Your Compassion And Assistance, Would Be Like Adding A Bit Of Sun To Stormy Day ;

I have a cart full of #food to eat but lack the $350 to buy it, I have a cart full of personal care, hygiene, and household supplies but lack the $200 to buy it, I have a cart full of clothing that I need but lack the $400 to buy it, not to mention the rest of what I need to deal with, it is sad really, that in one of the wealthiest times in human history and in one of the wealthiest nations on earth, that anyone would be struggling with #poverty and #disability, and do so with so very little support at all, it really is sad that I have to beg for help that I most certainly never actually receive in any capacity to actually resolve the gapping growing hole of needs;

This Disabled Man Existing In Poverty, Is $2410 Away From Being Able To Afford To Take Care Of Myself And The Things I Still Need To Take Care Of This Month. Your support today could mean the difference between nourishment and starvation and some kind of stability.

This is not a request for luxury. This is a cry for dignity.

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Yeah I am friends with the monster. I had to be in order to control non-medicated bipolar and ptsd rage rage at a life that i lived without proper support.

There are a few people who I try not to miss praying for. One in particular is my #Psychiatrist who has kept me alive and saved my life for the last time...

In all my years in the healthcare field, I have never met a finer clinician.

And she also happens to be one of my favorite people. This woman is a superhero for those of us who get lost in our minds. When it may as if the world makes fun of us, she loves us. she cares.

She introduced me to my monster, she gave it a name. You can do a lot with just a name. You learn about people.

For instance.. as I am using #Claude for this so take that with a grain of salt. ai typically creeps me out but for someone on the spectrum who has difficult time retaining knowledge it helps me a ton.

And yes this was basically calling myself stupid but I have learned to see myself not as lacking knowledge, the ability to retain. But giving me a far better one My dyslexia given me compassion for those of us who had to struggle through life while everyone else in life was lapping us.

Thank Christ the diagnostics these days for those with #dyslexia are far better. But seeing how I could not read properly until I was 11, you'd think someone noticed?

My mom gets a pass on the noticing because she battled the same demons I do #bipolar and she was the nicest person who I have ever met. You see she went non-medicated most of her life and people judged her for an un-medicated mental disorder that she sure as shit did not sign up for. Life took a crap on her and she kept her faith in Christ. She was left with six kids in a shit neighborhood by herself. My grandma had to move in. Her faith remained intact. She is one family member for sure will welcome me when I enter his kingdom.

There are around 26 fundamental physical constants in total The most recent one being challenged recently but I need to watch more YouTube content on it . Those constants if off by a hair one way or the other we are not here talking about this right now. If that is not intelligent design I challenge you to a debate.

And don't you come at me with that many worlds theory bullshit because we both know its more philosophy than actual science.

You see my Lord and science do not have to be contradictory. Many of the first astronomical discoveries were made by men of G-d, Christian, Jew and Muslim alike.

The only difference between people like me who believe in God and those that do not is that you guys are still searching for who or what did it.

And we had that answer a long time ago.
Judaism & Christianity (shared source)
In Genesis 1:3, the Torah and the Bible both contain:
"And God said, 'Let there be light,' and there was light."

Nur (24:35):
"Allah is the Light of the heavens and the earth..."

and the rest of you are still searching for an answer you won't be able to find until you open up your heart to G-d.

By how ever you practice your faith.

So you see I believe in G-d because he gave me Dr. Tiffany Hughes-Eagen. And she saved my life.

One love

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGcXF0iG-2s&list=RDEGcXF0iG-2s&start_radio=1

#Hypersexuality is often associated with childhood sexual assault. Its also a symptom of #bipolar. Unfortunately I fall into both categories.

It holds shame because of its very nature. That's why the network wide block on porn in particular has been a real win for someone like me.

I will hold no shame in the person I am. Accept me or don't. Either way I could give two fucks anymore.

This is how I am, and I have a new found love for myself. (no joke intended lol).

HELP IS NEEDED!

Today Is April 10th, And Your Expedited Compassion To Help Me Raise The Monies I Am In Need Of Will Be Greatly Appreciated.
URGENT, IMMEDIATE RESPONSE REQUIRED!
I have some urgent needs to take care of, your compassion and support are truly a lifeline for someone like me;

