BlΓ€h stole my motivation
Every since the first surgery this year, I've been eager to recover. As some of you may remember, the day things went "big ouch!", I even shared the post Carefully optimistic π with you all. And, as some of you will also know, I've suffered the biggest trauma and loss during that week that I've ever had to deal with. It knocked the wind out of my sails, as they say to beautifully... I struggled with immense pain. The traumatic event had be struggling, scared to do anything for the fear of doing it wrong, and I was just broken. Then my biggest soulmate had gotten too ill and she had to leave my side, leaving me alone to deal with all the fears and pain, and adding more pain, feelings of guilt, and starting an immense grieving period (which still hasn't ended). π So, I have to admit, part of my motivation got drowned by all of these emotions. But... I had also promised Arwen that I would not give up, and I would never want to disappoint her, not even after death. [β¦]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/09/17/blah-stole-my-motivation/












