Mastodawn

A girl in Chonburi told me she did a "clone a willy" so that, and I quote, she can "go fuck herself" [after the bottom surgery]

I fucking love trans women. So honest and unhinged in just the right ways

Indigo 🏳️‍⚧️

11h ago

"we are very busy... your call will be answered in about... two.. minutes.. and... 47 seconds..."

That is oddly specific.

And yes. I waited less than 2 minutes

Indigo 🏳️‍⚧️

12h ago

ChloChlo 16h ago

Getting divorced is the best thing that could have happened for my transition.

My God, I loved that girl. With every piece of my heart and soul.

And that meant I wasn't loving myself enough. I wasn't focusing on myself enough.

When I got away from her, I was no longer restricted by her comfort, her readiness, her progress, her understanding. I was able to set myself free and explore who I was without always thinking "what about her?"

I was able to voice train, find my fashion/style, begin dressing how I wanted, decorate how I wanted, make friends with who I wanted, and live a life that was unfettered by her needs.

And then I found a partner who fit into that life. The life I chose, rather than the one I was thrust into by society and childhood.

I miss her every day. And I sometimes literally see her in public and my heart aches.

But I am so much better off without her. I can, and will, rebuild. And I will make my world better than it ever was.

Indigo 🏳️‍⚧️

12h ago

At what point am I just excessively trying to find excuses to show people my vagina?

"am I dilating correctly? Let me show you where im trying to stick this"

"so hey, you think these scars will fade? *sends pic of vagina*"

"check out this before and after photo! *sends a dick pick AND a pussy pic! A twofer*"

Indigo 🏳️‍⚧️

1d ago

Question for you all:

Is expat a word I should avoid? I have zero qualms calling myself an immigrant. It is what I am.

At Vagina boot camp (Suporn/Chonburi experience) someone said expat should be avoided. That its a euphamism for white colonizers. Which. Fair. But im also not hiding shit. Lol.

But i can totally see it as a colonizer tactic to oust others as others.

Indigo 🏳️‍⚧️

1d ago

So Im back home after a day of travel! Per doctor's request I utilized the doctor's notes to get a wheelchair and assistance through the airport.

Even though I can walk... I really havnt for the last month. The 1 mile walk i did a couple days ago nearly killed me. Its not endourance of the walk on my legs, bit the energy yhat is zapped from healing. That and inflamation.

Anyways, thank goddess' that I did! I got a soecial passport control and I learned while in Thailand I wasnt supposed to leave with my fiktionsbescheinigung (fiction certificate lettibg me stay whilst awaiting temp residence permit). But this passport control asked zero questions unlike my first time in.

Imoortant because I have just... SO MUCH DRUGS. All legit and with prescription, but anyone familiar with Germany will tell you how tightly controlled Germany is with drugs. Also the ton of estrogen and prilosec and shit.

Im not breaking any rules but appreciated being taken easy on, because I'm still in such a vulnerable position ib life with my healing journey.

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PS: i have to dilate 3/day! Instead of staying at home all day every day i decided I'm going to go to Köln 3 times a week in the morning. Just for fun. I'm still bound by distance and have ti ve back for 15:00 urh dilation, but im not imprisoning myself as a new immigrant. Huh uh. No way. Lol.

#Germany #expat #immigrant