When Diane introduced me to one of her friends (Simon) we shook hands.

Simon: "Oh wow, you have such white hands." (oh wow, du hast so weisse Hände)

Me (looking at my palms and thinking): "Wow, what weird thing to say – I guess he must be drunk already."

Then, ten minutes later, she introduced me to another of her friends (Moritz). Again we shook hands.

Moritz: "Oh wow, you have such white hands." - and this time he turns to Diane: "Am I right? They are sooo white." - Diane turns to me and looks at me who, at this moment, must have become a huge question mark: "Yes, Moritz is right. Your hands are sooooo white."

Me (lookong at my palms again, looking at Moritz who is definitely not drunk, looking at Diane who looks really happy): "White? You think so?"

Diane: "Nicht weiss, sondern weich, soooo weich" (not white, soft, sooo soft)

Me: 🙄😂😂😂🥰

Edit: "weiss" and "weich" sound very similar, especially in a crowded environment like in a beer tent. And if the person saying it has drunk a few beers, they are nearly indistinguishable. Of course, my #FragMyBrain never assumed that my hands could be so soft that young people would be baffled by it.

I guess there is also some "cowardice" in play here.

Let's assume a lesbian woman hits on me in a lesbian bars and we hit off and it comes to sex at one point ... my brain shuts down here, because it starts things like "and then what? What are we gonna do? We have no idea how to have sex with a lesbian! What would she expect? And then, and then ... we have a penis! What do we do with that with a lesbian woman? Would she be interested in it? I mean, how to explain that to her in the first place? Panic! PANIC!! Run! RUN!!"

Yep, right, #FragMyBrain

https://tau-ceti.space/@ics/114785216629925621

That was on my way to #PeraMeze - I hadn't been here for so long that I really missed Flo's amazing dishes.

After that one message from #LoveOfMyLife , I feel as if I am hovering, not even walking, on clouds, on very pink clouds.

I wish I could express how amazing she is and how much she supports me, even if sometimes she makes me go nuts because... she does that only when she is hurting herself, and over the years I learned to just take her in my arms and hug her - even if it is difficult.

Anyway, that was another one of those weird (#FragMyBrain) tangents, tl;dr - I feel good

#Trans #Enby #TransJoy #EnbyJoy #Selfie

@SymTrkl It is more complicated than just pruning inactive follows. I have the weird belief that somewhere around 700-1000 follows is the right amount for my timeline to be (a) diverse enough and (b) still manageable that I don't ignore posts (too often). So, if there are dormant follows who are just using up space, I need to remove them to make space for new follows.

I know this is weird, but this is how my brain works.

Similarly, I want to interact with my followers. If there are those who just read but never post, I am not that much interested in them, after all, I usually don't accept follow requests if the account in question has no own posts and/or has only boosts. Curating followers for me also means that I regularly check if a follower I accepted is still the right person, still ok.

But hey, #FragMyBrain right?

I guess it is time to update the #introduction - again (2025-08-31)

Hi, I am Imdat Celeste Aurora, a trans femme genderfluid non-binary person.

You may call me Imdat Celeste, Celeste, or Celeste Aurora (I'll post separately about what each combination means).

If we know each other better, you can also call me "Yo lovely!", "Hiya beauty", "Hi cutie" and "Hello sexy" (or similar - you know what I mean). And if we know each other *really* well, you will know my secret name and what to use it for 😈.

My pronouns are they/she (English) and dey/es/sie (Deutsch). I prefer "they" and "dey", respectively, but am ok with the others as well.

Nice to meet you.

First and foremost I am a human being who loves every living being on this beautiful planet and is honored to spend time with some of them.

Professionally, I am a veteran software engineer who loves modernizing ancient software by carefully, slowly rewriting while it is still operating - without disruptions.

I am married to a wonderful person who is so full of love that she sometimes struggles with the universe (or with humanity). And I am a proud father (yes, "father"*) of a woman with a brilliant & beautiful mind and a heart as big as the universe (who also happens to have Mastery of Words™️).

I love learning new things from complete strangers. The stranger the new knowledge the more fascinating it is for me.

I have a #FragMyBrain (autistic, OCD, ND) so be ready for detailed explanations, where each word is carefully chosen & positioned in the sentence, but still some will be missing.

I quickly fall in love with brilliant people with Mastery of Words™️ (language mastery skills).

You can always shitpost with me & talk garbage - as long as it is done intelligently, with wit & humor, and respect.

The fastest way to land on my block list is not to make a mistake, but to repeatedly make the same stupid mistake again and again and insist on it being right, or being racists, queer-/transphobic, ableist, disrespectful, white supremecist, etc., etc. - you know what I mean. There is always enough space in the "Dungeon of Blocked Accounts".

I will post about anything that my #ActuallyAutistic brain will come up with: politics (CW'ed), #Trans topics, #Musings, #WorkTopics, #Blahaj, #Blåhaj, #Flutter, #Languages, #GoodMorningAgatha, #Cats, #CatsOfMastodon, #Dogs, #Animals in general, #Beauty, #Love, #TransJoy, #TransPride, #OldFriends, #NewFriends, #EnbyOnTrain, #Trainabout, #Enby, #NonBinary, #EnbyJoy, #NonBinaryJoy, #GoodNightFediverse, sometimes even #Religion, #Nature, ... you see: there is no limit!

I will add CW and mark as sensitive whenever I think so. If I forget once, please inform me and I'll correct it as fast as I can. I don't discuss with you whether something "really needs" CW/sensitive marker or not, I just accept it if you feel my post needs one.

I wear my feelings on my skin, i.e. what you read and see is who I really am, there is no IRL Imdat Celeste Aurora and a different, Fediverse Imdat Celeste Aurora: you will see a lot of 🫂,💜,😍,🥰,🥹,😳... and more. If you feel it is intruding, please let me know.

I come over differently, but I am also very insecure: so, I will add a lot of emojis - just to be sure.

Also, please don't expect a "normal person" here: I am completely, utterly, hopelessly an un-normal person.

Lastly, my posts may start with one specific topic but during the text itself it may just become something completely different - "Train of Thought".

Again, nice to meet you - I am always looking for more new friends...
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*: I am a trans femme non-binary person. When I came out to her, my daughter asked me how she should call me from then on and since it is an honor to be her father, that, yeah, I am and will always be that.