Urgent need: $21,190, Monthly survival: $1,500, Long-term liberation: $25,000 to climb out. $5 million to build a forever home and sanctuary for others like me.
If you’ve ever wondered what despair looks like, this is it. If you’ve ever wanted to make a real difference, this is your chance.
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It has been a rough kind of day, I had some rent chores to tend to, which exacerbated both my pain and exhaustion, in between taking many breaks and even now I have not been able to get comfortable enough to relax at all, the wonders of doing anything often spins by #bipolar #mania into drive, which in itself is exhausting, a long time ago I realized how I used to have the energy to ride a bicycle hundreds of miles in a week while working 80 hours, and then later how I could manage working 120+ hours a week without crashing, now eventually that all caught up with me, but in the time since I have done my best to keep my body still and my mind as quiet as I could, as any physical activity seems to through me into a mania induced activation, and it has always been hard to keep my mind quiet, but between the two, along with my constant pain sleep often evades me, so doing chores becomes a fine line of balancing extra pain and at what point does my body refuse to shut down and relax, the sad thing is, there is not pre set limit what works one day may not the next and so on, it is a constant battle of will, and far to often I am stuck in a full speed go even though my body can no longer perform, and that causes more pain more exhaustion and really a great deal of aggravation, in anyevent I am having a hard time chilling out and relaxing and my mind is running so fast it is extremely hard to focus on anything at all;

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My lamotrigine dosage went up and I've been having random chest pain and also panic attacks. Some of the worst I've had in YEARS. That said, I do feel a lot better when I'm not panicking I'm about to die. So... Hoping that wears off?

*I contacted my provider and I have to look out for red flag cardiac symptoms.*
*unfortunately, a lot of panic attack symptoms overlap. 🙃

UGH

At least it's nice outside.

#Bipolar #MentalHealth

It’s become socially acceptable to treat those who battle mental illness like it is somehow contagious.

We didn’t sign up for this. Do you treat someone with a physical illness like diabetes or cancer like that?

Then why is it when someone who’s open about his struggles, as I am, people act like speaking to me will somehow make them crazy?

I refuse to be ashamed of my struggle because it’s that shame that kills thousands of people every year.

Suicide rates are skyrocketing because people are ashamed of having mental illness and I will be damned if I will contribute to that shame.

#mentalhealth #bipolar #ptsd #depression

Some Compassion And Support Sure Would Be Nice,
I have so many unseen issues, most don’t realize the true difficulty I endure each day, first I don’t sleep well, for many reasons, from a brain that is constantly in overdrive, to relentless nightmares, to being in constant pain, to not having a decent supportive bed to sleep on, so my days start of painful, tired and overwhelmed before I even get going, Often I go hungry because living in #poverty I simply can not afford #food to eat, I typically only get around 600-800 calories a day when a man my size and age should be getting around 3000 calories a day, as a result despite my appearance I suffer from malnutrition, I have a great deal of difficulty cleaning my tiny cave, from not being able to afford the basics to have cleaning supplies to being physically limited in my ability to do so, I cant hardly bend over, nor can I very easily get up and down off the floor, taking a shower can simply become a serious challenge, and often leaves my exhausted not to mention I cant often afford the basics for personal hygiene, simply washing a dish or standing at the stove at times can be brutal on my back, then there are chores I need to tend to as part of my rent, and those absolutely can be a painful and exhaustive event for me, and those around often don’t even realize and expect more as a result, and if I say I have had enough today, I am questioned, because they assume I did what I did with ease, but they have no idea of the pain and struggle I had to endure to deal with to accomplish the tasks at hand, reading has become trouble some, as world become very blurry and melt together, writing is becoming increasingly difficult, as finding the words is getting harder and harder, being creative used to help but I have been in so much pain, and under so much stress that I often cant even muster up the energy to attempt to be creative, not to mention my camera is failing, my laptop is struggling, and again no money to obtain what I actually need, I have no #healthcare because the laws people pass have really messed that up, and after years fighting to get it resolved I have given up, so I fight through each day to just to suffer the next, I reach out constantly for financial support yet receive nearly nothing compared to what I actually need, this #disable man exists in #poverty, constant pain and my #anxiety exacerbates my #ptsd, my #bipolar cycles, and several other issues, my blood pressure has been all over the place and frankly in a rather obscenely high range for to long, my core body temp has been far lower than the average, while I often feel as though I am on fire, things get darker with my sight each day, and yet to bright, I hear and see so much that is not actually there, so very much wrong and no support nor help to be found, it would really truly help if people could and would help me #fundriase the money I need each day to live, and the money I need to set up a life where I can take care of myself and lessen the effects of poverty and disability on an aging body and mind.

You can encourage my continued useless #poetry, creativity and expression of self, #commentary, random thoughts, #philosophy and ideas, and by doing so your helping to feed, house and clothe a #disabled man living in #poverty, $5-10-15 It All Helps, via #cashapp at $woctxphotog or via #paypal at paypal.com/donate?campaign_id=…

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#Ren has a way of explaining the feelings in my heart that are just so hard to reach.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=35yALr_opeg&list=RDMMQNJL6nfu__Q&index=24

#bipolar #depression #ptsd