I need a crown and am abjectly terrified it will turn into a root canal. This happened with a crown in 2018 and the dentist was so terrible that I’ve been unable to face this work. I’m working on it and we have a wonderful new dentist.

I was sharing the shame I have around my root canal with my therapist. She told me that a need for more extensive dental work has been linked to high ACE scores! With my score sitting at a 9/10, it’s likely that I’m experiencing the effects of that in my teeth.

#AdverseChildhoodExperiences #DevelopmentalTrauma

While we’re dealing with foundation repairs and cleanup from moisture coming into the daylight basement I won’t be able to set up my yoga studio space yet. My wife bring in a clean, dry office needs to be first priority.

This all makes sense from the view of my adult brain.

However, because of #ChildhoodTrauma and #CPTSD, my 12-year-old-part is feeling bereft and afraid. She feels like her space just got trashed and there’s no place for her. She feels the same helpless fury that arose when my Mother would toss my room. Failing to fold clothing “correctly” in drawers would result in all the drawers in my room and the closet being dumped out in my bed and floor and I’d be grounded until I’d cleaned it up properly.

I’m working on reassuring her that it really is temporary and she will have an even cooler space eventually. I also (really bravely) told my wife what was coming up and she’s come up with a better temp space idea that might feel more comfortable.

As if a foundation leaking water and a move aren’t enough.

#HealingTrauma #TraumaRecovery #DevelopmentalTrauma #DisorganizedAttachment #IFS #PartsTherapy #InternalFamilySystems #StructuralDisassociation #AdventuresInTherapy