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Flora, fauna, rocks, history. #Animist. Mom of littles, creative on parental burnout hiatus. Bipolar 1, AuDHD POTS + MCAS spoonie.
Child of many immigrants on Turtle Island and Anáhuac. Where are your roots?
All purpose page because my brain is a doom box.
#AuDHD #Bipolar #SAHM
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For some positives, my general #ThreeGoodThings #3GoodThings as of late.
1. Picked up a new hobby - wood burning. I have started spending much time practicing old Norse zoomorphic knot designs and burning them. Feeling some purpose, I would like to keep doing this.
2. Got a nice therapist, and my psych is good too.
3. I still talk to my new mom friend very often, and she brings me a lot of joy. 🤍
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I'm trying to hold out optimism for this next medication.
I'm at the point where I'm really starting to resent my disorder because I just want to be normal and not be on meds, but I have to be. There's always some side effect trade off. It feels very isolating that being baseline functional is so much harder for people with bipolar.
Neurotypicals have no clue how much easier life is for them at a foundational level. Today, I feel pretty jealous. And sad.
Coming back for a bipolar update, I've really been in the wringer.
Since February, I've had several doses fluctuations and gone off of two meds. Meds number 1 and 2 showed hints of giving me a twitchy movement disorder. Med 1 also gave me low blood pressure and I was super groggy. Med 2 made me very paranoid and gave me hallucinations, and made me want to shop. Coming off of med 2 has sent me into a depressive tailspin.
Yesterday, started med 3.
I'm so tired.
1. Spent a day with new mom friend and our kids. That was fun. So refreshing to have someone else who gets it.
2. Remembered sunscreen.
3. Got cute sunglasses! 😎
1. Had a nice gathering today and the vibes were very positive all around!
2. The day was sunny. My skin is unhappy, but I'm not, at least.
3. Talked more with new mom friend and we really do get along so well. Kind of feels like we have known each other for a long time, which is a little strange. 🤔
1. One of the kids saucer chairs came in the mail. The box was so beyond beat up it was almost funny. What did it go through to get here? Miraculously the chair was unharmed, and the toddler is now glued to it.
2. I'm lying down. I've wanted to do this all day 😅
3. My hair looked nice today. Or nice-er. My hair is naturally wavy and for the first time in quite a long time I've started using product for that. Lil' self esteem boost.
1. Survived withdrawal effects from med change today. It was an instant potatoes kind of day, which honestly were so good. 😅
2. The other day, met some moms at the playground who were actually really nice, and we've been texting in a group chat. We're planning on getting together soon. This is SO RARE for moms - I'm so happy!
3. Husband cleaned the main floor today quite thoroughly, including dishes. I'm so thankful, especially today when I feel so gross. 🥹
1. Did some gardening. I dug out some irises (there were way too many) and made room for some tomato starts that were holding on for dear life 😅
2. Had a good psych appointment. Adjusting meds which is scary, but I think it's better than what I'm dealing with now. Not a fan of super weird vivid dreaming and extra blood pressure drops.
3. Had a McDonalds coffee. That sounds like such a low bar esp as a former barista, but it really hit the spot today... 😆
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