A dream of loss

Round the circle of her garden she walks, and stops
again, taking in, as one absent from her own
senses yet unwilling to forgo their gifts,

the half-dimmed light of a low, prepubescent
moon, its influence on lingering clouds,
some few stars brave enough to compete with

mercury vapor or halogen or tungsten,
and taking in also the pungent garlic border,
its enclosure of bean vines, celery, snap peas:

celebratory things, even in this half-light,
this dew of forgotten hours. Her feet,
though well shod, warn her of night, by noting

slow seep of dew round toes and heels.
Her hand, brushing wet night-blooming
jasmine, shrinks from chill. These, and trees

she has encouraged -- apple, plum, pear, cherry,
maple, ash -- seem to her reproachful,
watching, as it were, her heart begin to slip

to a life they cannot share. Beyond, in a stillness
of curtained rooms, her children,
innocent of this need, dream of loss.


-- shonin #poetry #midlifecrisis

Das Schöne daran, nicht mehr jung, aber auch nicht ganz alt zu sein, ist, es tun einem immer wieder ganz unterschiedliche Sachen weh. Der Körper hat sich noch nicht entschieden, was er gerne an chronischen Leiden hätte, hält sich aber alle Optionen offen. Diese Flexibilität hält einen auf eine Art ja auch fit.

#Midlife #midlifecrisis

I'm near midlife, and I am thinking about what I want to do next. I see lots of serious problems: climate change, biodiversity loss, and increasing use of non-renewable resources. They all seem pretty dire to me, if not for me, then definitely for my kids (or their kids if they have them). So I want to do something.

I am drawn to the biodiversity problem. I love animals and nature so I want to do what I can to protect them. All the problems are related, but I think biodiversity is hardest. Even if we have perfectly clean energy and can stop climate change, if the footprint of human civilization continues to expand then biodiversity will still decline.

The other thing I like about biodiversity is that we can apply the same principles to human society. I want to support the many different ways of being human. The current economy in the US seems to be about wiping out huge varieties of professions and replacing them with a few companies. I want to fight that.

#biodiversity
#midlifeCrisis
#sustainability

New blog post: Am I having a midlife crisis?

Unemployed, writing books, selling templates, and redoing the kitchen whilst trying to sell the house. Am I having a midlife crisis or just navigating the new normal?

https://rhodzy.com/blog/am-i-having-a-midlife-crisis-

#midlifecrisis #homeimprovements #smallbusiness #author #ketodiet #type1diabetes