Blessed Chiquitunga: Misery Meets Mercy

“How could I not tremble, Jesus, before the immensity of Your mercy toward this miserable one, a thousand times unworthy, chosen by You!”

Blessed Maria Felicia of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament, Chiquitunga

A cracked-open door.
Two hinges: humility and wonder.
Through this door, we catch a glimpse of Blessed Maria Felicia of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament — Chiquitunga — a young Carmelite whose soul was shaped by trust in the night and total surrender to Love.

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S2 Ep48 Blessed Chiquitunga: Misery Meets Mercy

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Quote of the day, 28 April: Blessed Chiquitunga

During her postulancy at the Carmel of Asunción, Blessed Maria Felicia of the Blessed Sacrament (Chiquitunga) passed through a dark night that tested her vocation.

After a month of “heaven” in her new Carmelite life, during Lent of 1955, Sister Maria Felicia began to feel profound insecurity about her choice, made against the advice of almost everyone she knew. She thought: Wasn’t my decision to enter a cloistered monastery simply an act of self-will?—an opinion expressed strongly by the newly appointed Auxiliary Bishop of Asunción, Monsignor Ramón Bogarín.

From this insecurity came the fear that she had taken the wrong path; the fear produced deep spiritual dryness; and from all of this arose the obsessive temptation: I must leave the cloister… and if I don’t, it’s because I’m a coward.

The community confessor, the same one who had actively resisted her entrance into Carmel, pressured her to decide once and for all. Finally, on 9 August, Sister Maria Felicia made her decision—to leave. She recounts it herself:

Today, I was resolved to leave, but with the anguish of bearing the cross of my infidelity without any merit. The confessor flatly told me to say whether I was leaving or staying. I told him I would leave. A coldness of death came over me, an anguish so deep it even choked back my tears (Spiritual Diary, C, folio 15).

Before giving her final word, Sister Maria Felicia suggested they cast lots—and the confessor, eager to settle the matter once and for all, agreed. Accompanied by the Prioress at that supreme moment, they prayed before the Blessed Sacrament and placed two folded papers at the feet of a statue of Mary.

Sister Maria Felicia drew one. The confessor opened it. It read: I want to die in Carmel.

Immediately, she cried out, convinced and determined: Jesus, my Jesus! Yes, this is Your will.

At the same time, she experienced her weakness and poverty: You see my weaknesses, my cowardice, my fears, my miseries! Alone I can do nothing!

She entrusted everything to the Lord: Jesus, into Your hands I entrust my vocation!

She knew that only He could give her the strength needed to overcome herself, for at times: The weight of Your will is so heavy that I would rather die! I fear sacrifice, I fear the Cross. Help me, Blessed Virgin! Little Jesus of Prague, miracle worker of my vocation! (Spiritual Diary, C, folios 15–16).

Supported by this conviction, trust, and surrender, she renewed the offering she had made from her early youth:

Father! My Father, God of my life. My nothingness—so truly Yours—I offer it back to You today, not knowing how many times I will yet snatch it away again, desperately kicking and screaming to do my own will and not Yours.

In reality, she had never truly withdrawn her will from God. The anguish before the Cross is not a rebellion—just as it was not rebellion in Jesus at Gethsemane.

Still, she renewed her complete surrender:

Here I am, Lord! Your will! But aided by Your strength, Your love, and Your mercy, my God!

Thus, even in the midst of the “dark night,” without emerging from it, in faith, hope, and love, God’s will triumphed.

The Carmelite postulant had died to herself, united to the death of Christ.

Father Julio Félix Barco, o.c.d.

Enseñanzas desde el Carmelo (Lessons from Carmel)

Monte Carmelo 2018, Enseñanzas desde el Carmelo. De los escritos de María Felicia de Jesús Sacramentado-Chiquitunga, no. 1, vol. 126, Monte Carmelo, Burgos. Available at: https://bcd.digicarmel.com (Accessed: 26 April 2025). Licensed under Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International.

Translation from the Spanish text is the blogger’s own work product and may not be reproduced without permission.

Featured image: Blessed Maria Felicia of the Blessed Sacrament—Chiquitunga—on the day of her clothing in the Carmelite habit, 14 August 1955. Image credit: Discalced Carmelites (Used by permission).

