century, a millennia.

 
This is not ok.
I'm not fine.

#NotOk
#NotFine

#YouAreNotAlone
#Breathe
#SitTogether

I am bundled up in blankets on the balcony on a mild winter day, just to give my eyes something gentle to rest upon, and my skin to feel the breeze.

Grab some blankets (hot water bottle is excellent bonus) and join me. We can #sitTogether

I'm really struggling cognitively, so looking for #sitTogether suggestions.

I don't have brain for focused meditation and my auditory processing had made guided meditations frustrating instead of comforting.

What gentle ways are ya'll using to stay connected to spirit, to smooth out ragged soul edges when the rest of life is tossing you about?

Or share your own lil moments of peace, my mirror neurons still work great - vicarious inner peace ftw!
#meditation #soulCare #community

The foundation of my loving relationships is mutually asking questions about each other's experiences and interests.

#SitTogether #JoinIn @Autistics #ActuallyAutistic

CW: painful family stuff, uncertain sense of identity.

This day just got really hard. A close family member did something that really triggered a trauma response - I showed my sibling something that was extremely important to me that I've been working so hard on (years) and their emotional response was to utterly dismiss it - and I'm trying to sit with it and unpack it and I'm realizing that what I need to do today is take some alone time and cry.

This is hard because of the person I used to know them as, as someone who was so giving and open and curious and joyful at others joy. They were my role model - they were who I wanted to be and I see so little of that person now. The world has turned them into stone (and I see so little effort to resist that change).

Today I need to spend some time mourning what I have lost and also some time feeling grateful for what I do have and for the life I'm just starting to build. I'm one year in to a whole new life and there is so much room for me to grow and get better. This year I finally have some chosen family.

The pain will last but my sense of self is getting stronger and stronger, and having had very little sense of self my whole life, I'm starting to believe that feeling more and more stable in my identity is going to help give me some internal stability that I've been lacking my whole life. To give me the emotional resilience to be OK with losses of visions of the people I love, to be OK with finding a version of this person that I can be OK sharing parts of my life with and find a way to love in a different way, without needing their validation.

Hope that you have some moments of joy alongside whatever pain you may be feeling today <3. There is nothing wrong with taking time today to grieve - whatever the day needs to be for you: that's OK.

#JoinIn #SitTogether #ActuallyAutistic @Autistics #ADHD #AuDHD #Disability #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain