What an excellent piece on #attachment specifically the #DisorganizedAttachment that arises out of being raised in a #cult bc of the push/pull of #love & #fear where the attachment is to the #ideology or #group or #CultLeader rather than the #secure base of the #GoodEnoughParent

http://www.alexandrastein.com/uploads/2/8/0/1/28010027/cults_final_ttsep16.pdf

While we’re dealing with foundation repairs and cleanup from moisture coming into the daylight basement I won’t be able to set up my yoga studio space yet. My wife bring in a clean, dry office needs to be first priority.

This all makes sense from the view of my adult brain.

However, because of #ChildhoodTrauma and #CPTSD, my 12-year-old-part is feeling bereft and afraid. She feels like her space just got trashed and there’s no place for her. She feels the same helpless fury that arose when my Mother would toss my room. Failing to fold clothing “correctly” in drawers would result in all the drawers in my room and the closet being dumped out in my bed and floor and I’d be grounded until I’d cleaned it up properly.

I’m working on reassuring her that it really is temporary and she will have an even cooler space eventually. I also (really bravely) told my wife what was coming up and she’s come up with a better temp space idea that might feel more comfortable.

As if a foundation leaking water and a move aren’t enough.

#HealingTrauma #TraumaRecovery #DevelopmentalTrauma #DisorganizedAttachment #IFS #PartsTherapy #InternalFamilySystems #StructuralDisassociation #AdventuresInTherapy