⬦ Reflection Question ⬦
Where in my life is Christ asking me to entrust everything to Him, even when I cannot see the way forward?
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28 April: Blessed Maria Felicia of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament Guggiari Echeverría

April 28
BLESSED MARIA FELICIA OF JESUS IN THE BLESSED SACRAMENT GUGGIARI ECHEVERRÍA
Virgin

Optional Memorial

María Felicia Guggiari Echeverria, familiarly known as Chiquitunga, was born in Villarrica del Espíritu Santo (Paraguay) on January 12, 1925. As a member of Catholic Action she dedicated herself enthusiastically to the service of children, the poor, and the sick, up until the moment, when, at the age of thirty, she entered the Carmel of Asunción. In January 1959, learning that she had been struck by infectious hepatitis, with great generosity and apostolic spirit, she devoted her state of life to God. Thus, she returned to the Father on April 28, 1959, at the age of 34. She was beatified by Pope Francis on June 23, 2018.

From the Common of Virgins, or of Women Saints: Religious

Office of Readings

Second Reading
From the “Spiritual Writings” of María Felicia of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament, Virgin
(Personal Diary, pp. 192, 223-224, 245, 290; Asunción, Paraguay, 2011)

The apostolate, whether it be prayer or action, is my vocation

I want to develop my life of union with my God, a deep intimacy that costs me so much. How much I would really like to talk to him, without worrying about the time, the moment or the place! I need it so much that I hope to be able to have those days to fill myself up with my God so as later to be able to let his word, his example, his life, overflow into all souls!

You know these times of struggle that I am going through. Are they a trial for me, Jesus? Give me strength, oh divine Risen Lord! There are moments of utter discouragement. How will this lack of understanding from my family end, especially from my father? What attitude should I adopt? I am no longer distressed by my state as such, because my consecration is made with all my heart. No, that’s not what worries me; but, in this state of total abandonment that I’m gradually embracing, what will its new face be?

But why am I so troubled, Lord? If I have given myself to you and abandoned myself to you, what am I afraid of? I don’t understand why the Lord is asking me to give myself to him and, above all, I fear this second detachment more than anything else because of its repercussions on people other than myself. Jesus, can’t you make them see some of this too? I beg you, my Lord, to take me, if necessary, or to cripple me before I give in or turn away from you. What would life be worth? What would become of me then? Give me strength for the fight and above all give me much, much love; ardent love for you, Jesus in the Eucharist, for the ideal, for souls. Make me a true apostle!

In the midst of it all, I feel that the apostolate, whether it be prayer or action, is my vocation. But where exactly? My consecration to the Lord is complete; nothing belongs to me anymore, nor do I belong to myself. I am impatient because I would like to see myself definitively where I need to be. I suddenly feel a little dejected, downcast, perhaps a little physically unwell.

So, Jesus, in my dryness, I thank you, my God, for the gift of your mercy, for allowing your blood to wash away once again the multitude of my sins, and what sins, Lord!

I surrender myself to you, I don’t know to what, but I surrender; with dread, though, and with cowardice, but I surrender. As never before, I am feeling your power, my dependence on you; and, even so, you see and know how I am! Only with your mercy, trusting in it, do I throw myself into something that surpasses all human strength and even more so my own. Have mercy on me! Help me to want what you want, Jesus. Mother full of grace, you are my Mother! I throw myself into your hands, Mary! Help me to remember all the things I have learnt, how many there are, and to make the most of them, my Mother. Firstly: to live in the convent as if there were only God and I.

Secondly: to see in each of my sisters the image of God, the dwelling place of the Holy Trinity. Third: to be a constant source of consolation for all, without ever overstepping the limits of holy obedience. Fourth: to base my perfection, not on what creatures can appreciate, but on what my Creator knows. Fifth: to die in order to live and to live in order to love.

Responsory
Cf. Phil 3: 8b. 10; Rom 6: 8

R/. For Christ I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him. Alleluia. * That I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings. Alleluia.
V/. If we have died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with him. Alleluia. * That I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings. Alleluia.

Prayer

O God,
who in the Virgin Blessed Maria Felicia of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament
gave us an excellent witness of love towards your Son
grant, that, following her example,
we may live in the spirit of the beatitudes
and offer our lives for your glory and the salvation of the world.

We ask this through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son,
who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit,
God, for ever and ever. Amen.

We are grateful to our Discalced Carmelite Friars for providing the English texts of liturgical offices published after the 1993 edition of the Carmelite Proper—Liturgy of the Hours.

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🥳 Happy Birthday, Blessed Chiquitunga!
Read one of her brief prayers 🙏🏾 and revisit the glorious day of her beatification in images 📸 and video📽️

http://carmelitequotes.blog/2023/01/11/chiqui-bday/

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